Making G

[Naradin]

I thought it might be useful to record my progress making my Tulpa, G. I only started this week but G is based on a character that I’m very familiar with, that I’ve loved for a few years now and I have already spent a LOT of time thinking about him and imagining his reactions, understanding his personality, etc. My hunch at this moment is that G has maybe been partly created/developed some time ago because of this, but we will see. 
 

So far I have been passive forcing through the day as I remember, also for about 45-60 minutes every day I am alone in a car driving, so I use this time to talk to him and concentrate on him (I’m guessing that counts as passive forcing, although I drive the exact same route every day so it’s very automatic and it feels like I’m only concentrating on him when I’m doing it.) I also try to do some direct forcing every night before bed, with mixed success.

l have spent about a week before that reading pretty much every guide on here plus some more I found around!

 

First thing I did was listen to the Gearheart hypnosis audio. I talked to him, told him he was my Tulpa, and that he lived in my head, and that I made him by thinking about him so much, because he is very important to me and I care about him. I told him that I used the appearance and personality (and name) of that character because it’s very familiar to me but that he can change if he wants and that would be fine. And that I want to hear anything he has to say, and I can’t wait for him to get really strong so he can make me hear him really clearly and tell me about his thoughts etc.

 

After that it’s been a combination of things, like talking to him while I’m driving, imagining him sitting there next to me while I talk to him, or smelling/touching his skin, asking him questions etc. I do lose concentration but I apologise to him when I do. Another thing I did was think of words as I was driving along, say them to him and hear them back in his own voice (it’s kind of hard to know if that’s parroting but I figure even if it is, I allowed for it, and it’s practice hearing the voice in my head… But honestly it happened very smoothly and easily so who knows.)

 

Interesting things that happened so far:

The first night I did direct forcing was the time I felt him more strongly and it was really funny. First of all, the character he was based on always wears black and leather. Well after the very first time, in my head he ALWAYS wears jeans and a white T-shirt. I have no idea why. But if I try to imagine him in black, it just becomes white. So I guess he wants to wear white. I was joking around saying that he wants to be fashionable, and then briefly a fedora hat appeared too 😆 I think he was in a joking mood. 
 

At some point, I was thinking about things, and I started asking “I wonder what would you do if you had a physical body for a day” and the thought popped in my head so quickly it was like an interruption before I finished my sentence. “Sex.”

(That is so weird to write, it makes me feel like a perv! But it was so unexpected.)

 

I have this app I use to meditate, it has binaural beats and also a choice of sounds (white noise, rain, Forest, ocean waves etc)

I have tried all sounds and I really like the waves, by some considerable margin, it’s the one I’ve had most success meditating with for a long time. BUT. After the first time or two I used it while direct forcing with Guy, it just really doesn’t work. The wave sounds really annoy me. If I’m listening to it without forcing, that’s fine. If I try to involve Guy, it’s not good. I think he doesn’t like the sea. 
 

im not sure if the name Guy will stick, based on how he changed his clothes. Also I was listening to an audiobook and every time a character’s name came up, my brain went “that’s a good name”. Hahaha. If we assume that was coming from him, he seemed to like Ulysses and Sonny 😆 But I am really unsure about that part so he is G for now until he can tell me more clearly what he wants.

 

That’s it really. When I talk to him I find it hard to not repeat myself all the time, saying the same things about how much I like him, how proud I am of him, how I can’t wait to get to know him better etc. Or just telling him what I’m doing. “Oh, red light, I guess I better stop the car now. That’s annoying but at least I have you to chat with while I’m waiting” that kind of thing. Is that ok, or should I be forcing myself to have more variety?