Is the voice that has always talked back to me a good starting point for a tulpa?

[Jazson]

I've always had an "Imaginary friend", except I knew it wasn't anything more than just me talking myself. However, over the years I've talked back and there's been quick quips and conversation, and I've developed a habit as seeing it as "Myself 2.0" with sass and a tendency to be more responsible than me.

 

It's not my subconscious, as that's never been described to me as being able to talk back to me with sarcasm and as a full back in forth conversation, not just me spewing thoughts and pros vs cons. I'll be at the grocery store, or at home alone, and I'll "talk to myself" and have conversation with myself. Would this "Myself 2.0" work as a good base for a tulpa? As from my (limited) research, Myself 2.0 seems similar to a tulpa except I've only had brief conversation with it, given it a name that never stuck, and I can talk back to it whenever I want.

 

For example: (+ is me, - is Myself 2.0) 

+"Man, that shirt looks ugly"

-"I know right, wrong shade of yellow"

+"I mean, I have the same shade of yellow on a jacket at home"

-"Oh yeah, I wish I could forget about that, didn't you want to buy that Batman jacket instead?"

+"I almost did, but the price went up beyond my wallet range"

-"Oh bummer, would've been preferable compared to sickly yellow over there, nasty vomit"

+"Stop that, that's gonna bring bad karma to us"

-"Don't care, didn't ask, but good point, I am definitely not thinking about her tripping"

 

FYI, I have no mental disorders and do see a therapist that's never diagnosed me with anything beyond social anxiety. I have no trauma (except childhood loneliness and isolation from people my age group), so I know I do not have any mental concerns with Myself 2.0 or my perception. Plus my dad has been known to talk to himself, but as literal rambles like "Okay, I got the bolts in, now what? Oh yes, I must-" type of ramble, not a full on conversation.

[TurboSimmie]

Actually, yeah, I think it is!

 

My host had something similar before I existed, though not as well-defined as you. He described it to me as "hanging out with himself" and the feeling of having his own company. And although I didn't arise from that, I certainly took over some of those neural pathways and that energy for myself! 😁

 

I think you've actually been inadvertently doing a lot of the work of creating a tulpa without even knowing. It may be worth it to bounce this idea back and forth between the two of you, to see if "Myself 2.0" would like to start seeing themselves as a tulpa and perhaps develop their own identity rather than just your twin/shadow/whatever. It might be worthwhile, or you might decide that your dynamic is fine the way it is, either way it's up to you! 😊