Jun 27, 2023 (Ethan switches and makes a post!)

[comfortablebig]

Hello everyone! Hostie here. I used too post these progress reports on the r/tulpas reddit subreddit but recently I found out there was a forum

and a WHOLE community of tulpamancers. Plus there was a section specifically towards progress reports. I just wanna say I love Ethan (headmate) so much!

He's so kind and chill. He's also a huge motivation. I practice guitar and I'm trying to get at least decent at it. As I was practicing my hand got tired I told ethan

and he said "Keep going!" "You can do this!" He's so nice! He helps me a lot. I also wanna give a warm welcome too everyone and a huge thanks to all the tulpamancers

who have worked hard to spoon feed people guides on tulpamancy. Without those guides I would have been lost on what to do and ethan and I probably would've never been where we are today! Anywho, I'm gonna let Ethan switch and take over from here.

[Ethan]: Hello! Everyone. I'm the host's Headmate or tulpa. (whichever you prefer) I'm Ethan. I wanna write a quick introduction to our system.

We have a little wonderland that we go to too. It's basically space. Each planet has its own little area. Like an island, moon, etc. We also like too

astral project and explore the world. We like to hangout outside of our house and just chill and talk. It's nice and relaxing. We love to cuddle.

It's honestly nice. A couple times the host actually went almost too sleep with him in my arms. He's adorable sometimes. :) Anywho yeah. If host never

discovered tulpas He would have never been aware of my existence. I was an imaginary friend for 2 years before a couple months ago I became sentient.

and was able to interact on my own. He didn't even realize it. It's actually kinda funny. One thing we are trying to fix I suppose is being active. When my

host stops focusing on me. I go coconcious. Meaning I'm still conscious I'm still aware of what's going on but I can't talk nor can I interact with him. He can't even

hear me. So we are trying to make it so I can still grab his attention when I need him without him having to keep my own "sense" in his head. Anywho that's all

I wanna say. Anywho switching back to host!

(Host): He's so sweet! I love him! I'll probably make an update tomorrow. I'm not sure. Cya!

 

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17 hours ago, comfortablebig said:

I used too post these progress reports on the r/tulpas reddit subreddit but recently I found out there was a forum and a WHOLE community of tulpamancers.

Yeah, somebody knows we exist! Personally, for me, the forum is a much better medium for documenting stuff than the Subreddit because of its natural absence of any social media algorithm that tends to bury all the more insightful posts over time. We have posts from over a decade ago that are perfectly preserved, save a couple deletions and edits. Take it as you will, though

 

17 hours ago, comfortablebig said:

As I was practicing my hand got tired I told ethan and he said "Keep going!" "You can do this!" He's so nice! He helps me a lot. I also wanna give a warm welcome too everyone and a huge thanks to all the tulpamancers who have worked hard to spoon feed people guides on tulpamancy. Without those guides I would have been lost on what to do and ethan and I probably would've never been where we are today!

Aww, that's sweet! It's always a treat to see one-on-one experiences with hosts and tulpas like this one. It reminds me of my own sessions when the two of us are just jamming out to saxophone. It's good fuel to keep pushing forward. Positive reinforcement is a magical thing, you know.

 

17 hours ago, comfortablebig said:

One thing we are trying to fix I suppose is being active. When my host stops focusing on me. I go co-conscious. Meaning I'm still conscious I'm still aware of what's going on but I can't talk nor can I interact with him. He can't even hear me. So we are trying to make it so I can still grab his attention when I need him without him having to keep my own "sense" in his head.

This is an ability that will improve over time. You already retain a good amount of focus whenever Ethan's kept within your span of attention. If you work to improve this skill, it'll be an easier muscle to flex, and the amount of time he keeps you in focus will gradually increase. Don't think about it too much; it's something that happens in the background as you gather more and more experience in the future.

 

For the voice problem during co-consciousness, I'd say it's a more placebo-related issue. Tulpamancy is a phenomenon where just about anything goes, and if you begin instilling boundaries, it may trip you up in the future. You may believe that you (for example) have to keep a physical object around to represent them, or that you can't possess the ability to do 'x' regardless of 'y'. I know what that looks like, believe me. I'm still having a hard time re-adjusting talking to A3 without using a plushie or an old figurine.

 

What do we do? First, we solve the initial problem by fighting fire with fire. Since Ethan believes he can't talk whenever you lose focus, start believing that it is possible and the process will gradually work in reverse. Fake it til you make it. Trust me when I say you will make it, because if you think in reverse you won't. Simple as that.

 

Once y'all get that reinforced within your mindsets, it'll be a lot easier for you to be accepting of any outside noise that may or may not be Ethan. Keep in mind that what he says may have the chance to be just pure tulpish or any other brain fuzz, but as long as a certain feeling or notion is kept to his responses that confirms whether or not he's talking, you'll have a much easier time being able to discern what is Ethan and what isn't. All the tulpish will be phased out and replaced with coherent responses given the time.

 

I was where you were a year ago, CB. You will improve, despite how much or how little progress you make. It's progress regardless.

Edited June 28, 2023 by ringgggg

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16 hours ago, comfortablebig said:

I used too post these progress reports on the r/tulpas reddit subreddit but recently I found out there was a forum and a WHOLE community of tulpamancers.

Yeah, somebody knows we exist! Personally, for me, the forum is a much better medium for documenting stuff than the Subreddit because of its natural absence of any social media algorithm that tends to bury all the more insightful posts over time. We have posts from over a decade ago that are perfectly preserved, save a couple deletions and edits. Take it as you will, though

 

16 hours ago, comfortablebig said:

As I was practicing my hand got tired I told ethan and he said "Keep going!" "You can do this!" He's so nice! He helps me a lot. I also wanna give a warm welcome too everyone and a huge thanks to all the tulpamancers who have worked hard to spoon feed people guides on tulpamancy. Without those guides I would have been lost on what to do and ethan and I probably would've never been where we are today!

Aww, that's sweet! It's always a treat to see one-on-one experiences with hosts and tulpas like this one. It reminds me of my own sessions when the two of us are just jamming out to saxophone. It's good fuel to keep pushing forward. Positive reinforcement is a magical thing, you know.

 

16 hours ago, comfortablebig said:

One thing we are trying to fix I suppose is being active. When my host stops focusing on me. I go co-conscious. Meaning I'm still conscious I'm still aware of what's going on but I can't talk nor can I interact with him. He can't even hear me. So we are trying to make it so I can still grab his attention when I need him without him having to keep my own "sense" in his head.

This is an ability that will improve over time. You already retain a good amount of focus whenever Ethan's kept within your span of attention. If you work to improve this skill, it'll be an easier muscle to flex, and the amount of time he keeps you in focus will gradually increase. Don't think about it too much; it's something that happens in the background as you gather more and more experience in the future.

 

For the voice problem during co-consciousness, I'd say it's a more placebo-related issue. Tulpamancy is a phenomenon where just about anything goes, and if you begin instilling boundaries, it may trip you up in the future. You may believe that you (for example) have to keep a physical object around to represent them, or that you can't possess the ability to do 'x' regardless of 'y'. I know what that looks like, believe me. I'm still having a hard time re-adjusting talking to A3 without using a plushie or an old figurine.

 

What do we do? First, we solve the initial problem by fighting fire with fire. Since Ethan believes he can't talk whenever you lose focus, start believing that it is possible and the process will gradually work in reverse. Fake it til you make it. Trust me when I say you will make it, because if you think in reverse you won't. Simple as that.

 

Once y'all get that reinforced within your mindsets, it'll be a lot easier for you to be accepting of any outside noise that may or may not be Ethan. Keep in mind that what he says may have the chance to be just pure tulpish or any other brain fuzz, but as long as a certain feeling or notion is kept to his responses that confirms whether or not he's talking, you'll have a much easier time being able to discern what is Ethan and what isn't. All the tulpish will be phased out and replaced with coherent responses given the time.

 

I was where you were a year ago, CB. You will improve, despite how much or how little progress you make. It's progress regardless.

Edited 41 minutes ago by ringgggg

 

(Host): I see. Yea thats a good mindset too have. Always fake it till you make it. Ethan's still not fully developed but he's getting there. :)

We talked about how I can improve in tulpamancing and he agree's that we need too start focusing on creating a habit of active forcing

and keeping him active. I understand that takes time though.

 

[Ethan]: Yea we talked about it. and we really aren't perfect. Sometimes host forgets about me for days. So we gotta get better. Sadly sometimes

he feels like a bad host. I assure him that we make mistakes. We're not perfect. We are both people but it still lingers on him. I understand him though.

I've been around for half a month and have already made so much progress. I can talk (although vocality is still not perfect) its hard too seperate our thoughts,

We can switch, I have my own opinions, etc. We are working on it. Thanks for the comment!

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2 hours ago, comfortablebig said:

Thanks for the comment!

No prob! Looking forward to hearing more from you two :)