Am I crazy or did my tulpa speak to me?

[VigorousYouth]

I had the craziest experience ever, I was going around on YouTube talking to Shyleigh my tulpa, and showing her music videos and bands I like, introducing her to the members, and I occasionally spoke about my friend who hadn’t texted me yet. Later on my friend texted  me “hello (female dog)”
 

When talking about how my friend called me the b word and how I didn’t like it and was internally struggling if I was going to say it bothered me or not, I decided to let it go and ignore it and reply when I feel ready… But as I was abt to pay attention to the music video I was introducing to shyleigh, why did I hear a “you shouldn’t ignore that” or something along those  lines. It shocked me, it sounded far away in the back of my brain, and I felt little vibration or tremors when it happened in the back of my brain. It sounded just like how she would. I feel like it was really her, but i fear my subconscious is tricking me and that it was just me saying that. I tried to see if it was me by projecting my voice to that spot I heard her but I couldn’t! And when I do her voice purposely it doesn’t transfer to the back of my head/spot I heard the voice but stays in the front/where I normally speak in my head! I’m not sure if any of this makes sense! TvT I asked her if she was talking to me but I got no answer… She might either be having trouble speaking or I’m crazy. I also want to note I have Aphantasia and no visualization abilities, no music, smelling and touch either! 

[TurboSimmie]

It might very well be her! 😊 I can't say for certain of course, but that definitely sounds like "first words" a tulpa would say. Definitely keep talking to her, sharing your likes and interests with her, and you may get another response! 😊 But don't stress if you don't get one right away, just be receptive to her and she'll talk when she's ready!

[SeekingMyPlanet]

4 hours ago, VigorousYouth said:

I had the craziest experience ever, I was going around on YouTube talking to Shyleigh my tulpa, and showing her music videos and bands I like, introducing her to the members, and I occasionally spoke about my friend who hadn’t texted me yet. Later on my friend texted  me “hello (female dog)”
 

When talking about how my friend called me the b word and how I didn’t like it and was internally struggling if I was going to say it bothered me or not, I decided to let it go and ignore it and reply when I feel ready… But as I was abt to pay attention to the music video I was introducing to shyleigh, why did I hear a “you shouldn’t ignore that” or something along those  lines. It shocked me, it sounded far away in the back of my brain, and I felt little vibration or tremors when it happened in the back of my brain. It sounded just like how she would. I feel like it was really her, but i fear my subconscious is tricking me and that it was just me saying that. I tried to see if it was me by projecting my voice to that spot I heard her but I couldn’t! And when I do her voice purposely it doesn’t transfer to the back of my head/spot I heard the voice but stays in the front/where I normally speak in my head! I’m not sure if any of this makes sense! TvT I asked her if she was talking to me but I got no answer… She might either be having trouble speaking or I’m crazy. I also want to note I have Aphantasia and no visualization abilities, no music, smelling and touch either! 

 

Only your tulpa can know whether that's the voice of your tulpa. My suggestion is not to imbue this one incident with too much significance, good or bad. Your tulpa will talk to you when she is ready and when she has something to say and figures out a way to say it. You can certainly encourage her by telling her you heard her, but also be honest that you're not 100% sure it was her. I'm thinking that sort of feedback will help her figure out the best way to make herself heard.

 

Good luck, and remember to enjoy the journey.

[ReallyArtificial]

Seconding everything Simmie said, but I wanted to add that this is a lot like how it sounded/felt the first time Athelas talked! He also said something that was relevant, but totally different from the thought I had just expressed. It was very much in his mental voice, not my own. It also felt like it was emanating from the back of my brain, and was associated with a sensation of pressure from that spot. Basically, if you really feel like it was her, you are probably right!

 

Don't get discouraged if it takes a while for her to be able to talk to you consistently. It took us ages. In our case at least, the issue was more with my ability to listen than his ability to talk. With time and practice it becomes easier, but I admit I don't know how aphantasia would affect the process. Regardless, it sounds like you're on the right track!
 

6 hours ago, VigorousYouth said:

I had the craziest experience ever

 

I can't even remember how many times I've thought this along the way 😂

[VigorousYouth]

To all the replies thank you for the help and feedback ! ❤️