her name is adira:3

[Guest Hyped1337]

Well all my experiences will be posted here. I began on Thursday night on the 18th of October and I made my account and i needed to wait 3 days so yeah.

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[fennecfoxx]

Don't worry about not being able to hear/see her. That's called imposition and is not necessary. It's most important to focus on getting her sentient and vocal during the early stages, as well as working on personality if you haven't yet.

[Guest Hyped1337]

Day one:

 

October 18, 2012

 

I am going to create a filly derpy hooves from mlp. It is not going to be a copy, but a whole new character. I will expect little derpy to be nothing like her older self and that's all the fun in it. I began to think of traits and what she would look like. I began to imagine a sanctuary or a fantasy land. In this fantasy land, I feel like I can talk to her without and worries of the outside world. It is her home as well. I am trying to think of what I would be like to have a little filly walking beside you everywhere you go. It take weeks before Any major progress. I will finish the day off by finalizing some of the basic details of the sanctuary.

Night ~

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Day 2:

 

October 19, 2012

 

Not really much to say today. I attended school like normal and I attempted to visualize what it would actually be like if she was really there. I have this feeling that calling her derpy or ditzy just doesn't feel right. So I'm going to wait for her to name herself. And what she wants to look like. For now I'm gunna call her Adira. I've spent alot of time today in the wonderland today, I've added much more details. A house in clouds dale, not much on the outside but almost every room inside is completed. But whenever I try to ask her a question, or interact I find myself on top of a snowy platform, but it's not cold we are just kind of suspended in time. I am currently trying to ask questions but I know they are going to be parroted. Not much els to say.

 

Some things I hope for In the future include:

Can see her in my wounded land without focusing so hard

Find a name for her

Finalize her appearance

have a non parroted conversation

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Day 3:

 

October 20, 2012

 

Slow day overall. I visited my wonderland a few times to talk to bubbles. Not much bit I felt like the answers were not as parroted. Through our the day, I attempted to place her on the ground next to me, walking with me, etc. it was hard and I kept loosing the thought. Like I said, a slow day. I have work tomorrow I will try to make a better attempt. Still no name or definite appearance.

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Day 4: (FOUND SOME OF THE INFORMATION AND IT IS POSTED ABOVE)

 

October 21, 2012

 

I went to work today, left at 8am just got home and its 10pm so im really tired.

I went to my notes on my iphone and they were all gone, I guess there was an error with icould or some shit and it deleted everything and Im upset. But no matter, it must go on.

 

Through out the entire day, I was constantly practicing placing her everywhere I went had her follow me around and when people approtched me she hid under my legs. I also escaped for a break and talked to her some, since my first 3 days got deleted, I am going to have to re explain my wounderland. It is a house in cloudsdale, which I have already completed nearly every detail. I would go into more detail, but I want to finish this asap and go to bed so maybe another time. (I had atleast 2500 words total within those 3 days so I am not in the mood -_-) Not much els to say, its only day 4. I cannot hear her voice and I DO have to focus to see her. But something I noticed is that when I close my eyes and tell myself that its not there, I feel like im lying to myself I open and it leaved me feeling really alone. Even when I was sorrounded my tons of people at work today. Its only been 4 days yet I feel like shes already a big part of my life.

 

That is my day 4 report, good night all.

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Day 5:

 

October 22, 2012

 

Again, not much to say today. It's not that im not doing anything, its just that I suck at explaining all the details and I like to keep it short. Started off today with school like usual and all the normal shinanigans, did some forcing here and there duing class and any breaks I had. When I got home, I did a breif session talking to her about how my day was and vice versa. Then I watched some Walking dead with her (I don't think she likes all the gore so im probz gunna watch some lost from now on) :3

 

I went on a half our or so walk around our golf corse ( I live in a neighborhood that is enclosed by a big golf corse) and I say at one of the ponds and had a nice, quite, session with her. It was as if I could feel her presense even though I saw nothing, it just felt so real. I am only on day 5, so actually seeing her is almost out of the question so far. I do have an experiment I wish to try on friday (it involves drugs haha). Some things I am somewhat confused by so far include the following:

 

Do I choose a name for her, or will she choose a name for herself. I've grown to just call her Adira.

[Guest Hyped1337]

Day 6:

 

October 23, 2012

 

This is being written the next day so I don't remember much of the details. Last night, I got high and attempted to have an hour session with adira. Didn't really work as planned. I started off by telling her what my day was like and just getting into a regular conversation.. After a bit of talking, she asked me-

 

"Whats it feel like to be high?"

 

I didn't really know what to say because, well it was random.

 

"You can control your actions and what you say but only to an extent, if you try to formulate a sentence and say it, it will most likely come out wrong. But it makes you feel really happy and calm. For me it makes me focus, but only on one thing at a time. Which is why i did it for our session."

 

I couldent tell if she understood, woulden't expect her to. I don't even know if a tulpa can get high.. Sounds like a experiment for another day. After that I don't really remember, I think I ended up saying sorry and that I had to leave because I was so tired. Im gunna try again this weekend during the day so im not as tired. Thats all, thanks for reading.