Oh no my tulpa

[ohnomyleg]

I guess I'm just going to dive in head first here, his name is James Lanely, I usually just call him Lanely though, never call him Jimmy only I can do that and even then he only tolerates it.

 

He's 5'9, pale skinned, black hair medium length, big dark doe eyes and a smile to die for. He's based on a real person, a lead singer of a band I like but now that I have him I can't listen to the music nor see the person lest I give him a heart attack so I stay away from it at all costs. We usually refer to the person as "He who shall not be named"

 

He's nice and very sincere, he says what he means and means what he says so watch out, if you're not ready to be blindsided by some cold hard truth its best not to talk to him. Over all he's friendly, witty, likes to have a good time although he is a bit of a loner and he takes some time to warm up to people. He's short with most at first but once he lets his guard down he's really the life of the party.

 

I lucid dream most nights I usually call him forth and we have a grand ole time romping around in my dreams together.

 

Currently Lanely is fully sentient, visualized and speaks in my mind voice, we are working on getting him his own, as well as some sporatic imposition. I hope to update as often as possible although most of it will probably be from our dream times together.

[Guest Albatross_]

Either Gerard Way or Billie Joe Armstrong.

[Guest Anonymous]

I'm thinking Jack White.

 

 

Props on the thread name though. And calling him Jimmy would be silly because I'm Jimmy.

[ohnomyleg]

Lol Gerard Way is closest but I'll never tell, in fact I can't really without him getting upset, says he feels anxious and he feels my doubt when I talk about it so the world may never know. :p

 

Any way last night I became lucid, baking something in the oven pull out ice cream, I don't think so reality!

 

I quickly leave the dream scene, I usually try to go to an area with no dream characters, just in case they try to go all angry riot mob on James again. I call out to him but he doesn't come like usual. I walk around for a bit until I see a dc(dream character from now on). I ask the dc where Lanely is. She said "hide and seek" what? hide and seek? "you have to find him"

 

So I take off running through my dream scape, thinking the whole time if I were a tulpa where would I hide? I checked all rooms, door random hallways, behind things, even places that looked super scary got a good once over. This has got to be the longest lucid dream I have ever had like no joke it lasted forever. I ran through a meadow, a forest, a castle, my old highschool, a crazy steam punk city, a ballroom and still no Lanely. Finally dejected I gave up and just started flying around till I woke up.

 

I awoke to him laughing hystarically, literally rolling on the ground laughing.

 

What? what's sooooo funny, huh? You're super hard to find, its no fair your just too good >:[

"Never thought to turn around?"

oh god no, please don't tell me.

"Behind you the whole damn time"

 

That feel when you get outplayed by your tulpa, feels I don't even know right now man.

 

Also he wants the community to know he likes cats

"Tell them about my feline fondness"

I told them already sheesh

[ohnomyleg]

Long time no update, a lot of things happened family wise and tulpa forcing took a back seat to it, but through out all of it James was there making sure I didn't break. Every time I was got any kind of upset; sad, angry, anxious, he was there with a reassuring smile, and a shoulder to lean on. The only real problem with all of this is that I started to become more and more distant with my actual boyfriend. Because of that I put Lanely on the back burner, giving him enough to keep sentient and keep as vocal as he is but not really make any further progress.

 

After a week or so of this I felt terribly guilty not only as a host but as a friend so we sat down and a heart to heart about where he fits into my life and exactly what role he plays. I asked about jealousy, he said he's not, in fact he told me he liked my boyfriend that hes good for me and even that he's a good guy. That was a bit of a shocker to me I always thought, even expected jealousy.

 

Going on I always tried to classify James as either a lover, guardian, best friend, or a personal cheerleader, and he never really fit into any category, I spent a lot of time stressing about where he fit into my life so I decided that here and now I'd ask him what he thought, "Personal cheerleader with benies for sure" He showed me a smile and I could hear him laughing. I know he was joking but I pressed him for a real answer and all I could hear was "tulpa" over and over, and I guess somewhere it just clicked with me that I don't need to label him he's my tulpa so it seems he's all of the above and more.