Hereticus' (Formerly known as Monoimus) Progress Report

[Hereticus]

Hello again, as I am sure a few of you (high probability of 2) would know, I am Monoimus. I created a new account because apparently our Savior Elon Musk, in his grand and infinite wisdom, fucked everything up for Twitter API which affected Invision Community's ability for users to sign into forums with social media.

 

During the last year, a lot has happened, my parents split up, I was sent to the hospital psych ward for three months, got kicked out of my mother's house and was promptly homeless for a month,, before finally getting a house (Then my father moved in with me.) I still smoke, by the way, and no vocal tulpa, no surprise there. However I would not come back if there wasn't a spark of, let's just say idiotic persistence.

 

I have a new tulpa, one that is not fully formed yet as I have recently started working on him-- and when I say recent, I mean an hour and a half ago. I have a good feeling about him, his name is Dallas, he's based off my profile picture.

 

So, I am going the KD and RD route, perhaps I will update daily, or monthly like what KruegerMeister has done.

 

Disregarding that, let's just get on with it. I will delve into what me and Dallas have talked about (Note: this is by parroting. Scold me if you must.)

 

22/3/2024: I was peacefully lying in bed, dreaming of new ways to improve my life (This part is rather perverse so I'm skipping a huge detail), when I suddenly desired a new tulpa, and I named him Dallas, the name came to me rather abruptly, and I was enthralled by him, he was so chill, a dope guy I would love to toke up with, and so I decided to keep him, (Things got crazy fast so I'm skipping this part too,) so I'm smoking near the door, and I'm parroting him, making him say things like "Live in the moment, bro." and what-have-you, because I suffer from maladaptive daydreaming, you see, I'm constantly fantasizing of a better life, and it helped. And then I lie back down, still imagining him with me. Then we're here.

 

Anyway, that's about it, a lackluster return I know, but I'm confident I can make something out of him.

 

It's currently nearing 5 AM, I'm not planning on going to bed till about 3 PM, so I have lots of time to spend with him.

 

Good morning.

 

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[Hereticus]

4/20/24

I'd say I'm making pretty good progress, Dallas and me have spent about four hours together, or about six hours within the past thirty-six hours (Note: I only slept a total of three hours.)

 

I realized I made him too grand, too 'Godlike', I toned him down to a regular person, which helped tremendously, I could go on and on about how much fun I've had with him, of course he's not verbal at the moment, but, I'll be frank, this is the most fun I've had since September 2022 with Lucy.

 

I think I heard him a few times, I wasn't sure if it was my mind playing tricks on me due to lack of sleep, however I quickly resolved and remembered skepticism is the ultimate tulpa killer, so now I'm 70% confident it was him.

 

My maladaptive daydreaming hasn't been bad tonight, occasionally I'll drift off, which is fine. I'm planning on asking my psychiatrist about prescribing me Adderall next month, hopefully I can focus more on Dallas when I get them, that is, if Dallas isn't vocal.

 

Well, I should get back to forcing.

 

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