crazy_boris October 30, 2012 October 30, 2012 Name: Lazarus Notable Attire: Plague Doctor mask, Cloak, wide-brimmed hat, leather loafers. Date of Initiation: 10/22/2012 I began with a general idea of what my tulpa would look like. The guise of a 17th-century plague doctor seemed natural, I later went into deeper detail and visualization of the attire. I had three times that I would work on my tulpa: -In the car (Approx 1 hr 15 min, spread out across the day) -During walks at work (Approx 1 hr, spread out across the day) -One hour of dedicated meditation Driving and walking were times of passive tulpaforcing, working on conversation and imposition (imagining him walking behind me / alongside me through sound and visualization). The conversations are strictly one-way right now. He's does not have a talkative personality, which is likely to hinder our communication flow and development. The hour-long session involves active tulpaforcing in several ways. -Visualizing a ball of light transferring from my solar plexus and transferring into my tulpa, representing personality and/or life energy. -Visualization of the tulpa by closing my eyes and looking him over, noting details in attire. -Reviewing personality (I do personality a bit differently from the guides; I have an 18-point outline and I remind him of his personality often, but I also tell him his opinion and his reaction to certain events and why, based on his personality, he would react that way). I am partial to the name Lazarus, and the name Doc also appealed. I spent a good deal of time asking him which he prefers; I feel like he's leaning towards Lazarus, but I am leaving the floor open for other names that he might prefer. Whenever I have another human walking nearby, I try to emulate that feeling when walking with Lazarus. One big thing that helps me visualize the tulpa during walking is giving it a personal space bubble. Another thing I do is I hold open doors that I pass through for my tulpa, and on one occasion, I felt the door slightly recede from my hand, as if my tulpa was pushing it back open to pass through as well. CORE PERSONALITY TRAITS: -Patient -Relaxed -Judgmental (Based on one's social skills) -Classy -Observational -Inquisitive -Rational -Indoorsy -Hygienic, but not a germaphobe -Prefers cooler temperatures -Enjoys standup comedy -Enjoys non-fiction -Social drinker (Martinis, mojitos, no cheap beers) Those are some of the base traits, there are still a few detailed traits that can be categorized into the above traits In the end, I'm trying to do what feels natural.
crazy_boris October 31, 2012 Author October 31, 2012 10/31/2012 A thing I noticed recently: Whenever I tulpaforce (both actively and passively), the song "Psycho Killer" by the Talking Heads gets stuck in my head pretty often. Though the lyrics are ominous, this does seem like a song that Lazarus would enjoy (smooth, jazzy, with French lyrics). I don't think I've heard the song recently on the radio or television, it just seemed to appear out of nowhere while tulpaforcing. Should I consider this a sign of sentience or just my mind spastically remembering a catchy chorus from the past? I'll try listening to other Talking Heads songs while Tulpaforcing, to see if I can get any reaction.
crazy_boris November 8, 2012 Author November 8, 2012 I feel as though I'm starting to pick up on things being sent by Lazarus. I was tulpaforcing today during my last hour of work. I went outside to an outdoor area in the woods near a highway; Its got a stream and fauna and everything (Not much distracts me there, save for the wayward squirrel or two). I tulpaforce by closing my eyes, picturing Lazarus before me, transferring an inner-light from my solar plexus into him a few times, and after that we basically talk. Today I asked what he wanted to talk about, to which he "mumbled" something (not in the spoken sense, he sent a jumbled mental thought). I kept prying to get him to deliver the message more clearly and finally came to the conclusion that he wanted to talk about 'Memories'. Thus, I told him stories from life. I am happy to say that I DO feel like I am talking to another entity when I tulpaforce (both actively and passively), I just need to remember to keep him around whenever I can. GOTTA FOCUS, MAN. Nothing groundbreaking yet; baby steps.
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