Update Log

[BornofStars]

No longer about Mal. Now it's just an update thread for things that happen within our system and related to me.

[BornofStars]

So.

 

Updates since last log:
got a boyfriend

lost him

got new boyfriend(s) - ringery and power

aaaand entire system went to shit a few times

 

 

so aaanyways, i know that my new boyfriends make me feel happy but i don't know if they're good for my system/plurality

 

because ringery and aura have a pretty shitty past and the more i'm with him, the more aura grows distant

i don't know what'll happen if i lose her too

i lost colin

i lost mal

i don't wanna lose her

 

and any attempts i or any of us have made to talk to her have failed

she doesn't wanna hear it

 

what should i do

 

[BornofStars]

SYSTEM STATUS

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Fletch - emotions are confusing... i don't know what i feel anymore

Kelp - continuous nervous wreck. 

Z - he's somehow unaffected by any of this

Aura - i'm worried about her. i don't want her to do anything drastic like Colin did

 

Edited January 14, 2025 by Ashii

[ringgggg]

I love aura

[BornofStars]

14 hours ago, ringgggg said:

I love aura

after what she said to ringery?
 

in z's eyes she's better off dead

kelp wants her back

 

me? i don't know what i want

[Seagull]

On 1/14/2025 at 1:49 AM, Ashii said:

and any attempts i or any of us have made to talk to her have failed

she doesn't wanna hear it

 

what should i do

 

This advice may seem absurd, but I suggest that you start to associate her identity with yourself temporarily so that you can then force a new personality for her while understanding her perspective, she may simply not like certain people due to their vibes and become more open with other people, after this practice I then suggest that you start writing a book where she stars as the main role, to see what choices she makes when given absolute freedom, to hear her to think about what she wants out of life.

- Alexander

10 hours ago, Ashii said:

after what she said to ringery?
 

in z's eyes she's better off dead

kelp wants her back

 

me? i don't know what i want

I don't mean to intrude, but... I would suggest that you, Fletch, think about what Aura's core personality is, at the moment she is described as reclusive and distant, but is there a way for her to express a different side of herself that is more open and honest? Encouraging her to redefine herself may be just what she needs to be more active in the system.
- Alexander

[ringgggg]

11 hours ago, Ashii said:

after what she said to ringery?

Dude, if you're leaving your friends just because they can't mesh with other people you know, you're being way too conditional about friendship. You should forgive her and try to find compromise. You don't have to force her to like people.

[BornofStars]

JAN 27 // FLETCH/AURA

 

Relationship is stable.
I'm stable.

Everything is fine.

 

 

It's not plurality i've had for all this time. It's DID.

Dissociative Identity Disorder.

 

I'm fine. Don't worry.

 

Everything is fine.

 

He's acting weird, but...
yeah. It's all good.

Edited January 27, 2025 by Ashii