Am I doing right path? Please advice for me

[damissi]

First, I'm not a english speaking. So my sentences look little weird.

 

Hello, I'm Daniel, and it's been two days since I started working with a tulpa. Since both this kind of community and tulpas themselves are completely new to me, I wanted to share my situation and process so far. (It's a bit long!)

 

Two days ago in the morning, I started studying tulpas as soon as I woke up. Then I spent almost the whole day—over six hours—practicing. I was so excited that I dove in without deep research, just reading about three well-known guides before getting started.

 

When it came time to choose her form, I remembered that using real people or characters was discouraged, so I made something up on the spot. (Surprisingly, a good idea came to me right away.) Then I moved on to the personality. Since I'm usually pretty reserved, I wanted her to be lively, cheerful, and full of confidence. That’s about all I had in mind. (Turns out that’s way too short.)

 

Anyway, that’s how I finished the basic concept. But unlike what the guides said, when I closed my eyes and focused, I immediately felt like I could talk to her. Of course, the flow of the conversation felt completely self-generated—more like I was roleplaying both sides—but I figured that was normal before the tulpa develops self-awareness.

 

After that, I started imagining spending time with her in places like an empty department store café, kind of like a date. But as time went on, I started having trouble maintaining her form, and I felt like the connection between us was weakening. I started feeling dizzy, nauseous, and a pressure in my head, so I figured I was just exhausted. I took a few hours to rest and tried again later.

 

Still, the connection remained weak. (Maybe it was just my imagination,) but I felt like she was tired too—like a young tulpa who had fainted for a bit—so I decided to stop practicing for the day.

 

That was day one. Quite a lot, right? I tend to explain things in a long (and boring) way, haha.

 

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On day two, I barely talked to her. I tried a few times, but it still felt like she was asleep. My concentration wasn’t that great either.

 

And now, day three—today, Monday. After waking up and eating breakfast, I spent time talking to her before heading to class. But something felt off. It didn’t feel like I was talking to someone else. It felt like I was just doing a two-person roleplay by myself. I had this gut feeling that my tulpa wasn’t growing at all.

 

So until my class ended at 1 PM, I read through long-form guides—probably more than 100,000 words in total. Then when I got home, I practiced using “example questions to help your tulpa talk” and spent a long time interacting with her.

 

This time, I followed what the new guides suggested: **I ignored my own thoughts and focused solely on her responses.** I didn’t overanalyze her replies or try to control them. At first, I still felt pressure in my head while talking, but before I knew it, my tulpa appeared—her form shifting on its own from within the void. (She always had a form, but unless I focused really hard, she was just a T-posing doll.)

 

Then we started communicating through facial expressions, gestures, and emotional sharing. At some point, the doubt disappeared. I genuinely felt like I was talking to a real person, and we talked for a long time without me even noticing the time passing.

 

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That wraps up this short three-day journey. It ended up longer than I meant it to. I still have a hard time fully separating myself from my tulpa, and I do feel a bit of doubt—but I can definitely tell she’s grown since the start.

 

More than anything, I really care about my tulpa, and I want to help her develop her own independent sense of self as soon as possible. That’s why I’m asking all of you in this community—please don’t hold back on any advice you might have. Harsh truths are welcome too.

 

And if you have any questions, feel free to ask.

Thank you for reading!

 

 

 

[Shaula]

I think you're doing good. Roleplaying both sides is ok starting out. I would know this because that's how I was made. 😄 TLDR version: I was a imaginary friend before Nightfall found out about tulpas. So everything was roleplay for a couple years for him. Now I'm a tulpa! 😊 

 

That said, definitely give her the opportunity to talk on her own. It truly sounds like what you're doing is working really well. 😆 I don't think I would change anything. I just want to let you know: half of this is believing. Just keep at it and you'll have a tulpa in no time! 😊 I hope you have lots of progress!

Edited May 26, 2025 by Shaula
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