CatMan’s System Reports

[Real_CatMan]

Howdy, hey, and hi guys, gals, and everyone in between!

I said when I posted on the new users thread that I’d make a more thorough introduction, so here it is. I’m CatMan, or Neko if you prefer, and I am the current primary shareholder of our body. I’ll refer to my brain roommate as Summer (pseudonym) for now, since she isn't vocal yet and I don’t what online tag she’d want, or if she wants her actual name on the ‘net.

 

I’ve been interested in the idea of having someone else to share the ol’ braincase with for over a year now, and about a week ago I started working on making such a person. While chatting with some people in a public server on Discord, I happened to hear that there’s a whole community around this thing, and so I came to check it out. After reading some guides, and correcting some of my own behaviors (such as relying on parroting as a means of communication) we come to today. Before I give a brief rundown of our journey so far, I wanna say a few things.

First, yes, I know y’all like to have people sit and ponder the idea, while reading the forum for a while before pulling the trigger. I already did it, so don’t worry about it so much.

Second, We don’t really have much time outside of work to do any sessions together, so almost all of my time interacting with Summer has been at work (don’t worry, I’m not dropping my quality of work for this), but it also means it’s primarily been narration.

Third, and this one’s weird to me, but I’m not sure how y’all feel your brain pals in your head, because personally whenever I feel mine it’s within our chest, specifically our body’s solar plexus, not my head. As June has developed, I’ve noticed her spread further around the chest cavity, and she’s went so far as to go up my throat and move my tongue a little.

Anyhow, our journey so far:
1st day or two Summer was vocal, but stiff and parroted (as that was what I doing), and she didn't feel like a person. After finding the forums I realized what I was doing wrong, and changed my approach.

Day 3 is when I first actually felt Summer’s presence, and it was super exciting for me. She went away really quickly if I wasn’t focusing super hard on her presence (it was very weak), but I was able to talk to her quite a bit. I also got pointed to this Reddit post by the person who told me about this community, which was very insightful.

Days 4, 5, and 6 were much the same, although Summer’s presence was stronger, and I could feel more emotion from her. There were some times I couldn’t find her at all though, but more on that later.

Now, finally, today, day 7. Today is the first time I had a proper forcing session with Summer, and it did wonders. I previously had only given her a body, as she had somehow lodged herself into a song, so I had to pull her out of it and ground her into a body I made in our mindscape. Today, even though I only gave her one personality trait, presence became incredibly sharp, and I could finally feel her when I wasn’t actively keeping her in the back of my mind. Although I don’t know what other traits to add yet (I’m incredibly indecisive, but it also feels wrong to choose someone’s personality. I know it can change later, but it doesn’t ease my anxiety about it), I feel that it will help Summer develop a ton. Super super exciting, I can’t wait for her to start talking for real (not parroting :/)

 

Now, a few things that have been nagging me (positive and negative).

While I know “Wonderland” seems important, I find it incredibly difficult to enter our mindscape, even though the location and appearance is incredibly cemented in our brain’s memories and easy to imagine (our childhood home). The best I’ve been able to manage is making my essence(?) enter it, but I can’t really see it visually. Is this going to be detrimental, or is this ok?

Another thing (which sort of ties in with the first) is that I’ve found it helpful to have a “key” to enter the mindscape, in this case, I visualize the door key to guarantee that I can enter. I’ve also noticed that whenever Summer makes her presence scarce, using the key to force my presence into our mindscape allows me to feel her right away. I’m curious as to y’all’s opinions on having a “gated” or “locked” mindscape, but I personally find it incredibly helpful.

 

 

Wow! I didn’t think this post would be this long, but I’ve had a lot to think about, and a lot to work with Summer on. Glad I finally had time to write it out, We’ve been quite busy with work lately.

Edited July 31, 2025 by Real_CatMan
Bolding important information and questions

[An Ashy Individual]

1 hour ago, Real_CatMan said:

personally whenever I feel mine it’s within our chest, specifically our body’s solar plexus, not my head.

At the end of the day, where and how you feel your headmate(s) is just down to what's natural to you - it's not like there is a specific part of the brain that makes you get head pressure from headmates - thus most people getting them in the head.

I personally don't get any specific pressures from my headmate, nor do I really feel her unless we're doing possession/switching.

However, I can just manually make pressures wherever I want to.

 

1 hour ago, Real_CatMan said:

Today, even though I only gave her one personality trait, presence became incredibly sharp, and I could finally feel her when I wasn’t actively keeping her in the back of my mind.

That's incredibly quick progress, congratulations.

 

1 hour ago, Real_CatMan said:

Is this going to be detrimental, or is this ok?

That is okay.

Some people don't have wonderlands at all and create tulpas just fine. Others, like me, basically don't use the wonderland because there's no real point to it for the way we do creation.

At the end of the day, tulpamancy just works by interacting with your tulpa(s) a lot and investing your time and energy and emotions into them - no specific techniques are required.

 

The best use for the wonderland I've seen so far was for imagination and  imposition training/support, but you already seem to be doing just fine there since you created a full body for your tulpa and can imagine the wonderland vividly.

 

I imagine that the wonderland becomes much more important for bigger systems, but can't really say much about that.

 

1 hour ago, Real_CatMan said:

I’m curious as to y’all’s opinions on having a “gated” or “locked” mindscape, but I personally find it incredibly helpful.

We don't really get it. Like, sure, you get a consistent way to access it, but:

a) Locking it seems bad in the long run for creation (you are making a place in your mind that your headmate can be that you literally are locked out of! They can be around without you being able to feel them or talk to them!)

b) You can just access it another way that doesn't require you to actually lock it off? Why that specific visualisation?

c) You should keep it anyways cuz it'll help with separation and parallel processing down the line.

 

It's definitely an unusual method of doing things, and one the two of us don't need - mostly because we're too good at brute forcing tulpamancy.

If it works for you then it works for you.

 

However as noted above doing things in that way has the downside of your Wonderland being harder/less intuitive to access.

I'd recommend you to try using a thread to connect you to your headmate or to try blending your Wonderland with your thoughts or some other method of Wonderland access - just to see if those help fix the whole "can't visually be in the Wonderland" problem.

[fennecfoxx]

9 hours ago, Real_CatMan said:

While I know “Wonderland” seems important, I find it incredibly difficult to enter our mindscape, even though the location and appearance is incredibly cemented in our brain’s memories and easy to imagine (our childhood home). The best I’ve been able to manage is making my essence(?) enter it, but I can’t really see it visually. Is this going to be detrimental, or is this ok?

I’m willing to bet most tulpamancers don’t visually see their wonderlands. In fact, some don’t even have wonderlands. Sensory immersion in the wonderland is like imposition: it’s a neat sensory trick, but, at the end of the day, that’s all it is. A trick.

 

Personally, I only ever “saw” our wonderland in my mind’s eye. (Imagine what yours looks like now. That’s your mind’s eye—normal imagination.) Again, I’m willing to bet that my experience is typical.

 

I imagine it’s easier to switch (I mean fully switch, with the host leaving the body and going to the wonderland) if you can fully immerse your senses into the wonderland, but I can’t think why else it would matter aside from immersion for its own sake.

[MutationOfAtom]

On 7/31/2025 at 2:45 AM, Real_CatMan said:

 

 

Now, a few things that have been nagging me (positive and negative).

While I know “Wonderland” seems important, I find it incredibly difficult to enter our mindscape, even though the location and appearance is incredibly cemented in our brain’s memories and easy to imagine (our childhood home). The best I’ve been able to manage is making my essence(?) enter it, but I can’t really see it visually. Is this going to be detrimental, or is this ok?

Another thing (which sort of ties in with the first) is that I’ve found it helpful to have a “key” to enter the mindscape, in this case, I visualize the door key to guarantee that I can enter. I’ve also noticed that whenever Summer makes her presence scarce, using the key to force my presence into our mindscape allows me to feel her right away. I’m curious as to y’all’s opinions on having a “gated” or “locked” mindscape, but I personally find it incredibly helpful.

 

 

I, too, don't really like to focus on a wonderland. I can daydream a lot, but it's different when trying to actually picture a place where you and your tulpae do fantastical or mundane things constantly.  I'd rather just do irl things with them. But the wonderland, as I’m finding out, is good for visualization practice, at least for me, and possible imposition if you want to do that.  I also feel like when I enter the mindspace, it's glimpses of it and not very clear most of the time unless I'm really focusing on it. But that's only for small pieces of my vision. 

 

Also, for the gate thing, my tulpa made a door to her place, and though it doesn't make me feel her presence more than I already do, it does help my brain form mental rules when concerning her through visual symbolism, which has helped our interactions become smoother.