Nick Progress Report

[Nick_]

Confusion!

 

I am very confused. Today is the seventh day of creating my tulpa Ye Ming, I am not even sure if I can call it that. I did an active forcing session as soon as I woke up and received responses that made me sad, and with a confused happiness.

 

I asked Ye if he liked the things we did throughout the week, and he gave me the following answer: "You are strange".

 

After receiving this answer, I refuted it with great sadness, and suddenly I heard a “That's good” along with my thoughts. As if it were a “You're weird, that's good,” I'm not sure if it was him or intrusive thoughts. I'm almost certain that these two answers were him because I wasn't really thinking about them, I had a stream of different thoughts and suddenly I “see” these answers forming, but even so, I still have a little doubt.

 

After this very confusing sequence of answers, I asked him if he liked the name I gave him. From that question on, I couldn't tell if they were my thoughts or his answer. Later, I asked him what name he would like to be called, and still unable to discern whether the answer was his or my thoughts, I began to think of many names. So I don't even know if I can call him Ye.

[fennecfoxx]

Getting confused whether a response is from your tulpa or not is normal. If you’re not sure, ask. If you still can’t tell, step back, go do something else and clear your mind, and try again later.

 

Thinking of a lot of names sounds like intrusive thoughts—your mind just generated a bunch of answers without really filtering. When you get multiple conflicting answers or answers that don’t make sense, you’re probably hearing intrusive thoughts. 
 

It’s possible he doesn’t have an opinion on his name yet. You might get a clearer answer asking if he has an opinion on it than whether he likes it.

 

I have a 14-year-old* tulpa watching over my shoulder trying to steal my ramen who says she’s never thought much about her name. I’d wager most week-old tulpas haven’t, either.

*Referring to her chronological age, not her form

[Nick_]

I will try to clear my mind and “forget” this confusing situation. I have asked him many times about this possible answer and have not gotten anything.

Thank you for the clarification.

Edited August 23, 2025 by Nick_

[Nick_]

Possible Communication!

 

As always, I meditated before going to sleep, did an active forcing session for approximately 40 minutes, and then I lay down and began to meditate, with the different intention of entering a state of hypnagogia. I couldn't get in, I tried for a long time, I had a feeling of going in and coming back. No images appeared, but rather a physical sensation. I was apparently moving, and a few seconds later I was in the same position, meditating. I don't know if this sensation of movement was just my imagination or if it really happened. I fell asleep and had no dreams.

 

I woke up around 4:30 and started meditating again. This action was preceded by some strange feelings. When I was very relaxed and focused on my breathing or simply on the black screen, I felt myself dissociating. It's not the same everyday feeling of my ever-present self; I felt more than one. Dissociating between one and two. I've read some reports that talk about the feeling of presence, but I'm not sure if that's what it is. I couldn't get in again, so I went to talk to Ye.

 

I tried to talk to Ye as I finished meditating, turned to the side, and started talking to him. I asked a few questions as usual and got no response. But again I started to dissociate, and in the middle of it I saw a thought forming, written, “So, .......”, I couldn't identify the rest. I asked Ye, “So what??” I repeated once more and was very confused. While I was confused and wondering what came after “So,” I saw him taking a book out of a box, as if he were going to read it. He looked at it and said, “I think it was to appear an x". I stayed, “Huh??? What??? What x??? What book???” He said, “Dude, a Kindle,” which confused me even more, “What Kindle?? And who says 'dude'??!!!”. After that, I was very confused and asked him if that was his answer. I told him to say anything, a sign, a name, someone, and... I “heard/saw” a thought forming when I was asking him to do something. He said the name of someone who lives with me, it was very spontaneous, my train of thought was elsewhere and I don't even say her name, I always call her aunt, he called her by her nickname, and why would he say her name right away? Immediately after I see this thought forming quickly and spontaneously, I start to feel strange. I felt happy, euphoric, and I had just woken up, the most I feel is tiredness, anger, or the desire to sleep more.