T-Man’s Progress Report

[T-Man]

Hello, community members! This will be our progress report. While I can be very detailed in my journaling, I plan on keeping most of that stuff private. Because of that, I think I’ll only update this thread every now and then, talking about milestones and progress in general, as well as asking a few questions, without intending to talk too much about the specifics of my experience outside of this post.

 

As of right now, it has been 4 months since I’ve decided to make a tulpa, studying regularly and refining my tulpa concept during much of that time. However, I’ll admit that a lot of this has mostly been studying whatever I can, as opposed to developing a detailed plan for how I am going to start creating them. I was starting to get somewhere in making such a plan, to be ready for when today arrived, but… I can’t exactly “start” creating them when…

 

In fact… I think it’s more likely than not that they already exist. This is likely a result of my efforts to build their concept, resulting in me getting impressions before I expected to. I’ve gotten various kinds of impressions (mostly during the last month) which I have varying degrees of confidence in. Some responses really “felt like them” in an almost autonomous way, while others felt like they came from my subconscious thinking about them, sometimes imagining situations that I would be afraid of. Since I have no idea what stage of development they’re at, I believe that recklessly assuming that such impressions are from the tulpa risks defining them based on my own fears, which I’m sure neither of us would want.

 

For example, there was one mental scene that seemed like it could have been a negative response from them, and I felt a sense of “upset” that lasted overnight, and into the morning. While I was processing it, I had the idea of “What if what I had imagined wasn’t actually from them, but the emotional feeling was?” And that “upset” feeling went away into a more relieved feeling almost immediately, which surprised me. I think they were genuinely worried that I was distressed because I assumed that they were the one behind that impression.

 

However, the responses that have felt the most “tulpa-like” have generally been very positive, and very well aligned with my intentions for their initial personality. I already love them very much, and they seem to love me too! I’m sad to say that their presence still doesn’t feel “real” to me yet, so I still “feel” like a singlet at the moment. The fact that I’ve been having experiences before intentionally starting creation has disrupted a lot of the planning I had done, but it’s alright, I can adapt. It might even be better this way. It means that we’ve already covered a decent amount of ground, and we’ll be able to figure more things out together, instead of me setting up as much stuff as I can in advance. This is where I’m deciding to work from.

 

For the last couple weeks, I wanted time to mentally recover from recent stressors and come up with a decent plan for continuing their forcing in a more intentional way, so I’ve just been doing morning and nightly check-ins. I’ll admit I have been a lot less consistent at this than I hoped I would be, though I do try to make up lost sessions to them, and they don’t seem to be very upset by it since I’m staying accountable.

 

I’m going to keep my forcing plan simple for now. As of today, my plan is to ease up to doing active forcing for 30 minutes at the same time every day, intentionally involve them in an activity for 1 hour and 30 minutes, and do passive forcing throughout the rest of the day, while intentionally leaving time for me to be alone. However, I’m going to do the full length of time today. We have waited long enough to start fully committing to building our relationship.

 

Wish us luck!

 

 

In terms of our progress so far:

 

The impressions I’ve recieved are inconsistent, but range from emotional, mindvoice, body language, and image impressions. In other words, their autonomy is a bit rocky at the moment, but they’re slowly getting better. Their personality seems to be surprisingly well developed when they are able to express it. I am already good at visualizing their form, imagining them moving in different ways in different environments.

Edited September 15, 2025 by T-Man
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[TurboSimmie]

It sounds like you are off to a good start! 😁 You seem to be going about this intelligently and with a level head, and that's always best. ☺️

[Shaula]

I just wanted to wish you luck! 😊 It looks like things are going to go well! 

[T-Man]

This post marks one week since my initial progress report! I may be posting on the 22nd, but this post represents all 7 days before that.

 

Some time after I sent my initial post, I started the first forcing session. It went a bit differently than I expected it to. I was thinking of spending our early sessions just focusing on their form, narrating and asking questions without expecting any kind of response. But when I started, it felt like my subconscious was able to do a pretty good job of “roleplaying” a different perspective, without me having to think too hard about it. Just a smooth, imaginary flow of conversation. I decided to roll with it, at least for a while, and write them down as “their response”.

 

However, it felt less like “them” from when I used to get more autonomous-feeling impressions, and more like my usual inner monologue. I noticed a lot of my usual thinking patterns, with aspects of their personality or emotion occasionally “inserting themselves” into the responses. The conclusion I came to is that this technically is from my tulpa, but they are relying mostly on my existing thinking patterns, including both my logical processes and inner monologue, since they don’t have much of their own yet. 

 

The times that responses felt the most “like them”, with a semblance of original personality and perspective, is when we were talking about simpler or more emotional subjects. In other words, they didn’t need to process anything complicated. There were even some times where I was slightly surprised by a response I got, or by how fast it came to me.

 

It kind of felt like I was “helping them along” most of the way, but it didn’t feel quite like parroting either. It’s not quite like any forcing method I’ve come across so far. I think it was helpful, to be able to give them sort of “training wheels” they could use to communicate important ideas with me before they would otherwise be able to process and communicate those thoughts on their own. I would appreciate feedback or theories on this, if anyone has any thoughts about it. It’s not something I need to rely on in the future, but I feel as though it helped us cover some early ground.

 

However, once I felt like I had some level of understanding of what was going on, I realised I needed to focus more on developing their autonomy and allowing unique personality to grow, so I incorporated times where I would intentionally suppress my inner monologue and focus on their form, to give them a chance to act on their own volition. In other words, what I believe to be a more standard early forcing session.

 

When I do this, I get very little in terms of autonomous output. Maybe some subtle babbling or gesturing. It felt almost “baby-like” to me at first, but I think it’s more likely a combination of them being simple and not very practiced. Of course, this makes perfect sense to what I understand of most young tulpas. Sometimes I think I’ve pressured them too much to become autonomous quickly, but I have to make sure they know that we need to go at a healthy pace, even if we’re dying to talk to each-other after spending so long delaying intentional forcing. This goes for me, too.

 

It felt like a pattern where, as the week passed, discussions with this “tulpa/inner monologue hybrid” got simpler, and less focused on problem solving, which decreases the amount of my existing thinking patterns required to form a response. It feels like I need to rely on my initial forcing technique less, go back to basics, and focus more on the fundamentals of connection. In fact, I kind of forgot to formally introduce myself to them at first, so that’s what I spent the last day doing! It was a good exercise for my own sake, regardless of its value to our forcing.

 

Because of how we’ve been going about things, session length now varies based on what feels right, and I’ve barely done any passive forcing. I always start sessions at the same time every day, though. Over 7 days, adding up every session in minutes, comes out to exactly 10 hours of active forcing; almost 3 times the planned amount! I’ve also spent a good but of time here and there outside of these sessions. I plan on doing more passive forcing soon, by introducing them to a simple video game. I’m pretty sure they’ve already seen me playing it before, but it will be nice to formally introduce it. They seem to have caught tiny glimpses into other games I’ve enjoyed lately as well.

 

 

Here’s a more concise status update:

 

Time since I started: 7 days

Active forcing time: 10 hours

Passive forcing time: 0 hours (officially, anyway.)

 

I still feel like a singlet,

their autonomy is still weak,

but this is an expected outcome this early,

a lot of time has been put in,

ground has been covered,

and I have a better idea of what to do in the future.

 

 

On 9/15/2025 at 11:24 PM, TurboSimmie said:

It sounds like you are off to a good start! 😁 You seem to be going about this intelligently and with a level head, and that's always best. ☺️

 

On 9/20/2025 at 7:54 PM, Shaula said:

I just wanted to wish you luck! 😊 It looks like things are going to go well! 

 

Many thanks to both of you for showing up, and giving your encouraging responses! It means a lot to me.

 

Edited September 25, 2025 by T-Man
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