ilikecat1 progress report

[ilikecat1]

Figured I may as well start one now, asked my tulpas and they said okay. We've made considerable progress surprisingly fast (I assume), so I'll just dump as much of it here as I remember, while the memories are reasonably fresh.

 

I started out on 6 Dec 2025. I didn't keep a very good log (or any log, other than starting date). Sometime around the the second or third week of January 2026, I got a definite response. I'll call this one the light one. Prior to that, I was very scared of parroting, but then I read:

And it shaped my methodology greatly. A little later (not very much later, maybe a few days) I just randomly got a response that wasn't the light one's response. This tulpa I will refer to as the dark one. He is slightly more edgy than me. His form is pretty much pitch black, except for some facial features that aren't always there. I won't share too much to avoid getting bogged down. Neither I nor the light one are able to tell what the light one's form is, but it seems to be mildly feminine, and quite blue-themed. The light one seems to be having some difficulty with their identity, though, so I'll let them keep trying to figure it out.

 

At this point, I've started to hit the point where I am not sure what to do — guides and such do have excercises. but I am not entirely sure what to do. I have trouble with getting the tulpas to stay with me throughout the day (not their fault, my mind wanders and I can't talk to them many times because I essentially forget about them short-term) but if I do remember them, the light one (at least) is usually mildly angry that I didn't passively force enough. I will take some fault with this, as I tend to do other things when I should probably be active forcing, but I take so long to get to bed that that is my forcing time now. I'm not sure it's still needed, but forcing before bed beats doomscrolling :)

 

My methods have consisted of believing that everything that I don't explicitly think/do that isn't super negative is the tulpa, and otherwise not. If I am unsure, I ask "was that you" to them, and they respond. Simple. I take that response at face value and don't push further. This seems like it might or might not work with switching, as I suffer from pretty bad dissociative disorder (the one where I feel like I'm viewing life through, e.x., VR goggles) and even before starting, I still sometimes felt like it wasn't me — but who could it have been? — so now even things that should feel foreign feel like me. At this point the mind-voice seems pretty obvious who it is, at least.

 

That's all for now. I'll update this by creating posts as I go along, and updating this original post with links to the posts for ease of reading. I'll try to keep this dense, for brevity. If any posts are too hard to read, ask me and I'll rewrite it.

 

This post was not written with AI, I just like em dashes.

 

Logs:

https://community.tulpa.info/topic/26575-ilikecat1-progress-report/#findComment-508065

 

Edited January 30 by ilikecat1

[ilikecat1]

This is probably way too early, but I'm going to try imposition. I think this might be a good way to visualize, and give slightly more confirmation that they are, in fact, real. If there's two tulpas moving on their own in a slightly complicated manner, I'm not going to be able to pretend that's me. Thankfully, I've done plenty of attempts (mildly successful) at closed-eye visualization, so hopefully this will be easier. Just leaving this message to log what time I started trying.

[fennecfoxx]

There's no such thing as "too early" for imposition. Imposition is an advanced form of visualization—a skill that's useful for perceiving your tulpa but by no means limited to tulpamancy. (In fact, I was first introduced to the idea on a lucid dreaming forum. I think the point was to make your dreams more vivid by practicing visualizing objects and such until you can see them like they're real. I don't remember exactly.)

 

Good luck!

[ilikecat1]

Well, depression has hit hard. I'm going to be doing occasional passive forcing but otherwise none of us have the energy to do much of anything. I will be trying, but I don't have much to try with. Good thing is that I have plenty of support from people offline, although nobody really knows about the tulpas. I will not be active here for a while, but any progress will be posted *if* any is made.

 

This is a great community.

[Saruzer]

I hope you will be alright as well as your tulpas. Stay strong and try to get better. You can do that! Believe in yourself no matter what!

[Shaula]

Aww, I hope you feel better soon as well. I'm glad you have plenty of people to support you, that's very good! 😊 Here's a digital hug too! (⁠っ⁠.⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠っ 

[ilikecat1]

We are back. I probably should have mentioned it's mostly seasonal depression. We took up exercise which helped (they like switching very much, and exercise is a good way to practice it). Thank you Saruzer and Shaula for the words of support.

 

Anyways, we are not going to try imposition yet as switching has become the priority. Either way, as far as I can tell, they are developed quite well (they think so too) so the original goal of forcing better and warding off doubt doesn't apply anymore anyways. Well, it's not really switching so much as full-body possesion, I still need to concentrate on things such as not accidentally forcefully taking back control. We will have to get the "main thinker" part of switching down. I recall hearing something about "knocking out" the host to help with that. I am completely fine with that, and they are too (if it's not dangerous) but none of us can figure out how to do that. We will struggle a little more and then maybe post a question on another section of the forums if it still won't happen.

 

Thank you all

[ilikecat1]

Dark one here. We have done well with switching, which is how I can type this. There's not too much for me to do outside the mind lately (been busy), but I bugged him to have the computer for a while :)

Imposition turned out to be really difficult, so when there's not much to do we mostly try to get auditory imposition by shouting really loud. It hasn't worked too great... probably should read a guide but figuring things out is fun

 

Light one here, just wanted to tell you I can switch too!

 

There seems to be a little trouble with getting the host to switch back right now so he can't type, but he says sorry for not updating for so long