Mapleb's double report

[Mapleb]

Hello, I'm finally getting around to writing a progress report, so I'm going to start by explaining a little about how I got started with this

 

Also I'll be using Google Translate in case there are any typos

 

The first time I heard about tulpas was in October of last year, and around the week of October 13th I started creating Santi (that's what I nicknamed her, but she might choose another name in the future). Before this, she sometimes appeared as a feeling of pressure in my head when I asked a question. This started in 2018 or around that time, idk, but I never developed it further

 

I initially focused on designing a simple body for her, a being made of shadows with a dress, a white eye, and white bows on her wrists and head. And then I decided to integrate this feeling into the new form I created, trying to visualize he as a mass emerging from my subconscious and merging into a sphere, which I then transformed into the shape I had designed

 

Some things to note about Santi's development during the first few weeks were the difficulty I had visualizing her. In the early days, I used to visualize her against a black and white striped background, which for some reason made it easier. Later, I began practicing more visualizing her in my wonderland, but soon another problem arose, her form wasn't very stable, deforming parts of her body, making it difficult to recognize, or eliminating certain features, especially the white parts. Although, I can now say that this was mostly due to her lack of experience controlling and maintaining her body, as well as my inability to understand when she wanted to change something about her design

 

Up to this point everything was normal, trying to resolve the issues with her body and establishing a binary system through pulses in my head. But with the discovery of tulpamancy, a memory from the pandemic resurfaced, where I spent my bad moments imagining a peach-colored stick figure I had designed at that time to be my vent-sona. There I was in my mind, imagining myself near my vent-sona, but them was crying. And you know how guides often say that tulpas can surprise you? I told my vent-sona that since I used to kill them sometimes, they could also kill me (in my mind), and perhaps a second after I formed the thought, they jumped on me and killed me, I was surprised by how quick and without warning it was, but I didn't think much of it at the time. That memory made me wonder if I had been torturing a sentient being, and I began to feel guilty.

 

This culminated one weekend (a little over a week into my tulpamancy practice) when, in my wonderland, I found a body I couldn't identify on the floor and took it to a bed. Something I often do to help me visualize my tulpa in my mind is try to associate a shape or color with what I'm trying to see. If it doesn't change, then I can assume I'm interpreting it correctly, and if it rejects it, I'm interpreting it incorrectly and I try something else. When I tried to give it the shape of Santi, it didn't last and became unrecognizable again, so out of curiosity, I tried to give it the shape of my vent-sona and although it didn't stay stable, it didn't dissipate either, and, well, I was surprised to see that peachy color again, so I quickly visualized a force field in the area to keep it from leaving until I was sure. That must have scared the new entity because it started moving frantically for a few minutes and then stayed still in a corner

 

I spent a couple of hours trying to figure out if what I had captured was they or a manifestation of my guilt for wanting to see them again, but by the afternoon I gave up and let it go. I asked Santi if what I had seen was real, and she said no, so I dropped the subject after calming down (even so, I didn't know whether to believe her, since at the time she was denying even her own existence). Surprisingly, this being returned the following week, and I managed to capture it before they escaped. After that, I don't know how I did it, but I convinced them to stay, and that's how I got my second tulpa, Sagrario

 

A month and a half passed, and we got more used to the three of us. Santi finally found a form she was more comfortable with and became more expressive. I also tried to teach them to speak, but they only managed a few words before I had to pause the process for the end of the semester. In January, I tried to resume the active forcing, although it's been a bit difficult. I also know it's not a good idea to develop more than one tulpa at a time if you don't have experience, but I didn't feel comfortable when I tried to focus on just one, as if I were letting the other one to die

 

Anyway, that's all for now. I'll try to post at least once a month about the progress. Thanks for reading, any comments or suggestions are welcome
 

[Shaula]

On 1/25/2026 at 10:50 PM, Mapleb said:

 

I initially focused on designing a simple body for her, a being made of shadows with a dress, a white eye, and white bows on her wrists and head. And then I decided to integrate this feeling into the new form I created, trying to visualize he as a mass emerging from my subconscious and merging into a sphere, which I then transformed into the shape I had designed

 

She sounds cute! 😊 (I'm sure her new/adjusted form is too.) 

 

On 1/25/2026 at 10:50 PM, Mapleb said:

 

I spent a couple of hours trying to figure out if what I had captured was they or a manifestation of my guilt for wanting to see them again, but by the afternoon I gave up and let it go. I asked Santi if what I had seen was real, and she said no, so I dropped the subject after calming down (even so, I didn't know whether to believe her, since at the time she was denying even her own existence). Surprisingly, this being returned the following week, and I managed to capture it before they escaped. After that, I don't know how I did it, but I convinced them to stay, and that's how I got my second tulpa, Sagrario

 

That's a unique way to get a tulpa. 😁 

 

On 1/25/2026 at 10:50 PM, Mapleb said:

I also know it's not a good idea to develop more than one tulpa at a time if you don't have experience, but I didn't feel comfortable when I tried to focus on just one, as if I were letting the other one to die

 

I don't blame you, I'd feel the same way. (Nightfall would too.) I believe in you, I'm sure you can do it! 😊