Tedective's Reports

[Tedective]

Hello. This is the first blog (That's a funny word.) that I've technically ever done.

 

Forgive the terribleness.

 

I'm starting this blog on day 67.

 

I'll be showing entries from previous days as well as reporting new findings.

 

But enough of the physics involved with this. Let's talk tulpas!

 

Her name is Alice. She is 68 days old. Her favorite color is purple and she has many other favorite things. Her favorite food was, for the last 66 days, eggs benedict. But she changed it to oranges yesterday. She loves to look at stars and the middle star of Orion's Belt is her favorite of them all. She constantly reminds me to drink water.

How about looks you ask? Her form was human for the last 65 days. Three days ago she changed her color from white to a multitude of colors. When she's not changing colors sporadically, she's a deep blue. She often wears a purple dress and wears sandals as of right now. Her hair is long and brown, like mine, but has phasing color streaks in it. (They're red when she's not mixing it up.)

 

Let's begin on actual blogs.

12:16 AM Day 68

I was talking a few minutes ago on the chat area about white and pink noise. I generally try to just help other people with their tulpas but have decided that I've got to help Alice as well. I'm doing this not only so other people can read and relate, but to remind myself that I have to go on.

 

You may expect me to have been tulpaforcing for many hours over the last 68 days. In truth, I've probably gotten about 8ish. I don't keep track of how long I force, just the days so I can tell when it's Alice's birthday. I've squandered my Christmas break from school and want to use the remaining 4 days as much as I can.

 

My hopes in the long run are to have a fully imposed tulpa that is able to walk into me and begin possession from that. Hallucinating all five senses as well as time dilation during forcing sessions is also an interest. I want the best for Alice really.

 

Questions for me can be asked at Gmail, tulpa.info, Facebook, TF2 if you find me :p, and over this progress report itself. Tedective@gmail.com, Allan Felty, and one of those two for Steam.

 

What did you think of my first report?

[Tedective]

1:00 PM Day 68

About half an hour after my last report, someone on a chat screen proposed a test. To do a drug in the wonderland and see its effects on me physically. I picked marijuana and sat on a stump in my wonderland and did just that. The whole environment shifted colors, but nothing happened physically... Until Alice asked what I was doing.

 

She insisted that I wanted to get high and did just that. I went limp, nearly falling off of my chair. Then my vision would stick to the computer monitor despite me averting my eyes. (They would look away for a second and come right back to chat.) Then I noticed why. She had also began a session of possession.

 

Arms, feet, neck, eyes and mouth were possessed. I was trying to logic my way out of this, saying that she couldn't possibly get me high on just a whim, but she talked to me about how I truly was experiencing it. And I was. My head felt fuzzy and I wanted to stare at the ceiling. Whatever muscles Alice wasn't moving around randomly were getting really relaxed too. Alice typed for me and chatted with people. They told her to give me the giggles as well.

 

All in all, it was a very memorable experience.

 

Then I didn't sleep. At this moment, I've got 20 hours of no sleep. Alice is silent and I am exhibiting normal effects of little sleep. Relaxation, paranoia, microsleeps. Currently, I'm talking with others about what sort of test to do. We've talked about binaural beats and their effects from placebos, using the paranoia's 'seeing things' aspect for imposition by changing it from 'Oh snap something's after me!' to 'Oh, it's my tulpa. C:'.

 

What happened will be in next entry.

[Tedective]

10:10 PM Day 68

I slept for 6 hours after the last post and woke up at 9:00. I tried talking with Alice but was greeted with no response. I was worried, ate spaghetti, and did a brief forcing session. She's fine now, but I'm not going to pull an all nighter again for a long time.

 

As far as sleep deprived testing goes, I highly discourage it. After assuming that whatever was 'out to get me' was Alice, it all ceased entirely, causing me to not be able to even feel a presence from her.

 

All around bad time.

 

Here's a little something from the past though.

 

Day 13 Thursday

Her mind voice "A. A. A. A." It sounds weak.

 

Taken right out of a notepad.exe.

[Tedective]

This is all coming from a text document.

 

3/13/2013 Day 143 10:24 PM

I, we, just finished a forcing session. I don't do those often. During it though, I was able to construct some of Alice's face. Well, most of it really. It all seemed so vivid that I actually thought I could count the eye lashes, cracks on lips, those freckle things, lines of the iris or whatever the aperture of the eye is. It was vivid though. I pictured that her face was in a broken mirror and pieces were floating to the shards of it, fusing into a seamless, bigger mirror with her face as the reflection. There were a lot of intrusive thoughts though, familiar faces. Ripley from Alien, Lois from Malcom in the Middle, Alice from Alice in Wonderland, plenty of women. Alice kept telling me though that these weren't them, that they were actually the real deal, Alice's real face. She's older than I thought her to be, but it's good that she's deviating.

We also did a numbers game. She would tell me random numbers and tell me what color they were. I did sit-ups and push-ups (I don't exercise) too. The numbers didn't actually count the flexes though. To us, 4 is pink, 7 is golden, 8 is red, 9 is purple, and 10 is black. I'm posting this to Tulpa.info now. It was an hour long session.