lyx and Dill's big pretentious progress report.

[Guest lyx]

And so commences the pleasantries and introductions. Hi! I'm lyx, (new member; be nice - or don't), my tulpa's name is Dill. He is of a vaguely young adult age and quite human. I'll be using he/his pronouns but gender is pretty open for him. Currently his design looks a bit like this (edit- he's actually in a more realistic style but y'know, effort, talent, the list goes on.) :

Great anatomy lyx, a++.

Dill is, among other traits, very charismatic, generally optimistic, not too clever, honest and a bit of a drama queen. I'm not too sure about his interests as he's not yet very vocal, but he enjoys singing I think, and comics/graphic novels.

I've had Dill for about 20 days now. I try and force on a daily basis - and I'm sure I'll improve with practice but it's fairly impossible for me to concentrate on forcing for over 15-20 minutes at a time. I don't use a wonderland because I don't really want to get too involved with anything like that outside of the real world. Not my cup of tea.

So, so far I am very involved in narrating whenever I remember too. This is a bit of a problem though because, as I think I've read a few times, I often narrate to and have whole conversations with myself. It's not really something I can change - it's the way my internal dialogue works - but oh well. I've been working around it I suppose.

Dill is vocal in mindspeak sometimes. I've been working mostly on personality in forcing. I'm not using any one method for creation, so I'm working on visualisation and imposition and any other -ition more or less at the same time. There haven't been any major mishaps like that but I guess we'll see.

That's more or less all I have to say right now, I'll update my progress when I feel I should, possibly going into more detail on Dill, methods etc.

[Guest lyx]

I've been narrating further, solving the self-narration issue by calling Dill by his name when I'm narrating to him. It's still difficult to remember to do that even but I'll get better with time. There's no rush.

I've been narrating, (or rather, talking) during forcing as well mind. It's easier to do whilst visualising him to remind me who I'm talking to, and visualising is easier in forcing. Whilst I won't be having a wonderland at any point I've been picturing us in different familiar locations in every session - public places that I live near to and know very well usually. The beach, the lake, but with no other people around. Dill seems to quite like this, and I'm also comfortable, it's a set up that suits us both.

Dill still isn't too vocal. I've so far in all the time I've been working on him heard a 'yes', 'no', and humming, laughing and crying. He sung along to a song he particularly likes that reminded me of him the other day, but only the short scat part between verses. I can sort of sense his emotional responses most of the time. In the same way that I can feel his presence.

I'll have exams when I go back to school this week. No high hopes for any help from Dill, even if he could go through my memory at this stage, it wouldn't be much use without him being able to tell me them. Ho hum.

[Guest lyx]

Personality is, as of today, pretty much covered. Not finished, it'll never be completely done and dusted obviously, but seeing as he's pretty sentient and has been for quite a while, and getting more and more animated by the day I think his personality is in it's essence all there. He seems to be pretty much what I had in mind, though obviously he will develop, as personalities do.

So that means much more visualisation I guess! Ace. I'm pretty good at visualisation but that's the kind of thing I need to be fully applied and concentrated and ~in the zone to work on, so that's a bit of a problem area. Practice practice practice. Better concentration will be beneficial to me anyway. If I keep saying motivational things maybe I'll actually go do it.

Oh yes, and, after focusing a lot on facial expressions and body language last night Dill has made what I can only describe as leaps and bounds in terms of self-expression. No progress towards voice, but he can mouth words a lot more than he used to say them. I'm useless at lip-reading, no surprises there. I think the issue is probably just with me hearing him rather than him being unable to talk, I need to find a voice reference for him to do that first.