Imposition of Chaos

[octamous]

This is a progress report dedicated to imposition. I'm curious of this phenomenon where people intentionally hallucinate their characters into their five senses, even interact with them tactually. If this phenomenon exists, I believe it could be of great benefit to artists and creators everywhere.

 

I have two autonomous characters that can be interacted with in meditation and lucid dreams. They have been drawn, painted, and written about for three years. I also interact with autonomous characters generated by the unconscious mind. If you subscribe to spiritual thought, you might call them spirits. Given that these characters have never divulged esoteric information beyond odds of chance, I believe they are purely psychological phenomenon.

 

Background

(1993) Thoughtforms were seen daily at the age of three and sometimes played and talked with. However, most of them were frightening or haunting. This ability gradually disappeared completely by age five.

(2005) Began meditating and lucid dreaming.

(2006) Learned from psychics how to talk to "spirits", despite having little faith.

(2009) Began drawing and painting which has helped greatly with visualisation and the detail of lucid dreams. Lucid dreams become a great source of creativity, creating a positive feedback loop.

 

 

11 February 2013

Discovered tulpa.info and /r/Tulpas. Read about tulpas for hours and tried to find as much information on imposition as possible.

 

 

12 February

Did an hour of afterimage exercises (a sample image) and continued reading about tulpas and imposition anecdotes.

 

Afterimage Exercise

Stare at an inverted image then look away at a dark area. An illusion of the image will appear and a strong mental visual is to be reinforced. As the afterimage fades the goal is to hold onto a detailed hallucination of the original image indefinitely.

 

Example of an inverted image illusion. Stare at the top of the four dots for 60 seconds, keeping your head still, and then look away at a dark background.

 

 

13 February

Attempted a wake-induced lucid dream in hope of doing some character agency tests. Hadn't lucid dreamed in months though and woke up prematurely out of excitement.

 

Practised imposition with endoalir's technique for two hours. It seems to be the most promising. Essentially it's rewriting your memories with your thoughtform in it. Supposedly, once you can rewrite memories in real-time the hallucination occurs.

 

 

14 February

Continued imposition practise with endoalir's technique for an hour. While imagining a thoughtform being out of sight, if I turn to look at it sometimes I get what feels like a partial glimpse. I then quickly look away and imagine as if it was really there.

 

The thoughtforms feel like they were there in memory. This feeling is similar to having a daydream but without being in a trance. Although they appear real in memory, it's remembered that they are fake. Rewriting at the moment takes half a second for simple 3D shapes and several seconds for more complex shapes.

 

 

15 February

Void meditation for 6 hours starting at the crack of dawn, a deep trance was achieved.

 

Tried another approach to endoalir's technique. An area is looked at briefly, taking a full mental snapshot, and then the eyes are closed. The memory of the scene is quickly rewritten by imagining the thoughtform in it. As I open my eyes doing this sometimes I briefly hallucinate a detailed solid form that fades away. These hallucinations so far have lacked discernible saturation in colour but are mostly correct in value, and they only appear against dark backgrounds. This might suggest stimulus from the retina's rod cells is being mixed up somehow.

 

In my rewritten memories from yesterday the visual information behind thoughtforms is completely missing. It's remembered though that the thoughtforms were not really part of the scenes.

 

 

16 February

Mindfulness meditation for 3 hours.

 

Did half an hour of afterimage exercises, switching the inverted image each trial. Ability to hold onto illusions improves towards the end of a session but regresses to only a marginal improvement the next day.

 

I hypothesise the key to imposition is losing an awareness of where the thoughtform is imposed such that the brain uses the mental image as a blueprint to fill it in. If this is true, then is it easier to impose thoughtforms in an eye's blind spot? This will be tested in the next imposition session. No time for imposition practise today.

 

I'm optimistic that seeing thoughtforms as an adult is possible. Posted progress log to tulpa.info.

[Guest Anonymous]

In regards to the blind spot question, I don't know.

 

I find it weird that you are so focused, but haven't really described your tulpa/thoughtform.