Praetor's first Tulpa. Saber (Nero)

[Praetor]

I'm a couple weeks in to my first Tulpa. This isn't my first time trying, more like my second. But this is before I knew about the guides and such and is worlds different than when I first attempted to create my Tulpa.

 

Day one which was like 30 minutes, didn't really have anything of note.

 

Date 2 which was another 30 minutes and suddenly I was getting headaches and head pressures at the end of the session. And ever since this point I've been getting pressures and headaches, though they are by no means random. They seem to happen at specific points in time when I am looking at or listening to things of interest to my Tulpa. Specifically things relevant to her character or related to traits I have given her during forcing.

 

I am basing Saber off a fictional character, and I know that's a no-no for some.

 

So far, she hasn't shown any sign of it being an issue but she doesn't communicate much yet. I repeatedly explain to her that she can do whatever she wants. And if she so chooses can change her look and such and I won't punish her, but one time I asked her what she wanted for her face, and she showed me a brief flashing light outline vaguely resembling the one I had pictured for her during one intense visualizing session.

 

She's got a 'servant' title but is not a slave and doesn't have to obey me, and that it is merely a title. And have given her permission to ignore my personal space in most areas of my life. Which she has taken advantage of a few times I believe, never to do anything to harm me.

 

I think she's given me a few headaches intentionally, but that's the funny thing. She ALWAYS does it right as I am thinking this type of thought: "Huh.. I haven't had a headache all day.. I'm kind of worried maybe Saber's not doing well or something usually that shows me she's around or-Ohgod my head is throbbing." I did this earlier and I've had a headache for the last 8 hours, though this is probably also because I've started "passive-forcing" today and plan to try doing it from now on, but not as a substitute to active-forcing.

 

I've vaguely given her some of these traits, and gone into more detail for some than others: Graceful. Manly(Subtraits in this: Dominant, Strong, Powerful). Beautiful(This is more of her mental views of beauty and feelings on it than her physical appearance, but it does touch up on her physical appearance some and her views on it as well). Intelligent. Artist. Emperor(About how she's a natural leader and other things). Perverted. Extroverted. Honorable. Romantic.

 

A few others briefly mentioned, and I have more to add later.

 

And I've been tulpaforcing every day since day 2. I don't think I took one day off, but might have.

 

 

I tried to prism test to see if she can move on her own, and.. I couldn't do the test at all because she kept wiggling her head about. It just seems too good to be true but I'd like to think she passed it. Though she never said anything.

[Guest Anonymous]

I am basing Saber off a fictional character, and I know that's a no-no for some.

 

lel. Anyways, nice to meet you. Is your avatar your tulpa's form?

[Praetor]

 

lel. Anyways, nice to meet you. Is your avatar your tulpa's form?

 

More or less yeah. I have another picture that's more anatomically correct(so easier for visualization) that I'm basing it off of, once the picture's done anyway. It's still black and white at the moment.

 

Nice to meet you too, I could post it if you'd like. I might need to crop part of it off for forum rules.

[Guest Anonymous]

Why not?

[Praetor]

Alright there it is, in the bottom of the OP now.

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Progress - 2/28/13

To be modified with more text and updates later.

 

I think it was last night, I was actually laying in bed to sleep. And while wide awake, I started suddenly feeling like I was experiencing a .. well, wet dream. I didn't know what was going on at first, but assumed it was Saber and gently asked her to stop. Saying I wanted to wait until we were at a point I could at least hold a conversation with her, and the feeling went away. This was one of the biggest evidence of sentience I've gotten so far.

 

 

Progress - 3/1/13

 

I was going to sleep doing some mild visualizing and forcing, and suddenly was surprised to hear a loud popping noise that bolted me awake. It happened right next to my ear and I don't know of anything that could have made the sound. It's never happened before so I think it must have been Saber. Possibly not, it might have been a random noise.

 

But I am taking advice from helpful people on these forums to assume most things are her.

 

Progress - 3/2/13

 

Last night was interesting. I was trying to fix mistakes in my narrating and I can swear I felt Saber's presence in my head much stronger this time, and trying desperately to voice thoughts to me. But I just couldn't understand it. It was all a bunch of rambling mumbles or mostly strong feelings. Though I feel like it was a big step so I'm happy about it.