twins

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Wow this was weird...

 

Konata has always been more boisterous and rude when in the real world and I've finally been told why.

 

Konata is the girl I talk to in the wonderland, the laid back conversationalist.

 

When I asked her in the wonderland, why she'd acting up so much, I was told: 'Oh that's not me, I rarely venture out the wonderland... you gave me a library for crying out loud, why would I need to leave?'

 

So she told me that I was talking with another tulpa in the real world, the one that feared being dissolved, the one that wakes me up every morning and grumbles at me to improve my diet and health.

 

Upon talking to 'Konata B' she claims she was the first to gain sentience and that her counterpart in the wonderland came to be when I over focused on the personality building and took on the more recent design of her.

 

(Since Konata was based on a character I created for a book that I've been writing for a few years, I have gone through several different designs, these design differences had only small differences that I first thought were myself needing to focus more on her appearance.)

 

It seems the eldest did not want me to know of her existence as a separate entity out of fear that I would dissolve her and keep the younger carefree tulpa. however I have assured her that I care deeply for them both as they are both my creations and insisted that she give herself a name so i can focus on her more clearly than I would calling them both Konata. She chose Isabella.

 

Isabella is the one who is shy in front of real people and likes hugs and chocolate

 

Konata is the one who likes board games and walks and exploration

 

TL;DR I accidentally created twins Konata (the younger by 3 days) and Isabella (the eldest that I didn't know until recently existed.)

 

P.S. currently focusing on the smell sensation and trying to assign the smell of gummi sweets to Konata by meditating with my nose in a bag of wine gums.

[skittles]

Little update, I spent several hours last night with Isabella, re-configuring her appearance to give her more individuality. Subtle changes of course, clothing, height, hair colour and style.

 

Her and Konata are very much still twins and it's become a whole lot easier to interact with them, both in the wonderland and in the real world since I've made these changes.

 

As a result Isabella is a lot happier now. :)