Paprika tulpa log.

[Guest Paprika]

Goodevening. I am Teddy, I can sadly not present my tulpa with his name yet as I want him to tell me his name and present himself when he is ready. I will call him sir Monkey in the meantime. He looks like the monkey on my avatar picture which by the way was made by Eastmonkey on devaintart.

 

His original form was based off Zacharie from the game Off just to have something to start off with but later one night he changed that form into a white monkey with more human features. Im aware theres another white monkey tulpa around here but I did not know that until yesterday, which is about a week after my tulpa changed his form. And I am not planning on changing it in the future either because that will be entirerly up to Sir Monkey if he wants to change.

 

Other description of his form would be that he really likes to dress up in dapper steampunk clothing that have been seen when browsering the internet. He also have a form for his soul which I created for him whenever he would fade in my mind so I could easily access the image of his soul and force and narrate to that. It works like recorder that will record whatever I want him to hear so he can later access it once he returns clear in my mind. The soul looks like a floating, rotating, glowing orange pyramid which is kept within his stomach.

 

Other than that maybe I should explain a bit more about his personality. I gave him a couple of base personalities for us to work with now during the start of our friendship. Sir Monkey can be classy and still maintain a ridicoulus amount of jollyness and being quite childish at times. When needed he can be a good listener and he can take things seriously. As far as I have observed he likes to climb around whatever enviroment Im currently in and not just in our wonderland.

 

Our wonderland right now is this field of grass with a tree in the middle. Theres a swing hanging from the tree and from the tree is a pathway made up of planks leading up to an abondoned house. We have yet to put anything into the house but we'll get to that sooner or later, we have just started out.

 

When forcing I usually take a walk outside to a playground during the evening and sit on a swing and in my mind i will see myself in the minds eye sitting on the swing by the tree. When we are not forcing through the minds eye I try to imagine Sir Monkey with me at all times around me in the real enviroment and it works out pretty good!

 

We are about a week into this for real as I was mostly just planning out before actually talking and narrating... While I try my hardest not to doubt I still find myself wondering if its really him talking to me and answering me or not. Please I do know its wrong and I wont do it again, I have tried before with creating tulpae but I gave up many times, even when they could talk and they eventually faded away from my mind. Im not planning to awaken them again but starting over. I doubt I will regret it as I barely felt any connection to them.

 

I also doubt this is going to be a time where I will trash the idéa once again because now I actually feel a pure connection.

 

We all make mistakes and its always gonna be that way, now if you dont mind I am gonna move on and log whatever I can about our experience just like everyone else.

 

Conceptart of his form will also be done and posted, soon hopefully.

 

P.S I apologize for any misspellings, english is not my first language and I am not more than 16 for the time being.

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A quick recap of forcing sessions.

 

Before actually starting any forcing sessions I would simply try to have Sir Monkeys old form around me wherever I went, just having it walk beside me, stand or sit. I really like the concept of open-eye visualization. I would pretend to have him sit on the edge of my bed every night before I fell asleep, however one night he decided to change form into a monkey with the same mask he had in his older form. I started searching for any human like monkeys on deviantart for insperation and stumbled upon a the picture im currently using as an avatar:

 

I thought if he wanted to be a monkey, this would be the best thing to start out with.

 

During school days I would take walks outside by myself just talking to this form while having lunch breaks. Later found him fading in and out so I created his soul.. or core or whatver and made it into a form so i could easily remember it and narrate to that instead whenever he would fade away.

 

Then I started imagine him again around me in the open-eye enviroment and thats when he started putting on these dapper steampunk suites. After this I have started taking walks around my villiage and then settle myself on the swing I spoke about and force from there. The sessions are becomming longer and longer and its getting easier to imagine him around me. Im still unsure about him talking to me but im very certain he is sentient, and people keep talking to assume they always are so Im just going to go with that.