CouchAddict's Progress Log (Creative Title, right?)

[CouchAddict]

Well after much thought and consideration, I took the first steps into the creation process. I spent a lot of time trying to decide what I wanted my tulpa to be, and I decided to go with the simple Human Female as the form. Why? Because simplicity is nice and going with another form non-human I can already tell I would grow tired of over time. I chose to make a tulpa for the reason of companionship and getting a second opinion/perspective on things. My 'line of work' being animation and video production, sometimes I get in one mindset and don't see my work from another angle and it can harm the final product. I figure if my Tulpa is controlled by my subconscious then I can see what I do from another perspective instead of my biased conscious. As for the companionship aspect, I am not a very social person, I prefer real, close, friendships and this often results in me doing things myself, and I figure a tulpa would be the perfect remedy for me being alone. It's something that after much thought, that the benefits would outweigh and negatives.

 

Day One (6/21) pretty much consisted of me brainstorming what I wanted my Tulpa to be like.

 

Day Two was along the lines of deciding the personality of my Tulpa, and I made a big list in my head of her interests and characteristics. I created a broad term for these for categorization, and upon thinking of one of them I can recall all the specific attributes that fell under the terms. If that makes sense. I began to visualize a basic figure and her general appearance. I quickly thought up a wonderland to replace my Void, a simple pond surrounded by a forest on one side, and on the other side is an ocean separated by a small beach. I imagined myself standing in the middle of the pond (I can't quite yet imagine myself being able to walk in first person in WL, when I try to everything is hazy, dark, and is hard to maintain concentration on immersion) with my Tulpa's body in front of me. I imagined each trait category as being a syringe filled with varying colors. I then 'injected' each trait into the body of the tulpa, during each injection I thought of in detail what they meant.

 

Day Three I attempted some full-focus forcing sessions. Unfortunately these are very hard to do for more than 10 minutes for me at the moment. It felt like forever, and that is mostly because I don't do things in my normal life that require me to sit and focus on one specific thing for so long. I found it increasingly difficult to keep focusing on doing visualization during that session, but I later attempted more 10 minute sessions. I figure if I can't sit down for long periods of time yet, I might as well do multiple periods of 10-20 minutes of forcing. Day three continued with me just trying to do more forcing.

 

During the first couple days I would occasionally do narrating for no reason, mostly because I would find myself bored with nothing to do. It is surprisingly very easy to focus on talking to my Tulpa (who I assume to already be able to completely understand me) in complete sentences without interrupting myself with random thoughts. Any random thoughts that did occur I would just push aside until I was done with narrating a sentence.

 

Day Four was not productive at all. I was away from home the whole time and was not able to give my tulpa any attention. I plan to remedy this very soon. During day four I did question my commitment to working on my Tulpa (I do not doubt being able to make one, just if I would be able to complete the process.) But after considering how almost all tulpa hosts consider their Tulpae to be equivalent of another life, I decided it would be wrong to just give up on my tulpa after starting the process. Hopefully the next day will be more productive.

 

Oh, why do I keep referring to my tulpa as 'my tulpa'? Her name is Miiko. I don't know where the name came from, it just appeared in my mind.

 

Update 2:

 

Day Five was mostly consisting of me being too busy to force most of the day, and getting in quick 15 minute sessions when I had breaks. This time was spent doing more visualization, trying to get that done as precise as I can.

 

This PR will be updated in the Original Post only and only when something notable has occurred. Doing a daily report, while most are non-productive anyways, seems to not be the best choice to go about this.