A Tulpa's Wings

[Nix Tempesedo]

 

 

About Me;

My name is Nix Tempesedo, I have frequented the Daemon Forum for

around five years now and it was a discussion there that brought me to the concept

of the Tulpa. My own Daemon, Dominx who is currently unsettled (meaning he has no

fixed animal form) expressed an approval of the concept and so I decided to try it out.

 

Current Status;

Projection is going well, currently only Imposing (I believe it is the term)

and though it is slightly transparent it is going well. We have yet to have a proper

session.

 

Name;

• Aleron
  Latin = Winged One
  ay / ler /ron

 

Gender;

• Male

 

Appearance;

• Around 5'6 with light skin and russet brown curly hair, his eyes are a mossy green.
  He wears a light grey T-Shirt with darker collar and sleeves, with a dark grey 'A' with
  wings. He also wears black pants with black and white checks on his right leg along
  with grey-green converse shoes.
  He has large white wings similar to

this owl (The Barred Owl).
Quite often his expression is one of gentle amusement and curiosity.
He seems instantly patient and quite mature in the way he holds himself,
like he want's to know the world but has no wish to do everything at once,
content to wait.

 

Personality;

• Level-Headed
  Aleron has demonstrated a level-headed nature by his body language and reactions to being 'created' and hearing about himself. He takes things in his stride.
   
  Wise
  The only evidence I have seen of this so far is his general demeanor and his 'vibe' I shall write more on this as he demonstrates this trait.
   
  Curious
  Aleron has shown curiosity from the first moment I began projecting / imposing him, the first thing he did was sit and read a guide, using this to establish who he was.
   
  Patient
  He has shown patience in his acceptance of my being busy today and willingness to wait for proper introductions when I have time.

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Day One;

• Today I decided to delve into the concept of the Tulpa and found it incredibly intriguing, after reading through several guides, logs and threads here I was convinced I wanted to make my own. I knew instantly he was to look similar to an Angel. The appearance has come naturally and due to experience in projecting / visualizing my Daemon I found it simple to come up with a vague outline of who I wanted him to be.
   
  I was easily able to impose him sitting on my bed behind me and reading the site quietly over my shoulder. I knew I could easily speak with him though I tried to take it slowly. I remained on my bed, reading a guide while I went to bath my dog. While there I teasingly said,
  "So what's your name?"
  To which he instantly replied,
  "I don't have one yet."
   
  Though I am trying to create him slowly and in detail I couldn't stop my mind from making him up or at least his outline. We haven't had a proper forcing session though I plan to have one later on tonight. I decided to begin finding a name and asked him what sort of a name he would like and was able to deem wordlessly he wanted a name that meant something. Looking up several meanings which he suggested we finally searched 'Winged One' and the first name that came up I could tell he loved. I insisted we look through the others though he was adamant that Aleron was his name.

 

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Day Two;

• Today I was able to get a better feel for Aleron's appearance using the Gia Avatar maker, he surprised me liking the more Gothic type pants then eventually choosing the black pants with a checkered half leg rather than the grey green cargo pants I had in mind.
  I am however having trouble with voice, not with hearing it as I am having ease in the sentient speaking category but in the actual sound of his voice I am having trouble as when he speaks he sounds exactly like my Daemon and though I can easily tell them apart I feel he should have a unique voice. As such he has said very little until I can find a 'voice' for him. I think finding an accent might help a bit.
   
  I stupidly assumed sentience would be easily obtained having had that with Dominix for some time now but I am finding it hard to achieve. I think it is more for the fact I must teach and tell Aleron everything (only haven given him access to the basic knowledge of the world.) whereas with Dominix I never needed to, my Daemon is me and I am him, he already knows every thought or feeling I have ever had so we already know each other intimately and have a strong bond which I only realized in the absence of a bond between Aleron and I. In saying that though I believe it will be ultimately a lovely experience to actively watch that bond grow.
   
  At the moment Aleron seems very insecure and clingy. He had to enter 'Wonderland' for the first time on his own rather than being imposed which he has always been to this point. In my minds eye I immediately saw all blackness (Having not actively created a wonderland yet) and Aleron sitting there with knees drawn to chest seeming forlorn and lonely. Since then he has been unwilling to enter wonderland on his own despite me having made up a quaint little brick house by the stream for him. I think this insecurity and the need to be imposed by my side at all times may come from a lack of full sentience due to him being recently created.
   
  It's been interesting to see Dom's reaction to Aleron, being the one who encouraged the idea in the first place he's been acting very 'high and mighty' for lack of better -wording. Holding an air of self-importance and referring to Aleron simply as my pet. Holding the attitude that Aleron is mine, not his so I must look after him though Dominix has given him a kind word on occasion.

 

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Day Three;

• Today was both intriguing, saddening and thought provoking.
   
  This morning, I was waiting for the bus when I suddenly became aware Aleron was sitting against the bus stop, head in hands, and was crying. Because I was in public I had to make a mental projection of myself in order to comfort him but when I asked what was wrong, all he told me was:
  "I dunno.... It's just.... doubts... you...."
  And it wasn't me having trouble with his voice but him struggling to explain. I did realize what he was upset about.
  Over the last few days, I've been having doubts about the Tulpa concept, who doesn't? More to the fact where in a moment, all Aleron seems to me is simply an illusion, he has no depth, no substance and he hears those doubts and it affects him.
  I was however, able to calm him down and reassure him that no matter what I thought he would be dear to me always.
  Before, I thought his insecurity and unwillingness to leave my side was due to him being a new Tulpa though I am not sure this is the case. See I have seen enough of myself to realize that the reason I've kept Dominix around me consistently for the past five years was because he fulfilled a deep seated need. He was my ever present companion, someone who I never needed to fear leaving me, he's my anchor.
  For Aleron, I previously thought he didn't yet have a purpose whereas I have now realized that he fulfills a desire for someone to be dependent on me hence why he has become so insecure which is quite different to how I first envisioned him. At the same time though I believe I could help him overcome this.
   
  He's grown more used to his wonderland though and on a higher note, later that night he had his first flight. He was shaky and still needs to work on his landings, quite a bit. However being able to fly made him a lot happier which made me happy too.