Frisky Piranha's Particularly Unimaginative Thread

[Frisky Piranha]

Just past witching hour of Halloween, 2013:

 

I've long since given pause to the pursuit of projection as it felt vapid and empty. I have little attention span and poor spatial skills, so personality and simply conversing has been, not surprisngly, more rewarding for the both of us. However, I can't undo the work and the fact I made a couple rough sketches of her form in ZBrush, so now I see her as a blurred, general form in the background while I interact with a metallic void sphere in personality work.

 

The Red Army Choir's cover of Skyfall I feel is poignant enough to be our contemporary song, since my life, as many millenials', is a queer cover of an underlying dramatic event.

 

 

The symbolism being, in the already powerful chorus, that I teeter on the edge of death's scythe in a life threatening environment, it is inevitable, and yet when we are there, we will stand tall, together... since she's taller than me, and ultimately inseperable.

 

September 22, 2013:

 

I got a couple unconventional psychology books, "The Invisible Partners" and "Inner Work: Using Dreams and Active Imagination for Inner Growth." Both are effectively manuals for tulpa development that never use the word "tulpa," only "subconscious, ego, shadow. amima and animus..." and et cetera. I highly recommend The Invisible Partners as I've only finished the first chapter and am already enriched in understanding of Pet (great shorthand name for a tulpa, yeah?) and any potential significant other.

 

Don't chastise your tulpa for requesting pleasures of the flesh, or to put ever so slightly more bluntly, to lay with them. Whilst it is a sign of immaturity, it's a profound desire to unite with your conscious as they notice you associate intercourse as the ultimate unification; it's not a perversion and nothing but on your part. You won't take offense, but you won't take it as a gag either if you realize the somber fact it has nothing to do with ephemeral novelties. What you should substitute for associating sexual energies with their form though, I'll have to figure that out... I'm starting to understand why tulpas were only recommended for those with cogent maturity!

 

 

 

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I don't trust my memory for custodial keeping of the various milestones, so I'll update this however frequently regarding Petrichor (means the scent of rain, pronounced peh-tree-core,) and post the sentiments I agree with, such as...

 

...you should begin with the skeleton when forming to avoid volatile porportions and features. Many artists do this, e.g. seeing through the form.

 

I have a ten second attention span and unrefined visualization skills, finding it uniquely challenging to even begin refinement. So I will start with the most expressive yet basic form of any tulpa, the eyes. Just the surface of them, as they float around in reptilian flux. I'll post again when they watch wistfully and gaze upon myself intently on their own, then I can begin placing them in a skull. Little steps, for an epic undertaking. :)