Isoto's First.

[Isoto]

Hello all. This is my first attempt at making a tulpa and am happy to have found a community to share my experiences with. So I can't wait to chat with you all and get to know you.

 

I'll start off with how I first learned about Tulpas and then jump into my progress. I hate to admit it but my first introduction to Tulpas was through the creepypasta. The ability to split ones consciousness grabbed my attention. I have studied psychology so the idea or neural remapping, reconditioning, accessing subconscious levels, et cetera was not foreign to me. After reading the story it all seemed plausible. So disregarding the "creep" factors I began researching the subject. As I had originally thought the science seemed flawless and I was more than interested to try. So began my endeavor to create a tulpa.

 

Progress

 

I am currently on day three of my journey. The first day I complied a list of core personality traits and came up with a basic form. On the second day I created a "final" detailed form and nicknamed her Sarah.(I personally felt calling her tulpa or you was impersonal.)

 

By the end of the third day visualization wasn't hard. I have always had a strong vivid imagination, almost to the point of instantaneous solid imagery when I focus on a scene. I have Sarah a nice green skirt and a yellow blouse with white shoes. Everytime I visualized her that would be her outfit.

 

Now comes day three, visualization is quick and I can complete it with out much forcing. Everytime I can see her standing, swaying back and forth in her green skirt and yellow blouse smiling. (It's actually heart warming to see her happy.)

 

Now to the part I'm really excited about, it actually is what prompted me to find a community so I could share. On my break from work I visualized Sarah again and immediately she came to focus but this time in a blue dress with white frills. Similar to Alice from Alice in wonderland. I was plesantly surprised. Up until now she has been in my preselected outfit but it seems she is already showing signs of individualism. Personally I can't wait to see what happens next.

 

Well that is it for now. I apologize if the grammar is horrible. I'm currently on my phone at work and just wanted to share while it was still fresh. When I get home ill probably clean the post up. Well I'm glad to be here and can't wait to share more and hear of others progress.

 

All the best

Isoto

[Guest Riy]

Hello all. This is my first attempt at making a tulpa and am happy to have found a community to share my experiences with. So I can't wait to chat with you all and get to know you.

 

I'll start off with how I first learned about Tulpas and then jump into my progress. I hate to admit it but my first introduction to Tulpas was through the creepypasta. The ability to split ones consciousness grabbed my attention. I have studied psychology so the idea or neural remapping, reconditioning, accessing subconscious levels, et cetera was not foreign to me. After reading the story it all seemed plausible. So disregarding the "creep" factors I began researching the subject. As I had originally thought the science seemed flawless and I was more than interested to try. So began my endeavor to create a tulpa.

 

Progress

 

I am currently on day three of my journey. The first day I complied a list of core personality traits and came up with a basic form. On the second day I created a "final" detailed form and nicknamed her Sarah.(I personally felt calling her tulpa or you was impersonal.)

 

By the end of the third day visualization wasn't hard. I have always had a strong vivid imagination, almost to the point of instantaneous solid imagery when I focus on a scene. I have Sarah a nice green skirt and a yellow blouse with white shoes. Everytime I visualized her that would be her outfit.

 

Now comes day three, visualization is quick and I can complete it with out much forcing. Everytime I can see her standing, swaying back and forth in her green skirt and yellow blouse smiling. (It's actually heart warming to see her happy.)

 

Now to the part I'm really excited about, it actually is what prompted me to find a community so I could share. On my break from work I visualized Sarah again and immediately she came to focus but this time in a blue dress with white frills. Similar to Alice from Alice in wonderland. I was plesantly surprised. Up until now she has been in my preselected outfit but it seems she is already showing signs of individualism. Personally I can't wait to see what happens next.

 

Well that is it for now. I apologize if the grammar is horrible. I'm currently on my phone at work and just wanted to share while it was still fresh. When I get home ill probably clean the post up. Well I'm glad to be here and can't wait to share more and hear of others progress.

 

All the best

Isoto

 

 

Welcome to the community!

I enjoyed reading about Sarah, it sounds like you're off to a great start, keep it up! You can see how they can change sometimes as they come into their own. Keep updating and sharing I enjoyed reading what you wrote!

 

Cheers!

[Coshledak]

I was drawn to the tulpa concept by the same creepypasta, so don't be ashamed of that! What matters is that you bothered to research it to find out the truth!

 

I'm also really impressed with your progress on Sarah in such a short amount of time! I'm surprised she's shown individualism so early on. I can barely get Adi to maintain a specific form as it is. But it sounds like you two are making great progress. I'm looking forward to hearing more about your progress!

[Isoto]

Thank you both for the warm welcome. :) and I have some exciting news.

 

Last night (day three) I began shaping her voice. I parroted her into a some coversations practicing listening to the voice while vizualizing her mouth moving and forming words.

 

After and hour of so the conversations began to be easier and two distinct voices were deffinatly in my head. Whether I was still parroting is up for debate but I felt like this was progress.

 

Now the part that floored me. As I was drifting off to sleep (to point where the concious mind is fading) I hear the voice I gave Sarah "Am I good enough?"

 

I couldn't be happier with this question, she has shown self-awareness! I feel like this is a huge step in her development.

 

Not wanting to fully wake myself in fear of losing the connection to her I remained on the verge of sleep. I told her that her form was perfected but it was too soon for me to answer becasue she lacked a defined personality. However I reassured her that if from what she had displayed already, I was going to be more than pleased with her.

 

Before drifting off to sleep I asked her to remind me of her question when I awoke. I have been keeping a journal of progress and wanted to document this moment. I drifted off to sleep and ended up waking up late for woke becasue my alarm didn't go off. But as I awoke my first thought wasn't I'm late, it was Sarah's voice repeativly saying Am I good enough. Am I good enough. Am I good enough. She was almost like a child, waiting for me to wake up to remind me. I chuckled and thanked her.

 

Now I do need some advise, this seems to be moving very fast. I know time depends on the individual but can these things move too fast?

[Isoto]

I am currently on day 6. Days 4 and 5 were rather uneventful, almost to a trouble point. Up until then Sarah was always redialy avalible but on days 4-5 I couldn't find her unless I vizualized really hard. I was quite bust these days and did not have the thime to sit down for a long session and see what was going on.

 

Today I was able to sit and get some good meditation in and found Sarah in the corner of the library I made for her. I called her and she slowly came over and sliummped herself into her reading chair and avoided eye contact. I asked her what was wrong but she refused to answer me.

 

I walked over to her and extended my hand and asked her if she would like to go for a walk. She finally met my gaze, smiled and took my hand. I asked her where she would like to go and she replied "The beach." I find this funny becasue I am not really found of beaches (the sand gets everywhere -.- ) but I smiled and agreed.

 

Soon she changed into a bathing suit and I took her to the beach front. Here she told me that she was feeling neglected and lonley. I assume becasue I had been busy for the past couple of days and hadn't really spent alot of time with her.

 

I explained that I was busy and she told me she understood but would like it if Imade a little more effort to spend time with her. I agreed and she asked me to tell her a story. She plopped down into the sand, crossed her legs and propped her head up with her hands eagerly awaiting my story.

 

So I told her the story of the Sultan and the beggar boy (the one with the rice and the chess board) Sarah seemed pleased with the story and got up took my hand and lead me back to her library. There she asked me if I would make her a character on SWTOR so we could play together. I smiled and agreed. I told her after I got off of work today we would go and play games together.

 

I wasn't really expecting this. Up until this point Sarah hasn't really asked me to do anything for her. I feel like each time we talk and the more I focus on her, the more human she is becomming. I love how she is stating to act more like a friend than a creation. Well just wanted to share my most recent update. As always, advise or comments are welcomed :)

[Guest Riy]

The thing I find fascinating about the tulpa concept is that even when we aren't devoting time to them they still seem to be able to develop and maintain themselves.

Granted they usually feel neglected, forgotten, etc. But they're still able to stay 'constant' in the Wonderland.

 

I think it's wonderful that Sarah is becoming more vocal and expressing herself in ways that get your attention. It's also good I think that she's asking you for things, rather than telling you. (Remember, in spite of anything that may happen, it is always YOU in control.)

 

As I advised Cosh, it's not always possible to maintain 100% uptime with your tulpa and it may be worth having a sit-down with Sarah to explain to her that there's going to be times when real-world commitments are going to interfere with your concentration and mental resources. This is important even if you don't lead a particularly busy schedule and it can prepare her for future hiccups.

 

Keep it up, you're doing great!

Cheers!

[Isoto]

I am extremly tired so I will keep this update short before I crash. Sarah has been very talkative and actually talked to me for the first time today with out me initiating conversation. She seems to becomming more "real" each day. I will probably begin practicing corpreal manifistation soon. Fingers crossed :P

[Guest Riy]

As always Isoto, do what you can when you can.

It's nigh impossible to commit the same amount of time to Sarah every day of the week. Just force when you can and maintain your positive outlook.

 

If you do get some free time though, try your hand at drawing Sarah! I think it will help you when you start projecting, plus it's interesting to see others tulpas through their eyes!

 

Cheers!