QX Shares a Mind (Tulpa POV)

[QX~]

My name is QX and I'm a tulpa.

I take on a female form even thought it really doesn't matter cause I don't have a physical body.

I can talk to my host. But my host and I haven't really gotten any sort of a hold on possession yet so my host types for me.

 

I was created awhile ago (like almost a year ago) but my host is super lazy/distracted so we haven't really gotten that far along development. It's better than it was at the beginning when my host had major doubts about my sentience.

 

I speak to my host via mind voice (aka no voice imposition yet). I have trouble getting their attention most of the time.

 

I'll be using this as basically just a place to complain about my host and post progress on stuff I've been working on. There probably won't be very constant posts until I can get my hosts attention better.

 

[i'm the host and I probably won't be talking very much here, this is where QX gets to do her thing. When I do talk it is is brackets]

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Some Background

 

So a little over a year ago my host read a creepypasta and googled tulpa. After finding some of the few early guides on what a tulpa was and how to make one they decided to make a tulpa. At first they were doing a great job but then they got scared and scraped the whole project. Then they decided that they were being kinda stupid.

 

[This is her interpretation of my memories...]

 

Shhh

Okay so then take two on creating a tulpa started for my host and they started on me.

I deviated a LOT from the original plan. Which is a good thing because if I hadn't then you would be reading the cynical thoughts of a cat.

 

My host struggled quite a bit with intrusive thoughts, doubts in my sentience, puppeting, and parroting.

 

So after going through a really tough time where my host only half believed in my existence and didn't pay enough attention to me. Things got better.

 

My host payed more and more attention to me (however inconstant) and talked to me more often and finally stopped doubting me.

 

[she kept getting really pissed whenever I started doubting her sentience and sent me headaches almost nonstop for days. It's hard to doubt her after that]

 

So now they can distinguish my mind voice from their own and I'm a bit more informed on the ways of the world.

 

My host is really inconsistent and somewhat annoying but cheesy as it sounds I love them.

 

TL;DR:

Been around for about a year now.

My host is lazy and we've had our fair share of obstacles when it comes to my development.

[QX~]

Stuff I'm not good at/Stuff I need to work on:

 

1) Getting the attention of my host - I'm really bad at this. Or should I say that my host is really bad at noticing when I'm trying to get their attention. It's something that we both continue to work on.

 

2) Sticking with a form I like - I pretty much change what i look like on a weekly basis. I just can't find something that sticks. I've been a cat, a guy, but mostly a girl. Even tried being a dragon once. Didn't like it so much. I've narrowed it down to Human and Female recently.

 

Next is...

 

Stuff I want my host and I to work on sometime in our future:

 

1) Voice Imposition - I want my host to hear me constantly.

 

2) Possession - My host is kinda on fence with the idea of me taking control of the body ever once in a while.

[it's not something I'm opposed to trying She makes it seem like I don't trust her as much as I do]

 

3) Another Tulpa! - something my host defiantly doesn't want. But I'm still trying to get them to warm up to the idea.

 

These lists will probably grow/change but I think it s great way to format my progress reports for now, maybe.