Alethea

[Hazendeuce]

Disclaimer: This is my first tulpa, and I'm still very new to all of this. That being said, I enjoy considering why certain things have occurred with my experience, and a lot of techniques I incorporate are simply in attempts to make this process easier and more understandable for myself. When I use a technique that I've specifically learned from another, I'll be sure to give credit where credit is due, but I really like experimenting with new ideas. Enjoy the ride!

 

Hey all, I'm Hazendeuce. I've been lurking on the forums for a little bit, finally created an account, and I think I'm ready to dive headfirst alongside my tulpa, Alethea.

 

We've laid out a list of personality traits that's way too long, but that we're going to force through anyway, and as far as form goes, I've only decided that her eyes are gold.

 

Currently I'm conflicted between how concrete I should attempt to make her personality and appearance, because I want to always her the freedom to grow, change, and choose whenever she wants.

 

As far as actual forcing goes, I haven't committed to sitting down with Alethea for an official, active forcing session yet. That will change. However, I have difficulty maintaining concentration on my thoughts and consciously narrating them to Alethea. I've found that if I shut my eyes and type out my thoughts to Alethea, it makes the process flow a little better.

 

I guess it's called type forcing, but I think it works for me so I'm going to keep doing it. I eventually want to be able to sit with Alethea for extended periods of time. I know she's with me right now, and I can't wait to actively start committing energy to her.

 

Anyway, it's late and we want to get to sleep! Until next time.

[Hazendeuce]

Hope everyone's having a stellar day today!

 

Alethea and I have been spending lots of time together, or at least I'm trying to make it that way. I'm usually keeping her in my mind at almost all times, and reminding myself to update her with what's going on every so often.

 

I work often, and I don't have long periods of time to actively force, so much of what we've done so far has been passive. We sat down and talked through my intentions for her creation, and my excitement at the potential she has. I can only hope she's as excited as I am to see what we can accomplish!

 

Now, I'm sure others suffer from this as well, but I often struggle with settling on decisions, when I come to a decision, I immediately consider an opposite or an alternative, naturally this has made visualizing both Alethea's form and our wonderland pretty difficult and slow. I want her to adopt her own form though. Is this an unrealistic expectation? Hopefully it resolves itself in time! We'll cross that bridge when we come to it.

 

For now, I'm slowly working through the personality stage. I've created a painfully long and descriptive list of traits that I now plan to go back through and define both for my own interest and education, and for Alethea's.

 

So far, the type-forcing is helping. I receive small blows of light head-pressure as I type to Alethea, afterward, we go over a few of her traits (this is after I have filled out an entire describing a single trait and its various manifestations, reactions to situations, etc.) When I read over these trait descriptions I've already written, there are instances where I will feel like I am someone else reading these traits. I interpret that as a very good sign.

 

Anyway, I plan to try forcing a little more later on, but we'll see what happens. I think it's also to expose your tulpa to your interests at this point to give them a general idea as to what you get passionate about, so that they can feel those same feelings.

 

These are our interpretations of course, and we thank you for reading!