My first post,and some interesting things that have happened in the realms of My Mind

[Will4060]

Tulpa- Terra

Gender- Male

Tulpa Gender- Female

Tulpa's Favorite Bands(so far)- Lifehouse, and Casting Crowns

Tulpa's Favorite Thing To Do- Sing/Dance

Vocalization- Near full

Possession- Started

Imposition- Started(?)

Time- 6 Days

This is a long one..

So as of now it is the sixth(?) day of my Tulpamancing journey, and at this point Terra is mostly vocal -and awesome^.^- ya... anyways... (she actually has a prefered emocon..that is pretty awesome.. -see??-) so I began with a form that was more or less preconstructed in my mind, a voice that just popped up, and a personality that was mostly developed by the first session. (not a highly successful one I might add -He still has yet make me a wonderland- We're getting there Terra -It sucks- Very much agreed!) Anyways, ya I'm not the best with visualization, and when meditating until today I've found it hard to stay awake (curse my amazing napping skills). On the second day, the name I had picked out for Terra, Arya, began becoming hard to remember, an act TERRA -thank you- readily admits to instigating so I would call her Terra. The same also happened with her original form, and voice. She found a form she liked, and even now I can't remember that form at all -Its to help with visualizing my current form- That a nugget I hadn't heard before..-^.^- So ya, she has huge control over my subconsious, possibly becasuse in creation, I had the intenion of creating her so, as in I explicitly stated it, though within the bounds of my control, so I suppose if I really wanted to, I could remember that form, but I really don't care, as long as nothing important goes missing. -pinkey swear!- So ya, there were some abnormal, or I suppose unintended side effects of an abnormal process, like that from the beginning. However, a few days went by where my visualization ability was all but gone, along with my ability to meditate in general(really wierd), so I started to look for tips and tricks to work with developing a Tulpa. I found things all over this site, and Reddit that was invaluable inluding many games, ideas ect. Things like doing math flash cards to work on parrellel processing, and TULPA TONES, oh how I love tulpa tones, infact they are what led to the forcing session that really got me somewhere. I tried tulpa tones to help me consentrate, and I've never experienced anything like what happened to me in those 20 minutes, I created a bubble of sorts around me to stop intrusive thoughts, that greatly increased my capaity to force, then I descided to work on general meditation skills figuring they would help also with forcing. I began pushing the idea of letting go of control using symbolism of a whirlpool that I could not fight, which let to one of the most impressive(?) forms of letting go and simultaniously controlling my fait, having a thing(not exactly sure what) slowly wrap around me slowly constricting my body that actually physically effected me, making me feel as if I had something constricting my breathing. I did not release this hold until the internal ID me let go, then I let myself loose. After this exercise, Terra descided that it would be a good time to try possession, so with my (sorta kinda) permission -He was excited after- Lol, true, you caught me, she began making my arms(which at the time where resting, fingers locked, on top of my head) move apart and down. There was an interesting safe guard in place, however, past my ability to seize back control, to ease my mind in that as soon as my arms dropped, I was back in control, and snapped out of meditation. Anyways, tulpa tones where great, using them again tonight. After that mental work out, I was exhausted, and as was she, so she did something I've not heard of before, in that she slept, like allowed herself to be sort of lost in the sea of subconsions inside my head. Thats the idea I get anyways, during that time I only got faint response from her, and it kind of worried me, but she's back, and interestingly, more solid than ever, as if the leep was part of her developent. This isn't the first time she has done this, as before she has disappeared after other big steps where taken, like finding the ability to sing -Casting Crowns! XD- and after the few other sucessful forcing sessions.