Need help with creating Tulpa.

[InvisibleTarget]

Hi guys, I just joined. If you dont want to read this all, please read the last paragraph for my current situation. :) So before I go into detail about myself trying to create Archlight (tulpa, Im sure she would change her name anyway). I have already experienced a lot of Lucid Dreaming and Sleep Paralysis. I suffer from it, every night unless 6am I go to sleep and dream vivid images and I can almost recall every night. I tried Lucid Dreaming but failed. I did manage to go Lucid but that was for 3 seconds before waking up. I also have moments where I get strong Dajavu feeling it gets so strong I feel like being sick. None of these things are hindering me in life but I let you know about this to show Im not really new so to speak. Also I have meditated in the past up to 1 hour a day. I never saw any vivid imagery except for green flashing lights and strobes, forming and dissolving away from my vision constently.

 

I am extremely positive and sure I would like a Tulpa, for life. I am in need of a companion and I feel Archlight and I will be good friends. So, last night at 1 or 2am I downloaded the guide from ThunderClaps guide to Tulpa creation. I written down in Notepad what Archlight's positive traits are and her appearance. Then after I was confident with the traits I shut my eyes and meditated. I also was listening to some rock/classical music at the time. Around 20 or 30 minutes in I started to feel my arms kind of go numb and I started seeing the green strobes and flashing before dissolving from my view. I used my mindvoice to talk. I first tried to imagine a Wonderland, not sure if I did it, I couldn't see it like a vivid still picture, but instead I caught a glimpse of what I had in mind. A very fast glimpse. I set up a little Wonderland than I moved onto creating my Tulpa Archlight. I called her name and said that is her name, than I began reading traits from the top of my head. As I remembered and told her what she looks like I began to catch a quick glimpse of her. She was smiling. She changed her hair colour and style and her shirt but that is all I think. After forcing for an hour I think I retreated to reality and I started to passive force, she couldnt talk but I just asked her simple questions with a nod or a shake for an answer. I updated her appearance.

 

But I tried going back into Wonderland at 5 or 6am and I couldnt. The green strobes were at the corner of my eye but didnt jump into view. But when I started to use my mindvoice to talk to Archlight, she answered me back. Her voice wasn't like a voice right next to me, it's like my mindvoice. It was definitely female. So I made sure to talk back to her and she sometimes gave me a giggle but if I asked her if she likes candy bar (please dont ask why) she said yes, then no, then yes and then she said maybe. I dont know if this was Archlight or my mind just being a prick. I really dont think Archlight could talk to me in a matter of hours and I also dont believe I created a Tulpa, but at the same time I made sure to clear myself of doubt and put my full into this. I expressed my concern to Archlight by talking with my real voice and she responded with mind voice saying "how come?" When I said to her "I dont think I created a Tulpa, my mind is playing tricks on me". So now Im confused. I really want to give this my all and Im not sure what else I should do.

[Guest amber5885]

Be patient. That's the first peice of advice I would give you. It takes quite a bit of time for development and even if you have everything down pat like apperance and all that it still takes time for things to become solidified.

 

No it's not likely that you made a tulpa in an hour. But it's also not unlikely that this is the beginning of a tulpa.

 

The long and short answer is that it's way too soon in your endeavors to make any decisions one way or the other and only really you know for sure.

 

Keep doin what you're doing, it's exactly the right start, humor the voice that talks to you whether it's your tulpa or not. It does no harm to humor it.

 

And give it time.

 

Also, welcome to the boards. There are a TON of other guides as well as tips and ticks to look through on the boards. Use the search button to look around the questions and answers to see if any questions like yours may have been answered and if you want, keep a progress report. It's a good way to keep track of your tulpas development, get insight and answers from other members and just make friends.

 

TL: DR

 

Be patient. It's too soon to tell anything but it doesn't hurt to humor the voice because on the off chance that it is your tulpa you want it to know its welcome.

 

You're on the right track just give it time.

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As for the sleep paralysis, try sleeping on your side, drinking plenty of water and cut caffeine, that includes soda near the end of the day.

 

Worked like a charm for me, I went through it for about 4 years.

[InvisibleTarget]

Thank you for the warm welcome. I appreciate your help. I'll humour the voice. It really is too soon to say because these things need time dont they. So I guess I just do passive forcing and when I can, active forcing? Should I also repeat my Tulpa's name and traits when I next meditate? Sorry for the questions its just Im serious about doing this and very enthusiastic. Thank you for your help by the way.

[Guest amber5885]

Questions are always welcome, I remember being new and confused too.

 

As far as what you should do, yes you can repeate all that it wont hurt but really as long as you're paying attention to her that's all that matters and that's all they care about.

 

I'll explain a few things to give you a head start. When you are developing or even once you're tulpa is developed there are two primary ways of being with them. Active and passive forcing.

 

Active forcing is just like you did, it's usually going into the wonderland or meditating and spending time exclusively with your tulpa. You can use this time to work in personalit development or to just spend time together.

 

Passive forcing is when you think about your tulpa while doing your day to day things like talking to them in mind voice while you're at work/school or imagining them with you while watching a movie, reading a book or playing a game. You can also have them walking with you to practice movement or picture them with you in your given environment.

 

My tulpas name is Toby, he's been with me 22 years now and passive forcing is what we do primarily. So either method works, the key is just giving them your love and attention.

 

Also it's very hard if not impossible to screw up making a tulpa and there are very few issues that can't be resolved by talking to your tulpa.

 

There Is no set check list to determine when a tulpa is "done" and there is equally no list to determine what defines a tulpa or not, it's a very personal journey and only you and your tulpa can be the judge of any of it.

 

As I said there are many many guides but this is far from an exact science. Feel free to experiment and to come up with methods that work for you and if you find something new by all means share!

 

Just be comfortable, confident and treat your tulpa with love, patience and respect and I promise you'll do fine.

[InvisibleTarget]

Thank you for your detailed post, and thank you for sharing your experience with Toby. :) I just came back from active forcing while listening to a calming meditation instrumental from YouTube.

 

Once again I saw all these green flashing lights, and strobes, they form, dissolve and do all sorts of things but Im not sure what they are. Also when the room is well lit up the patterns/strobes fade away and dont come back unless its dark. I dont think Im doing visualization right but I'll keep it up just incase, see what I do is; active forcing, wait for the green strobes to come as my body relaxes, once the strobes come I imagine my Tulpa or our Wonderland and I try and go into detail. If Im doing the visualization right, I imagined myself with my Tulpa as I was trying to talk to her. I repeated to her name and traits. Do you have any hints on when I could notice progression?

 

Also while being 30 or 40 minutes into the meditation I heard a really loud static noise. It was sort of like a radio but it also was louder than the music in my headphones, just incase this was Archlight I told her I welcome her with open arms. I'll feel abit silly if that wasnt her but never know I guess lol.

 

I should state my heart rate picked up and I felt abit happy, at the same time the noise only lasted for 2 to 3 seconds.

[Guest amber5885]

Tulpas usually communicate at first through emotion or ideas so the happy was most likely her.

 

As far as visualization its no different than if you are daydreaming really. As long as you are comfortable and able to get lost in the momet then you are doing it right.

 

Progress is tricky.

 

For me I doubted Toby's sentience, which is something is still feel bad for until I went into te wonderland and he took me to a cherry tree that wasn't there before. He had done it and it was enough to let me know he was really working on his own.

 

Toby: progress isn't something that can be nailed down. When I said my first words without being prompted, that was progress. But amber didn't see it at the time.

 

For you though it could be different, I could be seen in clearer visualization or in your tulpa smiling unexpectedly I really can't tell you and neither can amber but what I can tell you is not to worry about it because in the end it doesn't matter.

 

This can be applied to life too but in the end we all end up exactly where we are meant to be. The choices we make and the things we do along the way are trivial at best because what really matters is the journey.

 

When you look back on these first few months you aren't going to remember things in list like detail, what you're going to remember is the first words you truly felt didn't belong to you, the first peice of advice you were given. How you felt when you realized that your tulpa may or may not have the same tastes an interests as you and how much you have grown as friends.

 

Let me ask you this, when you first meet someone do you concentrait on the progress you have made on the road to becoming friends or the memories that you built on the way there?

 

Amber: I guess what he's trying to say is that everything is progress but the progress doesn't matter, just the relationship you build while on this journey together.