Tulpae and wonderland, or just a trip?

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I've asked this question to Clair before, but then I thought that this is probably a better place to ask, since it is actually a forum about tulpas filled with specialists. But thinking about it, I came to conclusion that before the question itself I should tell a short coolstory.

 

First of all, for a few years I had thought about having some kind of "second me". At first I perceived it as just some kind of joke, then I started to think how she could look like, how could she act, etc. It was a bit like tulpaforcing, except I didn't knew anything about tulpas, and didn't dedicate too much attention to these actions. So about week ago, me and my friend were talking about tulpas. They interested me for a couple of months, but I was not going to create one. However I thought that my "second me" would be a nice base for a tulpa. And then during the conversation, I close my eyes and suddenly see a coridor, and hear a thought "why are you doing it?". Long story short, after that I've entered to somewhere that I can describe as wonderland - a nice and calm place, plains, sea, house, that is easy to "submerge" into, but with one major difference - I hadn't actually created it, and I got a strange feeling of being a guest in there. In next days that feeling had almost gone, and I got a suspects about having a semi-sentient tulpa - sometimes I can hear the thoughts that I can't describe as myself ones, sometimes there are a little changes in environment (such as a box of sweets appearing near me after I "submerge" into this so-called wonderland, or changes of decorations in the house). However, what I "hear" from her, is no more than thoughts and emotions, but no words. Finally, yesterday I had a calming feeling of warm, waves and embraces me, after I wished good night to my "tulpa". More of it, I then had some kind of a bad dream, that suddenly changed to lucid dream, where I was able to see and talk with her (although she seemed a mute, but happy). During it, I also got the confidence that she actually "protected" me from a worse nightmare.

 

tl;dr, the question is - can a tulpa, especially semi-sentient one, not only help with designing a wonderland, but actually create one, and with my growing interest and attention to it, become more sentient and.. independent? Or am I having a weirdest trip without acid, and should stop reading about that stuff to save the sanity?

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If you keep narrating and interacting with your thoughtform while assume it's an actual person/sentient being, it'll eventually turn into a tulpa.