Logan and his new friend Aleksis

[Logan Howlette]

Hello everyone!

 

I'm very new to making a tulpa and I'm here to document my findings and happenings involving my new friend. (I just got a heart feeling after writing this and I have a feeling it was just them appreciating that). I want to just say that I have quite a few years of roleplaying experience on tumblr where I've used muses and whatnot and in a way some of them almost feel like how one would make a tulpa because of my involvement with them for so long; specifically Doctor Steel, one of my first muses that I really grew attached to.

 

I'm hoping that my past experience with role playing sort of aided in this because if so then hopefully it'll help me more along the way.

 

But onto my bit of story.

 

So I've only really just begun in my creation of my tulpa cause honestly? I just started reading the guides a few days ago and thinking about making one. For the moment I only had been using a ball of light to look at, pay attention to and talk to until it decided to change its form. I made it clear that it was only a temporary form and it could change into whatever it wanted to. Whoever they believe they are. And so last night I had been reading through one of the guides again and just toying around with the idea of my Wonderland (that I will describe next) and just sort of reading to my little light orb in my mind. All of the sudden it decided to morph and change form into this person (who is absolutely adorable by the way). As far as their gender goes I'm not too sure since I don't really see their body very well but I could see their face very clearly. I could also see what they're wearing as well but as far as their actual naked form, it likes to change so I'm going to just let them be and figure out how they want to be presented. For now I'm going to assume they want to be agendered. So, for the moment, I came up with a temporary name to call them since it's gender neutral and am currently calling them Aleksis. I think it really fits them.

 

Onto how they look: They're about my height (5'11) and have a soft, but angular, face. Their eyes are big and look either heavily accentuated with make up or just have very dark eye lashes. But either way their eyes really stand out on their face. Their hair is blue and is in a sort of bob cut kind of like how Ramona Flowers looks with her blue hair in Scott Pilgrim VS The World. Except where Ramona's hair is partially black and partially blue, Aleksis' hair is blue all the way through. Their eye brows are dark though so I'm thinking maybe it's a hair dye thing. They have freckles dotting their cheeks and full, expressive lips. As far as their demeanor and personality goes, they seem very happy and positive about just life and they really remind me of bubbles. And by bubbles I mean the actual floating soap bubbles, not the power puff girls character. Though that's kind of fitting to.

 

They're a little thin- actually no they're actually rather shapely as far as body type goes, kind of in the middle as far as weight goes though more lenient on the thinner side. (not too sure on much else since their naked form sort of shifts at will) They wear a yellow crop top with a short vest over it. The vest sort of reminds me of like a police vest, one with all the pockets and stuff, but that's probably not its intended use. It still looks nice. They also have a pair of fingerless gloves, shorts, and what looks like either brown work boots or combat boots. Either way, very cute. And they have a nice smile too, their entire face just lights up when they do. They're obviously the good-looking friend. :P

 

And now my wonderland: I pretty much had this one visualized a lot sooner than Aleksis; well part of it anyway. My initial thought is this vast meadow with blowing grass and sunny skies, and sunflowers blowing in the breeze. It's almost reminiscent of the sunflower area in The Evil Within but not nearly as menacing. On either side of the meadow are forests and there's a path that connects the two forests together that cut the meadow in half. There may also be a highway somewhere near by cause whenever I imagine myself there, I see a car somewhere not too far away from me. A couple of times me and Aleksis just laid down in the grass, gazed up at the clouds and watched the sunflowers sway. It's all very peaceful and it feels like home to me.

 

But on one of the times I was there with them, shortly after my visualizing them, they took my hand and lead me into the forest. In the middle of it with the light peeking through the tree branches we came upon a cottage. I asked them if they lived there and they put a finger to their chin in thought. Before long they had a look on their face like they just got an idea and suddenly the scene changed and we were standing on a hill top by the ocean. Stretching away from the hill was a beach and I could actually hear the sound of the ocean crashing on the shore in my mind. On the hill there was a little house, a light blue with a darker blue roof. It was a very welcoming atmosphere and we went inside. Their room was upstairs, I want to say in or near the attic, because next to their bed was a window that looked onto the sea. They got all cozy in their bed to show me that this is their home. I was only vaguely seeing everything though, bits and pieces of images and just imagining the feeling of the place. We then went downstairs and into their basement, and the only reason why I knew this is cause I heard our boots clunking on the wooden floors. Once in the basement I figured this would be a good area for them to see my memories if they wanted to so I played around with the imagery around us. First it looked way too dark and grim because there was only a grouping of wires extending from the ceiling to the floor with a little thing next to it to lie on, kind of like the matrix. So I changed it a bit to be a bit more cozier, I made a library that extends around the first half of the room and the second half would have the wire group that would connect wonderland to basically my brain. On the back of their neck appeared a little plug that they could essentially use to plug into my brain and view my memories whenever they wanted to if they didn't feel like going through the books in the library. The area that they could use to lie in is something like a bed but resembles more of a pod; I wanted it to be a bit more comforting since they may want to lie there for a length of time.

 

I'm going to skip a detail or two so that I could continue onward.

 

Past their home on the hill is something that looks like a town that I haven't really explored yet. But past the town off more in the distance is a much larger city that at first glance reminds me of Manhattan except a bit more futuristic with flying cars. There was a lot more vague but I somewhat remember being in a clothing store with them and they were tossing clothes to me to try on. We settled on a pair of black skinny jeans a button down and a vest for me cause that happens to be my attire for when I go out somewhere and want to look nice.

 

After that I sort of remember being in a coffee shop where we sort of started talking and I, unfortunately, fell asleep.

 

All I know is that even with everything happening it still remained peaceful and I had a lot of fun on my adventure with them. I hope to go on more of those with them and I hope we learn a lot more about each other.

 

One of the things I really like about them is that they didn't even question me when I told them about my gender, and they already saw me as the person I feel in my heart I am. All in all, I feel that this is going to be a really great experience and I can't wait to see what happens along the way.