Restarting

[Leiria]

So I just found this forum. Anyway I think I used to have a tulpa in development back in middle school. I was bullied (physically and mentally) and had no one to talk to about anything and created characters in my imagination. Eventually a female voice appeared in my head (I didn't ear her as part of the "real world" and didn't need to talk out loud to be heard. She had her own personality and I couldn't control what she said or when she appeared. I even imagined her physical form though she never appeared anywhere. Eventually she stopped coming back. I'm in high school now. I'm still extremely lonely. I'm trying to bring her back. I just want a friend, even if it makes me question my own sanity.

 

P.S. Why did she left? Nothing changed, we never got mad nor did I ignore her. Also will this make it easier? If I created her unintentionally then I should be able to easily do the same on purpose.

[Leiria]

And can someone please recommend a guide? There are some many here, it's overwhelming

[Leiria]

So I've been on the chat. I can't remember the name (I'll later edit and put it in when I find out) helped me try to contact her. All I got was migraines that got more intense the more I thought of my tulpa and almost disappeared when I tried telling her about the migraines. Apparently thats a great thing. The person who was helping seemed very knowledgeable on tulpas and I'm probably not going to use a guide and stick with what she says.