Sky's Progress Post

[Skystis]

8/14/15

 

Day 3

 

So although this is my first post to the Progress report I have been at it for a few days now. I'll start with how I found out about Tulpa and my past with it.

 

In the past I have always talked to myself in my head and hold out conversations, wishing it was another person talking to me. Of course no one ever did really respond because I never tried, or did it enough for that matter, to get it to respond.

 

I recently found myself watching creepy videos from ScareTheater and he talked about this phenomenon. I was so intrigued by the idea and read online about it. At first I thought it was crazy, but then I remembered what I used to do. So I read and read for a week and found this forum. I then asked questions I had that I was simply curious about and began lurking in the forums.

 

Now onto my Tulpa, Tulap. I originally thought of them as a princess sort of figure that was female. I then kept getting this feeling "No that's wrong." I don't think Tulap is even human. I am going to continue talking to them and then they can tell me what their form truly is and I can begin imagining and drawing them! Right now I try to have forcing times and usually fall asleep so I may try to do it earlier. I also talk throughout the day when doing little tasks. I keep the 'tulpa symbol' on my hand so that I can remember to talk to them. I am very forgetful and although I have an hour of forcing a day with an alarm I still forget to talk during the day. Of course once Tulap is vocal I won't ever really forget, haha.

 

I'm hoping within 3 months I can hope to begin hearing them. I already get emotional and head responses so I think we are definitely on a good track!

[Skystis]

After making this post i began school and was pretty overwhelmed. I am now in the swing of things and can start back up. More meditation time and more talking time now that i know my schedule pretty well. I've been daydreaming in class of what the tulpa will look like and be like and so far ive imagined a lot of little dogs. I believe my tulpa from when i was still actively tulpamancing is in there and what i will do is work on her with a different mindset. One of the main reasons i believe she is in there is, this morning, i recieved an email from the forum that someone replied to a comment. After thinking that i may now be ready for a tulpa i felt strange head pressures. (Im feeling some now). I believe it is my tulpa telling me its time to start again.