I Need Help

[peanutbuttersandman]

I need help. I know it may sound weird, but I've had a Tulpa for a long time. I guess I must have made it when I was young but, I need it gone. It's been nothing but years of torment and emotional manipulation by him, why, I don't know. The majority of the time it is a good companion and other times it will antagonize me and refuse to leave me alone until I start to panic. It sets me up for it like my mother used to do. It enjoys it, and I refuse to call it anything besides "it" because I'm done trying to befriend and coexist with this thing. I have memories from elementary school with this thing and it's always been back and forth. I'm not a stranger to emotional abuse and I know exactly what this is. In times of extreme doubt and stress it has pushed me over the edge, on purpose. I am so sick of it, and I need help getting it to finally leave me alone. I'm trying so hard to get my life together and it's pulling even harder to get me back. Please, I know not everyone wants their tulpas gone by I need it gone. I don't want this, and I don't want to relapse. Please, I know it sounds ridiculous, but when you have someone in your head so mercilessly abusive and you can't get away from them, it can force you into things like self-harm and suicide and I want to live. I don't want to relapse. Please, if you have any advice please offer it.

[Guest Anonymous]

Hello.

 

First of all, I would like to say I really am sorry to hear about this happening to you. It must not be pleasant at all, and I can picture all the stress and distress you must be going through at this moment, I can relate to an extent.

 

With that being said, I will let my tulpa discuss this with you furthermore, because she has experience in killing thoughtforms/tulpas and the likes.

 

"Hey... It's kind of weird just telling you 'hey' just before telling you how to kill someone. Let's cut to the chase.

In the past, I had to deal with... malicious thoughtforms and what one would call a 'tulpa' as well, other than me, that is. Personally, I had to deal with those because they could not come in contact with my host, but with me directly instead. I won't waste much time and space telling you about how horrible it was, you want to know how to kill a tulpa, right?

 

Well, killing a thoughtform can be done by ignoring it, mainly. I figure that if you don't answer that tulpa of yours, if you don't respond or give any reactions, eventually, things would be better, but I'm still not quite sure about that, this isn't the main point of my post.

 

Of course, that's for 'thoughtforms', which can work with tulpas (tulpas fade if you don't provide attention for a certain while). But since your tulpa seems like something quite dangerous and imposing, the only real way to kill that tulpa, and actually 'kill' as in 'gone killed' 'not there anymore' is to show it... true horror.

 

True horror in a way you show that tulpa everything it would hate to see, and impose it as a reality. Someone once told me 'say you have a pony tulpa, imagine what would make that pony tulpa happy, and take away everything it has.' Isolation in a wonderland can work for starters, I think. If your tulpa fears dark places, lock it in the darkest of places, darker than pitch black preferably. Another example... if it likes, say, wrestling shows, deprive the tulpa from those shows, and go to the point of showing the actors/wrestlers being in miserable situations/killed/in a gore way, since that's what people really hate. If it loves anyone, keep them away from that someone they love, and show them what they would hate to see.

 

In simple terms, torturing your tulpa with true horror. Horror. Fear. Disgust. All of it is symbolism when you come to think of it, but I've had a few thoughtforms either dissipate or literally 'kill' themselves in front of me. I believe this is the only real way to achieve that.

 

Oh, and one more thing. Tulpas hate feeling inferior to their hosts, so you should completely act condescending, arrogant, above your tulpa, remind it of how inferior and shitty it is, overall. Make it believe they're worth nothing, deprive them of all affection and support, they'll drop dead eventually. :D "

 

That's all. Good luck, friend.

[GlassJustice]

[Kill it,or see a therapist,probably both.]

[peanutbuttersandman]

Thank you both, I appreciate it a lot. This is going to be awful, for both of us. I wish it didn't have to come down to this, but believe it has been years of trying to trust it again, and years of being set up and then pulled down, again and again. There were times when it helped me in those dark times, but again, it brought me there in the first place. He's afraid now ever since I decided to find a solution and I haven't heard him since. I'm hoping that means I won't have to do this. It's been trying to kill me, though, as far as I can understand at least, and there's nothing else I can really do but get rid of it. It's either that, or it's trying to have a game with me, for far too long. Thank you again, I appreciate this beyond words.

 

Hello.

 

First of all, I would like to say I really am sorry to hear about this happening to you. It must not be pleasant at all, and I can picture all the stress and distress you must be going through at this moment, I can relate to an extent.

 

With that being said, I will let my tulpa discuss this with you furthermore, because she has experience in killing thoughtforms/tulpas and the likes.

 

"Hey... It's kind of weird just telling you 'hey' just before telling you how to kill someone. Let's cut to the chase.

In the past, I had to deal with... malicious thoughtforms and what one would call a 'tulpa' as well, other than me, that is. Personally, I had to deal with those because they could not come in contact with my host, but with me directly instead. I won't waste much time and space telling you about how horrible it was, you want to know how to kill a tulpa, right?

 

Well, killing a thoughtform can be done by ignoring it, mainly. I figure that if you don't answer that tulpa of yours, if you don't respond or give any reactions, eventually, things would be better, but I'm still not quite sure about that, this isn't the main point of my post.

 

Of course, that's for 'thoughtforms', which can work with tulpas (tulpas fade if you don't provide attention for a certain while). But since your tulpa seems like something quite dangerous and imposing, the only real way to kill that tulpa, and actually 'kill' as in 'gone killed' 'not there anymore' is to show it... true horror.

 

True horror in a way you show that tulpa everything it would hate to see, and impose it as a reality. Someone once told me 'say you have a pony tulpa, imagine what would make that pony tulpa happy, and take away everything it has.' Isolation in a wonderland can work for starters, I think. If your tulpa fears dark places, lock it in the darkest of places, darker than pitch black preferably. Another example... if it likes, say, wrestling shows, deprive the tulpa from those shows, and go to the point of showing the actors/wrestlers being in miserable situations/killed/in a gore way, since that's what people really hate. If it loves anyone, keep them away from that someone they love, and show them what they would hate to see.

 

In simple terms, torturing your tulpa with true horror. Horror. Fear. Disgust. All of it is symbolism when you come to think of it, but I've had a few thoughtforms either dissipate or literally 'kill' themselves in front of me. I believe this is the only real way to achieve that.

 

Oh, and one more thing. Tulpas hate feeling inferior to their hosts, so you should completely act condescending, arrogant, above your tulpa, remind it of how inferior and shitty it is, overall. Make it believe they're worth nothing, deprive them of all affection and support, they'll drop dead eventually. :D "

 

That's all. Good luck, friend.

[Guest Anonymous]

[Kill it,or see a therapist,probably both.]

 

I think that if he knew how to kill it, he wouldn't have posted this thread. And going to a therapist is more complicated than you might think it is. It can be expensive and some therapists can understand you as some therapists will call bullshit and prescribe medication that has no real effect (as it happened to someone here).

 

Thank you both, I appreciate it a lot. This is going to be awful, for both of us. I wish it didn't have to come down to this, but believe it has been years of trying to trust it again, and years of being set up and then pulled down, again and again. There were times when it helped me in those dark times, but again, it brought me there in the first place. He's afraid now ever since I decided to find a solution and I haven't heard him since. I'm hoping that means I won't have to do this. It's been trying to kill me, though, as far as I can understand at least, and there's nothing else I can really do but get rid of it. It's either that, or it's trying to have a game with me, for far too long. Thank you again, I appreciate this beyond words.

 

 

 

I understand. Usually I'd be pretty much pro-life for a tulpa, but since it seems to have hurt you so much, and always pulls you down to the point of driving you to utter destruction... it's needed.

 

Just... keep us in mind if you need any further advice. My tulpa would like to provide more advice if stuff comes up later on, so feel free to shoot us a PM if you need any more advice.