New here. my tulpa creation

[lenprofit]

I am a few sessions into creating my tulpa, I have spent previous sessions getting into a zone and an internal space where this process can take space. During my last session I experienced a very chaotic (not in a bad way, more excitable) ball of energy wizzing about coming and going, took a lot of concentration to try and calm it down. After a while the energy seemed to start taking a form that I could relate too, previously it had been morphing into various shapes and it was almost as if I was experiencing various places without feeling like moving.

 

A picked a very relatable space for my base of creation and designated certain places within this space for certain tasks, accessing memory's ect. Back to tulpa, I found myself feeling very content with her, and felt that it was a comforting presence that I required, all the ideas that I had had envisaged before creation seemed to be bouncing between us, like a perfect brainstorming session. By nature I am a very demanding person, but also apologetic because I know I'm a pain in the ass, but I was reassured and comforted by the responces between the connection. I didn't want to try and force a specific apearence but I had an idea, I saw glimpses of an apearence but I didn't want to push it, the same with any kind of verbal connection. A lot of it was just kind of a reassuring experience and ended very calmly from its excitable beginning.

 

When I came out of my meditative state I felt very content and feel very at ease with what had happened. The only thing about it was how much time had past, I had experienced so much in such a short space of time, I had been at it for about an hour, I know roughly that to get into a calm meditative state for myself it has usually been about half an hour before I get into my space.

 

I'm obviously new to this so any thoughts or comments are appreciated, as is any info in proceeding forward. Cheers

[NoneFromHell]

Well for me it sounds like a good base to take it further. So i would say keep it up. The only thing you may want to consider: You want to don't push anything. However, in the early development it is pretty common that the thoughts of your tulpa are pretty similiar to your own, so you may could hold your tulpa back with this mindset. So if something happens, let it happen. It could be your tulpa responding (Well or maybe not of course), if you don't decide something actively yourself. So "your idea" of an appearance wasn't maybe your idea at all.

 

The rest sounds really promising.

[lenprofit]

Thanks a lot, I definitely felt responses, which was quite a strange experience, but she put me at ease either way.