Ryota and Miki

[KiraHyuuga]

Day 1

 

Session 1:Exploration Of My Innerworld.

 

I am Ryota. I am making a tulpa and i would call her Miki. My visualization is weak and i have no idea why. I am an artist and i heard that if you are an artist, it should be easier to visualize than a average person.

So, I decided to work on my visualization first.

I sit down with the lotus meditation position and close my eyes...

 

I am transported inside the main room of my imaginary house which existed when i used to roleplay in my childhood. i look around and nothings changed except the colour of my sofa. I teleport myself in my former imaginary friend's room. its not changed, i am filled with the feeling of nostalgia. i loved to sleep in this bed, She and i would play here for hours. Such memories make me feel bad and i want to relive those memories.I want to go out now, But i wont teleport this time, I will walk and i do so.I reach the hall's main door and grab it, turn it open...

 

Such light.I am so welcomed with this beach but i wonder why, i am starting to have some distractions and i cant concentrate, I feel so annoyed when these distraction starts to get bigger. Thats when i open my eyes take a deep breath and close it again, those distractions start again but no, i wont give up this time, i start describing everything i do, I heard its supposed to help with focus. There was a smile on my face when it actually did...

 

Then i looked at my brown hands and realized i can be anyone in my wonderland right? I changed my form...

 

Now it was time to see my flying skills, I shouted "Give me power White Fire!" I used to say this when i was younger and feel an aura around me. But in wonderland, That aura was feeling me. I ran towards the sea with all my speed and Pushed the ground with a loud thud and reached for heaven, I was flying...

 

There was a place me and my friend used to visit to play. That place was in front of me, I could see its silhoutte in the bright suns light. I raced towards it with a speed so fast that i could have burned myself in real life...

 

When i reached the place, I swear i saw Susan, (My very first tulpa,i stopped tulpaforcing 3 years back.) Standing and glaring at me. She wanted to say something. But she didnt. She dissappeared. I was shocked at first, And ignored it thinking it was my imagination...

 

This place was a Big cloud with a cloud home in it and a cloud tennis net. we used to play tennis here, Do various stunts, Dive below into the sea. That nostalgia...

 

I visited my Home, The cloudy home, and it felt so empty. I sat down on the entrance stairs. Scolding myself for stopping tulpaforcing. But what could i do, She faded away and never came back. Why Susan? Why?? Then i saw Susan Riding a pegasus right in front of me and disappear into thin air. I started to think is it my imagination? I started getting headaches so i thought this is enough for today and i got back into my Real Life.

 

Day 2

 

Session 1: Forcing session with Miki.

 

I got back to my wonderland. But this time i decided i would do something different. This time i made a new wonderland. Its just inside of a house made up of dirt at the moment. There is a wooden fan on the ceiling. A portrait of my 3 Imaginary friends A table and a bed. Whole kitchen set all in one room. The ceiling, ground and the walls are made up of Dirt.

 

It took a lot of time to plan out+Try out different colors+Position all the furniture for the house.But finally i was ready to force my tulpa.

 

She has been acting weird lately, Feels like she is sentient. But i know i am subconciously puppeting her. So i want to make her totally independant from me. And i started that now.

 

I summoned her in front of me. She is just a red orb for now. I greeted her. But she started flying erractically. She was so hyper at that time, That i had to focus myself. And i soon managed to. Now she was Changing her form once again, She changed into an anime girl.

 

Well, I liked that form. Or well,Miki liked that and i thought its my emotion. I dont know, Young tulpas are weird. But soon she got that form, She started sending me emotional responses, And i was again in disbelief whether its me, or she. But i chose to go with the flow, Since it will get clear if i give it a little time.

 

I started talking to her and She was giving me emotional response. Like, as in, Facial expression.

So our conversation wasnt really brief but thats a part of the process. After some time, I decided to stop.

 

Passive interaction:1

 

So i was online in IRC. I was chatting with one of my friend, I told her that i made a new tulpa and said "i dunno what to say to Miki" She replied "Ask her if she would like Cornflakes" And i did so. She was making confused expression but in the end nodded yes.

I let her taste some from my memory of cornflake's taste. She nodded in a way saying she liked it. I was happy for her. Thats it for today.