Skye's the Limit (pun intended)

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List of things I still have to do for Skye - too many.  She's probably a little bitter I kind of left her for a stint in 2015 but I'm trying to make my amends with her xD.

 

Progress in the past couple of weeks

 

Feeling head pressure and a more positive attitude that I partly leave to Skye's influence (or maybe even my own that I'm doing something constructive and everything I've done via meditation, etc.).  As I've stated in a different thread I started, I'm so used to feeling bad that this sudden jump in mood I've attributed to Skye - as being around someone else who's understanding and has a more than kind personality may be bleeding into mine.  Her wonderland is the same though I've populated it with a proper second story and bedroom and things for her to do while I'm away.  She's still not vocal as of yet though I'm testing some methods to help jumpstart her being vocal - I've heard minor whisperings and feeling like a voice might spill out of my ears.  (It's a familiar feeling for me actually)  I'm testing out literally narrating by writing out scenarios we'd be in together and reading those with her.  I read that in a guide somewhere to help cement her personality and get a clearer mind's eye picture of her.  I spent a fair amount of time sketching out what she'd look like which I think and/or hope counts as forcing and I keep that sketch up to remind myself about what she looks like.

 

Skye's minor deviations

 

Sometimes I might only see a small flash or glimpse of her at times but her eye color changed from dark blue to a hazel color and her hair changed from black to a bright pink.  It remains just as poofy as I imagined, woo xD.

 

Time spent forcing lately

 

At least ten minutes per night if not half an hour (about the time I estimate it takes me to fall asleep) wandering the wonderland.  And when I figure out how to properly engage her in my daily activities it's been an almost all day session which I learned yesterday fried my brain completely but helped me sleep like no other.

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Progress Update!

 

Update on Skye's progress

 

Still no vocalization from Skye, although I think I'm starting to feel her thoughts somewhere around in my head. I've also forced for several hours this week and burnt myself out last night and that bled into today. Her form is still a little fuzzy in my head, although I've clearly seen her hair remain pink and poofy (think scene/emo girl hair) and her eyes still hazel and lined with eyeliner/eyeshadow. I met her at the park in our Wonderland and whether or not it was on her part to pick up guitar I'm not sure - but I enjoyed it while I could focus on it (health issues at the moment, you know).

 

Personal techniques/progress

 

As far as maintenance goes for me goes, I've tried listening to binaural beats and other sounds to help me focus and not fall asleep as easily as I did before. I can now focus for a solid hour on forcing with Skye without issue. My mind's eye is still fairly hazy so I'm going to start up some techniques for that (particularly image streaming). Passive forcing for me and Skye have come down to letter writing, storytelling, and generally just speaking to her when I can and if I'm to it I'll try to mind overlay her when I go to bed (unsuccessful thus far).

 

Will post as more updates come along!

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Even more updates!

 

Skye's physical features remained mostly the same, though she changed her hair to a chestnut color. Height, weight, etc. remain the same. Still working on visualization but her personality has developed to the point where we can have conversations - her voice is still developing and I found a way to induce little whispers. I can almost /feel/ her voice trying to escape my head so I find that a development of our own.

 

Forcing progress

 

I haven't been able to force with her as much as I did the past month and some weeks due to a stressful situation, BUT she's gained enough progress to have conversation and play light games in our Wonderland. She picked up the guitar while I was away I guess. I'm at roughly 60 or so hours total.

 

Wonderland Additions

 

I also added more furnishings to the kitchen, rearranged/rebuilt the living room to be a bit larger and added some more fun nerd gadgets for Skye to play with while I'm not forcing with her. Outside of the house we have a little Jeep Wrangler sitting in our driveway and beyond that we have a park some blocks away. I may or may not add some more stuff in the future.

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Vocalization update

 

Despite Skye's mindvoice still being that of my own, I'm starting to more clearly hear her own voice in there. While I can dissociate /just/ enough to hear whispers and stuff (mental health problems related to that), calling out to her in the midst of that remains challenging. I'm working on more techniques to get her to vocalize.

 

Narration update

 

I've also found it easier to continue working her personality and her quirks through story writing. I can almost /feel/ her proxying through me when story writing/narrating her so it's been fun seeing all her various sides. I've been relaxed enough now after moving in with some friends to force at least at night/in the morning or afternoon to get my hours back on track.

 

Hours forced total

 

About 67-ish. Kind of sad those numbers aren't higher because of things as of late, but Skye has come a long way and I'm proud of her.