lyca0n_ October 5, 2016 October 5, 2016 I feel like a malkavian with that form of title, although then again the last few years of my life could be summed up by the words melancholy or derangement so I am basically the human equivalent of a recovered malk :p To those that stumble upon this unusual little thread it's basically going to catalog my endeavors in my attempts to create a tulpa for curiosity,SCIENCE !!!,intolerance of isolation due to long distance relationship and friendships (don't ask) and simply to piss people off if I have months with minimal results on this thread. If any of you have any advise for me please feel free to post as I will probably need as much aid in this as possible or if you have any questions unrelated to tulpa about my life, the universe and anything feel free to pm me I suppose I should give a background upon myself just so that those that care may know the weirdo whose journal/PR (the term seems to blend from what I seen) they seem to be reading or knowledge of my mental state prior to "Tulpamancy". In short for my mental history: I have been diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome (which really has minimal affect on me now aside from causing passion for subjects) and social anxiety disorder from a young age which lead to a very lonely childhood....add a traumatic event to the mix, a abusive household leading to poor self esteem,a genetic predisposition to depression and you can see where this goes. I had developed some bad coping mechanisms about four years which involved fire/soldering irons/the color crimson and ended up institutionalized.....but I am OKAY(ish) now so yeah I am obviously a perfect, mentally healthy candidate for this experiment x) If that hasn't sated your stalkerish desires and you have to know a small bit about me I am eighteen year old male of norwegianish appearance/recent ancestry and INFP for some innate reason. "I've always felt alone my whole life, for as long a I can remember. I don't know if like it.. or if I'm just used to it, but I know this: Being lonely does thing to you, and feeling shit and bitter and angry all the time just.... eats away at you"
lyca0n_ October 5, 2016 Author October 5, 2016 I am starting tonight with kiahdajs guide but it seems way to subjective in nature so I am combining that with daniel's and JD's as I am masocistic in nature but I hope that I won't need to be handheld through this process. I am allocating a half an hour to creating the personality before I collapse tonight, I hope to maintain about 10-20 min a day to this activity by postponing procrastination/wanking time x) "I've always felt alone my whole life, for as long a I can remember. I don't know if like it.. or if I'm just used to it, but I know this: Being lonely does thing to you, and feeling shit and bitter and angry all the time just.... eats away at you"
tulpa001 October 5, 2016 October 5, 2016 Advice: I haven't read more that maybe one of those guides, due to ending up on this site after I had already become vocal, so I don't know if they already mentioned this, but I believe the most important step in the process comes before the forcing itself. If you are getting limited results from forcing, I suggest taking up either meditation or centering, for maybe five minutes before each forcing session. Meditation: First enter into a state where you are so relaxed you cannot even move your own body. Then enter into a state where you have no thoughts at all. This is hard, so there is a transitional state where you have a single thought, sustained for a long time. Centering: First enter into a state where you are so relaxed you cannot even move your own body. Then enter into a state where you have no emotions but calmness. Host comments in italics. Tulpa's log. Tulpa's guide.
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