Tulpa Newbie's Prog Rep (and intro)

[Stobin]

Well, there is always tying that string around your finger. There is the alternate approach if you cannot force reliably on a schedule to force whenever possible. On every break and spare moment.

 

Yeah. Some of the most difficult and exhausting stuff the day before tends to lead to really strong separation the morning after. Not sure why but intoxicating.

 

I've heard the string around the finger thing before, but I want to go more  a e s t h e t i c and find a decent looking but fairly subdued ring.

[Stobin]

God, why is it so hard to keep in contact with her throughout the day. I feel like the whole process has slowed since my second week. Have not given up though, and not losing faith. But I do feel self conscious when I go for long without talking to her.

Edited July 28, 2021 by Stobin

[tulpa001]

This has happened to many before. One thing people do in this situation is use a picture of her as your phone wallpaper or lock screen.

[Stobin]

I'm a decent pencil artist, so I could do something like that, but I'm currently #nophone and loving it. What I am thinking of doing however, is drawing her at least once every week. I think she heard me though, because the connection has seemed to have kicked back up a few notches.

[Stobin]

OK now!

 

I haven't kept up in updating in a long time, and to be truthful, not a tonne of progress has been made between Hope and I, but there has been a significant recent development. For months I've been reinforcing to her that if nothing else one core trait of hers should be self determination, because that's what truly grants her personhood and individuality. So I've made it clear that I'm not comfortable impressing upon her my own image of how she should look, then yesterday "BAM POP!" she just up and shows me how she looks. She's a slender girl, blue eyes that are disarming in their easy, honest, knowing look, and rich brown hair in a rather unique but not outlandish style that I honestly can't attribute to having seen before. I actually did a doodle and it just feels right. Every previous time we've tried developing her appearance it always felt awkward, fake and forced, but since this revelation, I just feel like I know that's her, like that's how she's always looked and I only forgot.

Edited July 28, 2021 by Stobin

[Stobin]

Uh, it's been a while (4 years) but I'm back. We're still together. And even though I don't have a lot of sensory perception of her we spend time together throughout the day. I think I'll look into taking this super seriously again.