Luci's

[Guest Lucidiana]

My tulpa's name is Michael. He is male, and looks almost eactly like

http://fc02.deviantart.net/fs47/f/2009/225/2/3/Gackt_Smile_by_Lady_Ita.jpg

... yes.. ain't he smexy. That pic is also a good rep of his personality. He loves mischief, singing, art, jokes, basically fooling around and having fun. On the opposite side, he can be a bit serious and a sexual/full of himself haha..

 

I tend to ramble a lot. Prepare for long-winded posts, and tmi.

 

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Day 1 : Creating my Wonderland and other random things [only 15 minutes >.<] 5pm-5:15

My wonderland is basically a hotel room. All moody beige and dim lighting. Queen-size bed in the main room with 2 wall lamps and mini dressers on either side. Along with a huge flat-screen equipped with cable and VCR [old school ftw!]. There a little bookshelf beside the tv, and an AC... oh, and a bathroom + closet. I impromptu made a portal painting that leads to the meadow from Howl's Moving Castle.

~What we did

I couldn't think of a thing to say. So, I gave Michael a temporary form that I could carry around easy [a big blue orb], and gave him a grand tour of the room. When I got to the last wall, it was pretty empty. I made a painting portal for it, and while I was thinking about where the portal could lead to.. Michael shoots into the painting. I freaked out then, I had no idea where he would end up, so I jumped in after him. I ended up in a vortex which dumped me in the meadow mentioned above. Random, but I was pleased. ~Before I forget, I have a question about sentience for the end of this post~ He floated around a bit until I called him to lay down with me by the lake. Then I just went over his personality for a bit. I got bored then, so I imagined his true form there by my side, and handed him a mirror so he could see. Hilarious response...I figured he would be emotionless, but there he was, tilting his head left then right as he checked himself out; and gave me a thumbs up and that goofy grin he always does. I felt more comfortable then, so I said "hey, let's fly! :D" but just at that moment I had a random impulse and his clothes disappeared. He covered himself quickly, blushing pretty hard. Then he was flying after me, fully clothed of course. I made a cloud for us to sit on, and we drank green tea for a couple of minutes. I knew I had to leave soon, so I brought him back to the room. Unfortunately I was interrupted by my sister, so the farewell was not the best.

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~OH the question I had

Relevant back story-- I daydream a LOT, since like forever, and 6 hours a day when school is in lol [at least it seems like it/maybe 3 realistically] and still constantly regardless. But for the last 2 to 3 years I have done one continuous daydream. It's like an alternate life. Michael is my lover in that daydream, so I want to know... Is it possible that I unconsciously created the tulpa Michael already, by daydreaming my life with him for so long? The michael in my force session today was unpredictable, so yeah, it worries me that I might have left him alone for so long. I haven't daydreamed for a while now.

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[QB2]

That is one pretty, pretty tulpa.

[Guest Lucidiana]

@QB2 aw, I'm sure he would be flattered ^^

 

Session #2 still Day 1 [yes, another 15 minutes]

This time I entered the hotel room from the bed, by jolting up like a vamp at midnite.. M was laying beside me, staring blankly I think. I tried something different to make his personality. I took a little orb and filled it with a ll the feelings/memories/personality [basically his 'essence'] that I know from the M in my daydreams, and let it sink into his chest. He fell flat on his back and took a big gasp in. I'm not sure if it hurt him, but it was scary so I won't be trying it again.. After that, I added another painting to the wall. It leads to a city M and I frequented. We walked around a bit, taking in the sights, and then we went to a forest trail. Again, I talked to him about his personality, hummed a few songs, just enjoyed his company for the most part. I snapped my fingers and all the lush green trees turned into pink sakura trees, and I led M into a clearing where we sat down to eat sandwiches and a Taco Bell empanada. He particularly loved the empanada [i assume from the faces he made]. I got tired, as am nao.. So we went back to the room. I took out some VHS tapes so M could watch a movie while I was gone. Out of the bunch I laid out, he picked The Dark Crystal. I hugged him goodbye, and when I said 'I love you' he made the strangest face.. it would have been funny if it weren't at me haha.

http://ll-media.tmz.com/2009/06/17/0617_proctor_finalpixx_video-1.jpg

It was similar to this expression. So, yeah, I guess he was pretty miffed about earlier. I apologies and told him the door is always open if he needed me. He gripped my hand a bit as I left. wellisit

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