Hush and Hex

[Hush]

Well, I'm not entirely sure where to start, I started forcing last night into this morning(nocturnal overnight worker)

Let me preface this with the fact that I had terrible insomnia yesterday and didn't sleep at all.

 

First attempt: Around 7 PM, I'd been up for just about exactly 24 hours at this point. I just tried working on her imagery, it was an utter failure, I drifted off to sleep(for about 15 minutes) a few minutes in.

 

Second attempt: I'd left for work an hour early after consuming two energy drinks that hadn't fully taken effect. ~9PM-10PM I sit in the break room and try forcing again, I was awake enough to stay focused, but somehow my mental state was just shit. First her body kept breaking down into cubes a la minecraft, after I finally managed to hold her into focus, her body became wavy as if it was through some weird filter, Still, I managed to maintain focus and she did clear up eventually, I was able to rotate my mental camera to see her from all angles, and I started speaking to her. Throughout the day at work I occasionally spoke to her as if she was there listening, I didn't get any response, but I wasn't particularly expecting one.

 

Third attempt: 2AM-3AM. by lunch I'd consumed way more caffeine than anyone should in such a short period, but I was finally very aware. I was able to picture her very clearly and speak to her fluently. I saw some limb movement, but I'm not getting myself overly optimistic so early over such a small sign that was probably a false alarm.

 

7:45 AM now, my body is not prepared to allow any sleep yet after the chemical assault I layed on my heart, liver, and kidneys, so after posting this, I'll probably go on to session 4, they seem to be getting progressively more productive, though that is also likely linked to my level of awareness and focus.

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Well, I've been mulling around the idea of what form my tulpa would take if I were to make one. I finally settled on Hexadecimal from Reboot, the character has always sort of resonated with me, on top of that, the idea of a character from a show where the premise is sentient entities within a computer is kind of appropriate for a tulpa.

Pic included

http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a40/Rav...EN_HEX.jpg

Once I settled on the idea, It gave me the push to begin. I start today.

 

Just reposting this so you know a little about Hex.