Mr. Marbles

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Goodevening, I am not really sure where to start. I have been meaning to start my progress log for a while now. I have been re-creating my tulpa a couple of times and.. then I just wanted to start over, so I told him that. I told him to start on a fresh new start.. I know this is wrong but.. It just feels right, and I have been losing him ( as in growing more distant ). My tulpa is a lanky man with a clear white bearded vulture head and fluffy feathers, clear blue eyes and that is how far i have gotten on his appearence and his name is Mr Sebastian Marbles.

 

Im going to try something different, a method i have yet to see be used. Im going to, together with Sebastian, wander through the toughest of nature and travel and seek out our wonderland together. A journey that will make a different bond for the both of us ( hopefully ). Because spending time together is going to be considered the most important part of the intire journey, we have to think of survival and teamwork together. And we wont stop wander until we find a cave or anything else we can rest on/in.

 

Why did i choose to create a tulpa? Because I feel empty, I feel alone, despite people around me. It feels like being understood is the hardest part and people think im unpredictable. I did not want that anymore, i wanted somebody I could take care of, and that somebody would do the same. We will wander together through this until we have reached our goal and I will keep this as some kind of journal.

 

People might think its stupid or silly because a wonderland is a place where we are supposed to relax. But I can only relax when i know the entire world ( and especially my mind ) is open and endless. Adventures is my way of solving that problem, and having a goal as well.

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Starting tonight: the start of our journey is going to be at the bottom of a mountain in the woods, we are going to camp there to spend some time on his form and personality, hopefully it will go well.

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I had put up a tent and a campfire in the forest right beneath the mountain and imagined the best i could the sounds that where surrounding us. We sat by the fire together and I continued working on his form a little. Bad thing was that i didn't talk to him... but i was really tired so i had to concentrate not to doze off. Sebastian have now developed a more accurate human body, but its quite lanky and i can see his spine quite easily, but thats by own choice. I was too tired to continue on his traits so i fell asleep beside him by the fire. Not sure if he did the same though.

 

I will try more today when its easier to stay awake. I hqve heard passive tulpaforcing is good :>

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I'm subscribing to this thread, I really like your idea. I always thought of making this as just doing it hands on, but you are making something by discovering it, kick ass.

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Its been a long time since i actually updated,why?

 

Because there have been a lot going on, though i got another kickstart from pleeb when he linked me to a forum thread.

I made a mistake. I was afraid of forcing or even think about mr. marbles while going through a lot of dificoulties.

 

The discovery of our wonderland have been moved to another location.. we are no longer limited to real life outdoor locations, I have now decided that any dream like epical place can work. I got that idéa after watching paprika.. We should never limit ourselves to anything, because anything can happen! Mr Marbles have now returned to his first form though. http://i.imgur.com/naMqC.png <- i made some doodles :>

 

Our progress thus far: We are located in a big big big marble hall. Its so big that the walls almost disapear in the atmosphear.

There are open windows on the left side of the hall with the view of space stretching out, in every color and form thinkable, stars twinkle bright. Me and mr marbles is going to wander through this hall until we come to some sort of stop or change of location, it may take days, it may even take years, who knows. Sometimes we bump into the strangest of things. A sandstorm may appear out of thin air attacking us or there might come something else, totally unexpected. And all these strange things is going to form us like i said in first post.

 

Mr Marbles have yet to speak, but he giggles like a little school girl and always smiles sweetly at anything. And I have a feeling he can fly despite the fact that he lacks wings.

 

Right now the hall has been empty but the coldness of the marble stone is forcing us to come up with something to warm us with under the nights. However tonight im taking him outside of the pillars and windows and improvise myself into a place where we are going to watch a parade. Yes that was also inspired by the movie paprika, but it looked so fun and i thought i could be wonderful to join such a thing with a person that is as happy and joyful as Sebastian!

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Got sidetracked a LOT during this forcing session.. We missed the parade and we are now stranded down on a deserted highway in an abandoned city.

 

This is how we got there: I told Mr marbles we were going to do something fun together, he looked at me without expression but i grabbed his hand and led him to the edge of one of the windows and pointed down. I explained to him that I was going to take him to a parade. His expression was still blank so i took a chance and jumped out of the window falling down in high speed.

 

Soon the space changed to a bright blue daytime sky. However it was now that I sensed a great happyness from Sebastian. He grabbed onto my other hand and smiled as we fell. It was wonderful!

 

We soon saw the buildings appearing underneath us. I grabbed Sebastian by his waist and turned my back against the buildings to reduce the impact when we crashed down. We crashed into a building and through some floors before we landed and everything went black. It was kinda strange though because everything went literally black when i fell asleep, as if i actually had been knocked out.

 

When i woke this morning we wandered around and we only saw what had been left over from the parade that we missed. Im not sure what we should do now, try to get back to the great hall, try to find the parade or walk along the highway.

 

Exploring different wonderlands instead of just having one, and not limit myself was a great decision, everything means so much more that way.