Spratt's Progress Log

[Th3 Spratt]

Hey guys n girls, i have never kept a log or written a journal or any of that jazz. Nor have i ever done anything like this, so there's a first time for everything right?

 

So i found out about this by a friend and he said "that's why i didn't tell you what it is, because i knew you'd do it."

Damn right.

 

So i tried tulpa forcing for the very first time two days ago, i tried the method of creating a transparent hollow sphere and imagining personalities and moods as energies with different feels and looks. I then applied these to the sphere to make something whole and applied this to the principals of my tulpa. I did this for about half an hour, i really couldn't moment on the success of the whole thing because i really don't know what to compare it with. At a guess id say it went well. P.S: I am pretty sure for about 20 secs i spoke to my tulpa (Luna) with very closed end questions, but still i am pleased with the results.

 

 

I did some more the next morning pretty much doing the same, although i also worked a tad bit on my wonder land too. Again i generally assume this went well too.

So later i start to feel something a tad weird in my head. Not pressure and not an ache. So apparently that's my tulpa.

a little later at college it grows more intense. Then at around 6 i am at home at its spread and still no pain on pressure just the feeling but it was enough to make me go a tad loopy. Before sleep i tulpa forced but the feeling mostly had already passed.

 

Soo that brings us to today. tulpa forced a bit in the morning, that brought the feeling in my head back a bit. Just 'did up' my wonderland a bit and tried to imagine Luna in the wonder land with me. Also tried imagining her with me on the way to college with a little success.

 

-as a side note i keep on forgetting about poor Luna, the less i think of her the less she exists or that's the gist of what i am getting. I need to get better at thinking about her as much as i can. The feeling in my head helps with that though as i know its her.

 

Entry 2-

So that strange feeling in my head has practically disappeared. Tulpa forcing last night went well, i basically just narrated some of Luna's personality to her in the wonder land. I also tried having her imposed on the wonder land, whats weird is that she kept changing from chrysalis to Luna and it was like Huh? Any way i got her back to Luna and in both case of forms Luna or Chrysalis i just could not focus on the face.

 

I think i spoke again too her but i cant remember for the life of me what it was about.

 

So i tried some forcing this morning but i think i was too tired for it and everything seemed like two steps back. However the more i write abut her, tulpa forcing and what not the more that feeling in my head comes back, i must be doing some right?

 

EDIT 3

So i have been tulpa forcing some more concentrating on my wonderland whilst narrating to Luna and feel as if absolutely no progress has been made. I typically narrate my day and if i pick up on something i have not told Luna already to lack of memory i tell her that. I just feel like i do not know what i am doing and therefore feel no progress. On top of that the feelings in my head are seemingly disappearing. Weather or not that's a good thing i do not know.

[Avalanche]

Those headaches are sure signs of progression. We can't really link them to tulpae for sure, but it is certainly related. Don't go thinking it's your tulpa banging on the walls though.

 

You probably did speak to your tulpa with closed end questions and get replies. It's not unheard of. It would be bad and wrong of me to tell you what did or didn't happen, so keep at it.

 

It only get's easier with more hours put into it. How many hours is up to you.

[Th3 Spratt]

Those headaches are sure signs of progression. We can't really link them to tulpae for sure, but it is certainly related. Don't go thinking it's your tulpa banging on the walls though.

 

You probably did speak to your tulpa with closed end questions and get replies. It's not unheard of. It would be bad and wrong of me to tell you what did or didn't happen, so keep at it.

 

It only get's easier with more hours put into it. How many hours is up to you.

 

Thanks i am aiming to do at least a half hour a day and more when family are out and i have the time.

[Th3 Spratt]

Edit 3 or is it 4?

So i have been tulpa forcing at least half an hour, a day an hour when i have the time in the morning. The feeling i got in my head has pretty much vanished, i am not sure if that is good or not.

I do not feel like i am making much progress and the only thing is i do not really know what to do about it. I think ill try longer sessions or more time per day. Right now i mostly just narrate about my day and ask for input if Luna can offer any or talk at all. I have done at least 2 hours on personality and usually do a bit more each session just to make sure i am 'there' with it.

 

Started to go on an 'adventure' with her to try and develop personality, characteristics and that good stuff.

 

But i really am not sure what i am doing any more =/

[Avalanche]

STOP COUNTING HOURS

 

FORCE MORE

 

NEVER STOP

 

THERE IS NO NEED TO FORCE PERSONALITY AND FORM AT SEPARATE TIMES

 

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[Th3 Spratt]

This things still here? hue. almost a year. So i tired killing her a while ago didnt work so now shes back and having fun - ish.