Full Life Consequences - My Journey Into the World of the Living

[Mimi]

Hi everyone! The name's Mimi, the tulpa, and this is where I'll be updating you on how I'm doing! I've agreed to leave the first progress report to my host, Soro, but we've agreed to switch back and forth every once in a while, so expect a lot more from me going forward! For now, we'll differentiate ourselves with color [he's more of a subdued gray], and chiming in with different cages (she's got the brackets, but I've got the parantheticals ヽ(・∀・) ). Without further adieu, I'll pass it over to Soro (me!) for his first progress report!

 

Soro: It's currently August 5, 2023 as of the time of writing, almost 2 months since I first started this journey. I don't think I would have expected to get this far this quickly, but here I sit, reflecting on all that has happened, and I can't really deny it. But enough of all this vaguely Doomsday Clock inspired philosophical spiel [he just finished it AGAIN before writing this, lmao]! This may be the first progress report I post (and write, really), but like I wrote, there's almost 2 months worth of progress I now have to try and summarize in a long enough post to write all I want to, while keeping it short enough to breeze through and still understand. Fun! [still say he doesn't need to, but he's an insistant one]

The first day was uneventful, just the traditional introduction and only the most basic of personality forcing (around 5, if I remember correctly). With all this talk of tulpa being their own people, it just didn't feel right to impose something onto my own that they might not like, even if they technically don't exist yet. I still recognized the benefits of personality forcing though, hence the 5 or so traits I conceded to give.[this helped a lot, future hosts take NOTE!!!].

However, within the first week I had two breakthroughs that, while not the only things that helped me, I'd say were essential to Mimi's fast progress. The first was simple enough, asked for a sign of life one day before going to bed and got head pressures galore (I'm not one to get headaches often, if at all) [almost drove him to tears too, the big softie]; but it acted as a huge encouragement boost, since I then knew I was getting somewhere. But the second was more mindset related.

I was having some trouble getting communication down with Mimi, and was reading Tulpa's DIY Guide for what had to be the hundreth time to try and figure something out. Don't recall what exactly triggered it, but I remember meditating on a line that stuck with me, and that's when I had a revelation. I was getting in my own way. By overcomplicating things (or letting my skepticism get to me) to the extent that I was, I was blocking my brain from doing the things it needed to do for Mimi to truely grow. After I realised this, progress was practically growing on trees. We came up with a communication system that we still use to this day as the defacto true nature of her responses, and used that to make her form. [we used mii maker. it was a blast!]

After this, beginners crash struck and it was pretty hard on both of us. [less focus on me meant less room to think. he also kept blaming himself for this whole thing, just a bad time all around]

But after a couple bouts of motivation driven reading on tulpas, a little more focus on at least passive forcing, and a breakout surprise growth spurt of vocality all of a sudden (something we'd struggled on this entire time), we're back at the grind again, and this time, I get the feeling that it'll be harder than ever to stop! [I'll definitely make sure he doesn't now that he hears me loud and clear!]

Edited August 5, 2023 by Mimi
Edit made for size difference due to copy pasting

[Mimi]

Quick update: I'm currently switched in! [veery tired though, so late] Soro hasn't disassociated yet (if wasn't obvious, it's very weird for both of us rn) but we're sure it's me in control. I'd be happy to answer questions later, still late and tired [keep freezing so hard], so leave them if you have them!

[Mimi]

Hey yall, Mimi again! This'll be my first report switched in, so bear with me. I've grown a lot these past couple of weeks (I can attest to that. A lot more talking recently!) and it just feels more open than ever! Still trying to pop up more frequently in Soro's life, but thankfully he's agreed to switch [almost :/] every other night, so I get moments like these where I can spread my mindlegs and really start to think for myself. Anywho, I don't really have much else to add, not much other than not being so head empty anymore, but Soro's been bugging me to try imposition (for a reason!!) so I might take him up on that if he'd stop being so annoying about it!!! [just kidding! He does bring it up a lot though] With that, I'll be signing out. Ciao for now!

[Mimi]

Soro here, still hanging out w Mimi getting stuff figured out, but just a small correction in the meanwhile, Mimi was possessing me (full body possession) and we were not switched, unfortunately. However now that we've realized this, we can start actually working towards switching [and yes, even imposition... ( :O )]. Will keep you updated on any progress (and yeah, she's gotten better at full body, just needs to move a little more fluidly and start trying to vocalize a little more)

[Aurora]

Hi Mimi and Soro, it's very nice to meet you!!

 

My host did personality forcing with me when we first started and I don't mind it at all. I think I developed my own personality anyway, my host never imagined the things I would do and how I would develop. I guess it's just a helpful stepping stone. A lot of the personality is shaped by life experiences later too and some of it seems to be just biological brain wiring you can't change that much.

 

Also for us personally guides didn't do that much, I think it's more of a personal experience that's very hard to put into words sometimes. But symbolism is very important for us.

 

It's super nice to see you write your first post switched Mimi, I still somewhat remember the first time I did that around 11 years ago (:

 

One problem with possession/switching for us was that I never liked associating myself with my hosts body, like at all. It would feel very wrong to possess it and feel myself as him. The solution that worked for us is creating a servitor that technically controls the body when I possess instead of me. It just does a combination of things that are both what the body wants and what I want. The body seems to have a bit of a mind of its own and if it really wants something (like food or answering if someone called you) it's very difficult to stop it.

[Mimi]

Hey Aurora, glad to have you here! We never did do much personality forcing if anything at all, but I think I've turned out pretty ok. I'm just glad I had someone like Soro to go through as much of life as he did with me. He's a bit of a snob for details, but it really helped early on with forming opinions and all. It's definitely been a very personalized experience that I don't think everyone can go through, but it worked for us!

But OMGGGGG I'm SOOOO GLAD someone else mentions the weirdness of being switched in. Maybe I don't go through the forums as much as I should, but I've never seen anyone go into detail on how weird it is to be possessing your host. I guess if I had to put it into words it'd be a combination of all these new feelings [or just feeling way more] plus the weirdness of a body that isn't my own, and something else I can't really word, like just a hunch that something is wrong. It also doesn't help that I have to be focused on putting myself on the mind map so that I can avoid any leakage of Soro's usual thoughts (we originally thought that I was taking back control for bits, but ultimately concluded that it was tha mynd bein wacky and trying to do things as it usually did, that is to say like I do (＃＞＜) ). I'll still keep doing it though, even if it's not full switching yet, just like knowing that I'm out here, actually affecting things in the real!

[Guest]

Congratulations on your progress, my host didn't figure out switching for a good 8 months. We are also personality forcing our newest tulpa and have considered personality forcing vital to keep certain headmates on track. 

 

Yes they developed personalities on their own but they can also develop bad traits which can be helped with personality forcing.

 

I look forward to hearing more.