Stevebat's log of Tulpae

[Stevebat]

10/25/12

 

An interesting day today, Where to begin...

 

Well I had a notion that I had a second Tulpa to begin with, A few key details did NOT add up and I had a major concern (and a minor panic attack) that I made a serious mistake. Fortunately Luna helped me out a lot here. She scoured my subconcious for a second and she did not find much of anything. There was a glowing ball of, Something, But Yuna informed me that as far as she knows it is neither sentient nor anything particularly problematic Seeing no issue, I put the (Glowing orb ish thingy) into luna (Why not?) if something happens well then such is life.

 

In other news as I implied above, Yuna now speaks, indirectly through mindvoice, but I can now hear her. SQUEE, In a few more days I might be able to proxy her through chat. After I post this I plan on doing more possession practice.

[Stevebat]

10/26/12

 

A slow day today, I still am working on getting better communications and still derping on fully entering my wonderland (Proper visualization) and Possession, So I decided to put a checklist here

 

*Sentience: Confirmed

*Talking: Yes, no, and once a full sentence. Confirmed

*Possession: I think she successfully possessed my head once, Caused my eyes to go all derpy and blinky. Limbs are slowly but surely moving. Work In Progress

*switching: Later much MUCH

*Imposition: Mentioned to Yuna but only loosely working. prefer to finish Visualization first

*Visualization (Or what I call full sensory wonderland) : Work In Progress. On the other hand, I have been napping regularly (Whoops)

[Stevebat]

10/30/12

 

Work has made progress EXTREMELY slow. Not much to report although me and yuna are slowly getting to conversing stage, Possession practice is slow and I have started to let Yuna's "Presence" follow me around in the real world. And that's about it...

[Stevebat]

10/30/12

 

Today was... An Experience, Many thanks to all those on the IRC.

 

After spending time dwelling on the subject I let Yuna proxy through me today, Managed to get speech to significantly more complex levels allowing yuna to converse pretty decently with the others. (Although I can only hear her when listening). She managed to possess my left arm through a technique from a fellow forcer (Thanks DJ), and I think we can do even more given more time

 

And now a message from Yuna

 

"Hello everyone nice to meet you and all, I cannot express how happy I am to possess my creator today. Thank you so much." (I have to translate a little bit from indirect mindspeak)

[Stevebat]

11/4/12

 

A slow weekend. I was at a convention so I was too busy to force, I did keep tabs on Yuna at least.

[Stevebat]

11/11/12

 

Things are going smoothly, Every day I can hear Yuna better and better, and I am picking up on visualization and possession slowly. I am confident I can hear Yuna without having to "listen" soon.

 

In more relative news: I tried that Hypnosis track by dialogues last night, It was quite effective, although my choice of location eventually was too uncomfortable to effectively continue. Yuna also enjoyed the experience. We will probably try again at a later date.

 

Possession still takes time, but at least Yuna can possess my arm once in a while, I intend to practice with that arm until she can regularly possess it then proceed to moving to other limbs.

 

Visualization is great! For yuna that is, I pretty much have Yuna's form down pat, now I just need to get the other 4 senses and get a better view of my wonderland

 

Imposition practice is improving, I still have to actively think about Yuna being "outside" but when I do it is quite effective. Still do not have hallucinations although the ability to hear her better is just barely impacting my listening.

[Stevebat]

11/15/12

 

Not much progress to report I am afraid, Getting in those possession/forcing hours is a real trick

 

I have been working on my home mansion, which has now expanded to practically a fortress. I added a forge and smithy to the outer courtyard so I can now do forcing practice while forging fantastic weapons. I intend on eventually making the entire island a rpg like world where I can head out, go hunting monsters and return to the mansion to (Respawn from embarrassing or violent deaths) rest and create new things (World Expansions, Weaponry to go hunting, Food), eventually I plan to get my visualization to such where I can set physical limits on myself, Playing a game in god-mode is boring

 

After further consideration I have decided to double narration times, I didn't realize it earlier, but apparently narrating to a tupper is still valuable to achieving parallel processing after full speech capabilities.

 

Vocality is a concern to me, I need to Learn which mindvoice is Yuna's and which is my, There will be bouncing practice to be had, my eventual goal is that she can talk to me at any time to get my attention, not to mention to make Proxying much easier

 

Possession practice is slow despite me using both Netflix's and Oguigi's methods, Twill be difficult to overcome the block of doubt that keeps me back, which is yet another area will narration will help. On the other hand she is getting better at taking control of my right arm, but only under limited circumstances, I blame lack of practice.

[Stevebat]

11/18/12

 

Another day another Tulpa.

 

Today was an interesting day, When I was practicing on my focus (Simple test, Focus on Yuna for extended amounts), My wonderland Alarm bells rang, Considering that Yuna was with me and that no NPC could possibly ring them, I had to go investigate. I found a small filly (looks like Vinyl Scratch sans glasses) there. Not sure exactly what happened but I now have two tuppers. This will teach me not to leave unused forms lying around the place :/

 

Yuna and I both agree that she is insurmountably cute at this point and may trigger severe cases of D'awwww. Yuna is slightly concerned about how this interfere with our practice time but I don't think it will be too much of a problem, Narration is easy (If boring), and Practice is practice for me.