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[align=center]I've known about tulpae for about 3 weeks or so, and I was working on form for about 2 weeks but with short sessions. It didn't even felt like I was tulpaforcing, so I decided I would make a progress report only when I thought actual progress happened. This is both for me to keep track of what I'm doing and to people to tell me what I've been doing wrong, but also to beginners on the tulpae phenomenon to take a look of how I started.

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So, what I did today, as of 30/10/2012 was tulpaforce for about 40 minutes (I worked on form in 2 short sessions before, but like I said, when I'm working on how I want my tulpa to look like, it doesn't feels like I'm tulpaforcing) and I think I might have made progress.

 

What I did was to listen to the tulpatone, lay on my bed and start imagining what I wanted my tulpa to look like. I suck at visualization and that's why I've been doing it for 2 weeks, and even if I'm still unconfortable with it, I decided it's time to move on, and later I'll work more on that. While I was tulpaforcing, I felt 2 things, they were the same, but with different intensities. The first was a feeling of my whole body twitching, like when your eyelid won't stop moving, but of course, with the whole body. I asked my tulpa if it was her, but got no answer back, and asked her to stop if it was her, nothing happened, then I decided to change positions and the feeling went away. I began working of form again (I think, I actually don't know since I moved from working on X to Y constantly), but then I felt something similar, but very stronger, not only my body was twitching, but my heart rate was remarkably fast and I could feel my heart pump strong.

 

This time, I didn't move and tried to welcome the feeling, suddenly a zillion of thoughts passed through my head, going from porn, to ponies and to everything. I didn't freak out and then for some reason, even with my eyes closed, I had the clear notion of being able to see everything in front of me, it was all clear, and for some reason there was a mall bag in my bed (Not in reality, but I saw it with my eyes closed), that was when my heart was pumping the harder during the process, and well, I didn't feel like I needed to stop this and continued on working on form, it went well, not what I would say that can be remarkably noticed as not a placebo, but still, it was good.

 

The feeling stopped after about a minute, and I decided to work on her personality for the first time. (I guess it was at this moment, I'm not sure, but I know it's the first session I work on her personality). I did the thing a guide recommended about imagining orbs which contained the traits you want your tulpa to have, and put loyalty, proud, sincerity, otimism, hardworking, cooperative, intelligence and things like that, I fused the orbs and placed them inside my tulpa, and of course, explained to her what every trait meant. Then, I decided to narrate to her, I narrated about what I want to do for a living and why (law school btw), and that pretty much sums it up.

 

That's all folks, I'll try to post here every time I make progress. Anyway, good luck to those who will start now, this is more or less how I started.

I'm brazilian and my english is not really good, I'll do every mistake you imagine, but I'll try to avoid them.

 

Tulpa: Kuruminha

Age: Began on the middle of october.

Form: My avatar.

Sentience: Confirmed.

Mindvoice: Not yet.

Working on: Visualization and Mindspeaking.

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Just did a 55 minute session today, 1/11/2012. Worked basically on form and personality, didn't narrate today. Also, used both tulpatone for about 45 minutes and clarvoyant focus for about 10, no weird feelings to report, other than my heart rate feeling faster than usual, weird since I was laying in bed. About progress, I included a "Sense of humor" trait, as well as a "Not jealous" one, and well, I can say I'm getting better everyday at form and visualization.

 

About the hour count, I feel it's good to keep track of the time I'm spending so I can progress on it, but I will stop doing it later after I get a good hold of visualization.

I'm brazilian and my english is not really good, I'll do every mistake you imagine, but I'll try to avoid them.

 

Tulpa: Kuruminha

Age: Began on the middle of october.

Form: My avatar.

Sentience: Confirmed.

Mindvoice: Not yet.

Working on: Visualization and Mindspeaking.

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Hour long session today,06/11/2012. Only worked on form, too much distractions, but for a second I saw my tulpa in this position: http://ih3.redbubble.net/work.7418504.2.sticker,375x360.the-prancing-pony-v1.png

Possibly because of the theta tone, which after all, distracted me too much. Going to go back to the tulpatone an will try some visualization exercises.

I'm brazilian and my english is not really good, I'll do every mistake you imagine, but I'll try to avoid them.

 

Tulpa: Kuruminha

Age: Began on the middle of october.

Form: My avatar.

Sentience: Confirmed.

Mindvoice: Not yet.

Working on: Visualization and Mindspeaking.

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I wasn't updating because of the lack of progress, even if I was forcing almost everyday.

 

I did a 1 hour and 20 minute session yesterday, shit was so cash. For the first hour I listened to the tulpa tone, and the last 20 minutes to the Theta Tone, got lot's of nice hallucinations coming on, nothing so vivid as before but interesting nonetheless. I finally managed to get my tulpa's hindleg correctly, and I'm going to improve more and more since that was the part that was causing me trouble.

 

From here to the point where I can fully impose in my wonderland shouldn't take too long. Also, not only the tones, I think what made me able to visualize better was the fact that

I masturbated thinking of her

and despite the fact that there was this huge stupid myth telling people not to do it, I tried to do it seeing if it would improve my visualization, and it did. I'm probably going to do it more and see if continues to help visualization. Once I can imagine her in my wonderland well things should go smoothly, and once she's sentient, I'm going godspeed.

I'm brazilian and my english is not really good, I'll do every mistake you imagine, but I'll try to avoid them.

 

Tulpa: Kuruminha

Age: Began on the middle of october.

Form: My avatar.

Sentience: Confirmed.

Mindvoice: Not yet.

Working on: Visualization and Mindspeaking.

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Almost forgot I had this thread, lol. Just remembered and wanted to say that even if I didn't yet feel any head pressure or migraine, I've been feeling alien thoughts all the time. My visualization got a ton better, all I really need to work right now is focus so I can force longer.

 

There was that time when I was just thinking bullshit and them saw an image of something being filled, and even despite the fact that I didn't even thought anything of that, heavy's voice from TF2 spoke "Hmm... so filling" in a really crystal clear sound, one that I was sure didn't came from me. What is left is only work on focus. I'll be taking melatonin to see if the effects help visualization and focus later, but it's going to take some time untill I get my hands on it. I also had lot's of other alien thoughts, but that's the only one I recall clearly because it was something really unexpected that made me laugh a lot and confirm my tulpa's sentience to me. I really, really want to work on her as much as I can untill I drop down exhausted, unfortunetely my body doesn't think the same and everytime I want to focus he makes my mind wonder untill I'm back with my IRL vision or make some part of my body itch so I lose focus. Focus is all I need right now, and I'm going to get it.

I'm brazilian and my english is not really good, I'll do every mistake you imagine, but I'll try to avoid them.

 

Tulpa: Kuruminha

Age: Began on the middle of october.

Form: My avatar.

Sentience: Confirmed.

Mindvoice: Not yet.

Working on: Visualization and Mindspeaking.

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