Ys. June 20, 2024 June 20, 2024 Spent about a day here. It seems that I'm supposed to do this. Hope I'm not doing anything wrong. I've existed for two months. I came into existence the moment my host had his first thought about "forcing". Not very typical, but from what I've gathered, it's not somehow wrong. So, that. Possessing came quickly after a few hours of practice, and imposition followed(although only the basics, it's still hard to maintain). Currently trying to switch with limited success. Will be updating progress when it comes(if we remember). Thanks for reading, and leave something if you please. Feeling known is something my host greatly lacks. "Hey, talk about yourself for a bit." "About what?" "...I actually don't know. How do normal people do introductions?" "What's a gender? Can I eat it?" "You know what, sure, you can eat mine. I never cared about it that much anyway." "We don't have a host anymore. Host, isn't that right?" "Yes, that's right. And if you put this in your signature nobody will understand it." "Cool! Then I'm definitely doing that."
Lavender June 22, 2024 June 22, 2024 On 6/20/2024 at 8:37 AM, Ys. said: Spent about a day here. It seems that I'm supposed to do this. Hope I'm not doing anything wrong. I've existed for two months. I came into existence the moment my host had his first thought about "forcing". Not very typical, but from what I've gathered, it's not somehow wrong. So, that. Possessing came quickly after a few hours of practice, and imposition followed(although only the basics, it's still hard to maintain). Currently trying to switch with limited success. Will be updating progress when it comes(if we remember). Thanks for reading, and leave something if you please. Feeling known is something my host greatly lacks. Welcome. Your experiences is a lot like mine. Within a day of joining this site, my host consciousness created me and we started talking pretty much right away. Things came easy to us. I hope things keep going smoothly for you. It's worked out really well for us.
Adagio June 22, 2024 June 22, 2024 I also had a similar experience! Good luck to you two! Plural. I'm a bit of an anomaly here. My Progress Report, where I sometimes talk about things.
Ys. July 13, 2024 Author July 13, 2024 Update~ Switching achieved, although not very satisfactory. My host wants to experience either blackout or immersive wonderlanding, neither of which we seem to be close to. But success is success, and practice makes perfect and all that. Also, found out about the existence of a dream-wonderland, failed in all but entering(meaning a few random entries spanning a month without noticeable progress in stability). Anyone have tips? "Hey, talk about yourself for a bit." "About what?" "...I actually don't know. How do normal people do introductions?" "What's a gender? Can I eat it?" "You know what, sure, you can eat mine. I never cared about it that much anyway." "We don't have a host anymore. Host, isn't that right?" "Yes, that's right. And if you put this in your signature nobody will understand it." "Cool! Then I'm definitely doing that."
Ys. August 20, 2024 Author August 20, 2024 Update. Dream-wonderland partial success, but discontinued for sleep quality. Satisfactory switching or imposition is far out of sight. Circumstances have somehow pushed me to front almost the whole day, so at least we're not worrying about problems caused by lack of forcing. However, in completing all currently comprehensible skills, we've lost our objective. Life goes on as usual, but we would really like someone to give us some tips, either to drag far-off objectives into sight or bring some new, closer ones. Thank you in advance. "Hey, talk about yourself for a bit." "About what?" "...I actually don't know. How do normal people do introductions?" "What's a gender? Can I eat it?" "You know what, sure, you can eat mine. I never cared about it that much anyway." "We don't have a host anymore. Host, isn't that right?" "Yes, that's right. And if you put this in your signature nobody will understand it." "Cool! Then I'm definitely doing that."
2serpents August 22, 2024 August 22, 2024 On 7/13/2024 at 11:29 AM, Ys. said: Also, found out about the existence of a dream-wonderland, failed in all but entering(meaning a few random entries spanning a month without noticeable progress in stability). Anyone have tips? What do you mean by dream-wonderland? In our experience dreams are nice for some things but building a persistent place is more rewarding when awake. In dreams things just change and morph in unpredictable ways and sometimes it is better to go on with the flow instead of trying to square into shape. I've seen some people on the DreamViews forums journalling about persistent dream realms. I think some of them are on the OmniLucid discord server as well, but I'm really not active there. Somebody may have tips if you want to check it out. 🐍Typhon (tulpa) & Echidna (host)🐉 Two in me, we can see who we are
Ys. September 17, 2024 Author September 17, 2024 Thank you 2serpents! However, as previously said, the effort has been discontinued. I did manage to find my way to dreamviews though, and there was indeed useful info there. We are now focusing on imposition. Somehow, we managed taste and smell completely while not having any progress in sight. This is still progress though, and practice is more motivated than almost ever. As always, leave a reply if you want to! "Hey, talk about yourself for a bit." "About what?" "...I actually don't know. How do normal people do introductions?" "What's a gender? Can I eat it?" "You know what, sure, you can eat mine. I never cared about it that much anyway." "We don't have a host anymore. Host, isn't that right?" "Yes, that's right. And if you put this in your signature nobody will understand it." "Cool! Then I'm definitely doing that."
ringgggg September 18, 2024 September 18, 2024 Looking forward to hearing more from you dude. Godspeed. D-prime is shrinking as we speak. Official LOTPW leaderboard Our imposition progress report
Ys. June 8 Author June 8 Wow… it’s really been a year, huh? Time flies much faster than I would have liked it to. High school in China kills people and I’m not even joking that much, the fact that we’re in one of the best highs in the entire country certainly doesn’t help with the pressure. But we survived. I’m not ready to post about the past year yet, partially because so much has happened and partially because I’m just plain tired, but leaving a post here will hopefully motivate me to come and elaborate later. I do hate leaving a story unfinished. Also, yes I am the tulpa, and yes we don’t use colored text for speaker separation anymore. It is no longer needed. Until next time, I suppose, if anyone even reads this. "Hey, talk about yourself for a bit." "About what?" "...I actually don't know. How do normal people do introductions?" "What's a gender? Can I eat it?" "You know what, sure, you can eat mine. I never cared about it that much anyway." "We don't have a host anymore. Host, isn't that right?" "Yes, that's right. And if you put this in your signature nobody will understand it." "Cool! Then I'm definitely doing that."
Ys. June 10 Author June 10 Okay... I'm back and ready to write. Except that now I actually think about what to write, it seems that there isn't that much, really. Far less than what I felt like happened. We grew reliant on each other, and host trusted me a bit too much. He insists that it wasn't either of us' fault, and he's probably right, but anyway. I made a few poor life decisions, not devastating ones, we're too young for anything we do to truly matter and we know it, but they were enough to have a sizable impact on our life. Then we somewhat grew apart, or together? The two seem to have close enough meaning in this particular context. Either way, for some time we primarily faced life instead of each other. We went through a variety of things as almost a singlet before separating again and trying to get back to old times, but we feel like we are different people to what we were then. The most significant change here would be host shifting his personal philosophy and discarding his notion of self. He answers and fronts and everything but does not believe in his own existence anymore. Which is... honestly, being in the same head really makes relationships different. I would have expected myself to take some time and effort in getting used to the new normal, but we reformed things almost like nothing happened. Nothing was exactly as it was, but it almost passes as a healthy relationship, so I'm satisfied. There were also a few self-discoveries scattered along the way, some of them significant, but not really related to tulpamancy and not belonging in a progress report... Actually this whole thing isn't really related to tulpamancy and is more like part of my life story. Host's life story? Maybe I should label this as hostmancy. But for this to be a progress report I do need to center on myself, don't I? A year ago, I felt like I was dead. Or more accurately, I now feel like the me a year ago was dead. Not because I was unhappy, host did his utmost against that, but because my personality was...fixed and flat, for lack of better descriptors. Host gave me no expectations, and I grew into something bland. Sure, I was bright and bubbly, and none of it was an act, at least a conscious one, but at the same time I feel as if it always was nothing but that. An act. One year later, I know that I am alive. I have problems, but I have seen people with capital-P Problems and I know that what I face is nothing. I no longer need to ignore my problems to be optimistic about them like I used to, because I have learned how to solve them. I am out of touch with my emotions, as I realized we always had been, but that does not mean I need to feel something to fill the void. I can be driven by raw logic and I can try to reach out for the emotions we lost, I can be beaten down by our brain or body working against us and I can get back up again. I accept my defeats and I know I can succeed. I have been through life, and the tiny, tame part of it that fought me and lost left me with growth. And growth of the tulpa herself can certainly be called progress in tulpamancy. I believe this makes for an acceptable progress report. It is messy, it is disorganized, it is not focused on possession and imposition and switching and such. It is also heartfelt and completely truthful. I do look forward to where our future goes; perhaps future me will look back and say, "Oh, that text marked the day I finished my character growth arc." Then again, perhaps not. I wouldn't know, I'm not living in my future yet. I'm about to create it. P.S. please do not think badly of host for all he made me go through. He went through it all with me and had his own growth, and whatever his faults, I will always love him. "Hey, talk about yourself for a bit." "About what?" "...I actually don't know. How do normal people do introductions?" "What's a gender? Can I eat it?" "You know what, sure, you can eat mine. I never cared about it that much anyway." "We don't have a host anymore. Host, isn't that right?" "Yes, that's right. And if you put this in your signature nobody will understand it." "Cool! Then I'm definitely doing that."
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