Fennec learns stuff

[fennecfoxx]

Lucid dreaming is the priority right now (aside from generally trying to navigate life). Kayleigh posted a thread last night asking about how she can help me lucid dream, then dreamt about watching it for replies. Neither of us remember who replied in the dream, but we think someone did. (We shared the dream; I experienced it from her point of view.) She woke up to my MP3 player making glitchy sounds (it's fine, but the speaker acts up now and then), and just as she was about to turn it off, our brain woke up enough to remember who the default user of this body is and shoved me back in front. It was weird.

 

After we had our "Did that just happen?" moment and tried in vain to recall any more detail of the dream, I decided to try WILD (wake-induced lucid dreaming), except I couldn't remember how to do it beyond "keep your mind awake while your body falls asleep," so I figured I'd just focus on hypnagogic imagery when it appeared and hope it transitions to a dream without me losing focus.

 

I fell asleep before I saw anything. Bummer.

 

I came across a post on reddit today about how to choose the right lucid dreaming technique for you based on your personality. Apparently, SSILD is ideal for those with analytical minds. I'm not entirely sure why that is or even why it works, but it seems like a simple technique, so I'm going to give it a try next time I wake up in the night. (Yes, it's one of those techniques you have to do after sleeping a few hours. No, I don't want to set an alarm. I'm a light sleeper, so I've got a good enough chance of waking up anyway.)

 

We're going to take a look at the replies to Kayleigh's thread in a bit. We skimmed over them this morning, but she wanted to save any discussion for the evening so it'd be fresher in our minds at bedtime.

 

Tomorrow, visualization practice and maybe something fun in the mindscape. I'll be spending a couple hours in the backseat of my parents' car, so I might as well take advantage of that time. I'm really hoping to lucid dream and enter the Liminal World tonight so I can finally start developing it beyond visualizing the same room. This is going to become our Wonderland 2.0—this time with NPCs and built-in stories and adventure.

[fennecfoxx]

No luck with lucid dreaming last night, but last night was the third night in a row I shared a dream with one of my tulpas. (That is, if you count me waking up in the night and writing "Alex?" in my dream journal with no further context before making notes about a different dream. I assume that means I dreamt about him. Neither of us could remember it by morning.)

 

I didn't do any visualization practice (as in, trying to improve my visualization skills), but the three of us spent most of the car ride hanging out in the headspace when I wasn't chatting with family. My mind kept wandering at times, like it's always been prone to. It's weird how conversation can seamlessly turn into "internal monologue but the POV keeps shifting". I don't remember us communicating (thinking?) this way much back in the day, but I think it was something I tried to avoid because that isn't how you're "supposed" to talk to your tulpas. I don't remember, though I think our communication does have a different flavor now than back then because we embrace the weirdness that comes with sharing a brain instead of trying to force it away.

[fennecfoxx]

I don't entirely understand what reality shifting is, but from what I've read, it sounds like extremely immersive wonderlanding coupled with the belief that the shifter is travelling to some other reality elsewhere in the multiverse. What's especially fascinating is that shifting leaves behind a "clone" that continues to pilot the shifter's body while they're away. That seems to be their term for the body OS.

 

I'm leaving this here for future reference: index/helpfulposts - shiftingrealities

 

I don't get all the metaphysical stuff, but I could probably adapt the techniques for immersing myself in the Liminal World. Maybe it could even lead to switching (who needs a clone when you have tulpas?), though I'd definitely try a sleeping/meditative method first.

 

Falling asleep and lucid dreaming about the desired reality seems to be a common "mistake" when shifting. They're one and the same to me, so I'll be happy with failure.

 

I don't plan on trying it tonight, though. It's late, and I haven't read any guides. Tonight, I'll try SSILD again and hope I don't immediately fall asleep this time.

[fennecfoxx]

I slept through the night last night, so no SSILD.

 

I did have a dream where I was narrating what I was doing to a tulpa. Either it wasn't clear in the dream who I was talking to or I forgot after I woke up, but a voice answered when I wondered who it was. It sounded like my own mindvoice but was entirely autonomous. We had a conversation that went something like this:

 

Quote

???: It was me.

Me: [visible confusion]

???: I said it was me.

Me: Who are you?

Kayleigh: It's an intrusive thought. Ignore it.

Me: [processing and doubting this]

Kayleigh: Just ignore it.

Me: (to the voice) Who are you?

???: I'm your subconscious. Are you an idiot?

Me: [processing again]

Me: ...was that sarcasm?

???: [silence]

Me: Are you being sarcastic?

???: [silence continues]

Me, needing a second opinion: Alex?

Alex: It's you, isn't it?

 

The voice confirmed this, and then the conversation quickly lost coherence and I fell back asleep. It was unnerving at the time, but I guess it was just a product of a half-asleep mind.

 

In other news, we saw Sheep Detectives today. Good film.