Lazy Tulpamancer

[Plupnurps]

i will try to use more words in this update

 

i can fit her whole form into my minds eye at the same time now, but she still does not feel real or vivid in any way

i have discovered that when i go to sleep or wake up there is a period during which i get glimpses of vivid imagination they last only a moment and are usually some how related to what i am thinking about, but never exactly what i am thinking about(trying to imagine her this way results in something similar in appearance but not her)

 

 

 

during a greetings stage thing i do sometimes, for a moment it felt like something is actually there but that happened only once

i have also noticed that all my weird experiences have happened when i am just waking up or going to sleep

twice i got some strange shivering feeling in my stomach when thinking about her

 

there was one day when i was shoveling snow i imagined her running around and throwing snow and so on , after that for the rest of the day her form was unusually stable