Plupnurps December 19, 2012 December 19, 2012 (bad english warning) Hi, i have been reading stuff about tulpas for about 1 month now and decided to make one. some stuff about me age 28 male no previous experience with drugs have not experienced any hallucinations in my life no diagnosed mental illness, (probably have some form of autism or something else that makes people socially retarded) Plan 1.Narrate, dont forget to ask tulpa questions 2.practice visualization until i can visualize something persistently 3.when communication with tulpa is achieved, decide on form with tulpa other stuff i am skipping personality since i dont know what i want this post took 30 minutes to make
Guest December 19, 2012 December 19, 2012 Well cum. Should your non-hallucinogenic background prove to give you a relatively disastrous sense of progress, I should let you know there are always alternatives to the traditional method of working about this delusional experience. Luck of some sort goes to you, I hope.
Plupnurps December 25, 2012 Author December 25, 2012 Time to update Started with narration, in beginning it went something like this: "hello tulpa" "so im washing dishes" ... "im still washing dishes" "this one needs to be washed too" ... "this is stupid, No, focus on tulpa focus on tulpa, what am i supposed to focus on?, FOCUS ON TULPA" "uhh im washing dishes" ... "still washing dishes" Also weird thing, on the first day for some reason i spoke to my tulpa really slowly one word at a time, i dont know why, i speak to tulpa normally now. There have been moments when i receive strange warm feeling when talking to tulpa,and sometimes i actually like talking to tulpa(i usually avoid talking to people whenever possible) Visualization has been complete failure My imagination seems to be limited to 3-4 basic shapes any more and i forget what i was trying to imagine and it does not seem to improve But i found that instead of trying to see in my imagination i can know(dont know how to describe it better) what is there, this way i made small wonderland made of flower,tree,lake,clouds,glowing sphere(tulpa placeholder) i cant add anymore things to it and it does not behave like most people describe their wonderlands Few attempts at meditating have failed Best forcing i have achieved was when i woke up and tried to sleep again, in that half asleep state my imagination seemed to be better, this is when i got that weird warm feeling Also strange thing when i imagine same thing long time , my ability to imagine only that thing seems to decrease, imagining something else is unaffected Making tulpa is hard I need a new brain
Plupnurps January 4, 2013 Author January 4, 2013 still sane i dropped wonderland and gave her form and name, this made focusing on her much easier i try to imagine her form near me whenever possible her form is vague and has some parts only when i remember them her form does not seem any different from something random i can imagine in 2 seconds my ability to focus on her and imagine things in general has improved i suck at talking, hopefully reading and imagining her form at same time counts as narrating figured out few traits i would like her to have, i tell her these traits occasionally no head pressure or unusual emotions, had small head aches but these were from being tired no responses to communication attempts, no feelings of presence ALWAYS COPY YOUR POST BEFORE POSTING!
Tiiw January 4, 2013 January 4, 2013 Your progress report is so interesting, for I tend to get a bit too lazy tulpaforcing too. I'm also a newbie, so I'll definitely be very interested in the progress you're making. Keep it up! "I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set him free." - Michelangelo
Plupnurps January 14, 2013 Author January 14, 2013 nothing important happened amount of stuff i can imagine at the same time without me forgetting something has improved(about 6-7 things), and it takes less effort than before simply imagining her form near me in real life (only that she is there not her appearance) has become very easy but its still not automatic sometimes i forget where i put her last time and get confused about where she is supposed to be at moment, this is annoying with my improved imagination tried to have a wonderland adventure, it was horrible and boring. I kept forgetting things and my creativity is really bad
Plupnurps January 23, 2013 Author January 23, 2013 No progress Imagining her presence is getting easier, but since its easier it also feels less real Sometimes i find myself answering a question for her, except she did not ask anything its strange I have done few question answer sessions where she answers by nodding or shaking head, answers i get are what i want to hear for first few questions after that its either yes to everything or no to everything I also tried to parrot her asking questions and then "letting go" of parroting, it turned to "why?","why?","why?","why?" and so on
Flexionsensor January 25, 2013 January 25, 2013 I've got a method for your concentration! Write narrate on your hand. I'd go into it more, but you can read more about it on MY PROGRESS REPORT!!! THE DESCENT INTO INSAAAANITY! It should be high up on the list. It helps. Believe me. It really does. You'll notice it. It's guaranteed. I actually enjoy reading this. It is so true to me, in August, before I had no results! "DUDE! That's wrong! You don't do that! That's like giving a kid a knife and telling him that it's a neck massager!" Shameless self promotion!
Plupnurps February 6, 2013 Author February 6, 2013 Progress? I can imagine colors now, instead of knowing what color something is supposed to be i now sort of see it Imagining things in color seems to behave differently, sometimes when trying to imagine in color i get more than i intended to imagine, for example my "wonderland" has forest and blue sky but i did not put them there, this never happens with non color imagination Did a few question answer sessions with her nodding or shaking head, her answers now disagree with me on almost everything if i change opinions so does she i am sure i am parroting this I had a weird waking up experience where i was seeing a dream when suddenly everything faded away and pair of eyes appeared then i woke up, i think these were her eyes and i have asked her to wake me up many times, this has repeated 2 more times but with different eyes
Plupnurps February 21, 2013 Author February 21, 2013 Slow progress my imagination is improving slowly whenever i imagine her form now i also imagine place she is in, this also happens when i imagine her in front of me. this results in me seeing what is in front of me and "seeing" a inaccurate and very vague version of what i see with her in it normally after i wake up i start imagining her form usually next to my bed, but once something weird happened, i tried to imagine her form next to my bed but could not because she was not there, i then spent 10 seconds looking for her and found her in my "wonderland". This was confusing how is it even possible to fail at imagining something because it is not there? My motivation to do this has been getting low
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